I NEED a fucking job. I NEED to get out of NYC.

 

 

Ditto. The fact that I have no job and no direction in my life has me more depressed than my skin right now, though my skin is a close second. Can't take much more of this.

 

 

 

 

I NEED a fucking job. I NEED to get out of NYC.

 

 

Ditto. The fact that I have no job and no direction in my life has me more depressed than my skin right now, though my skin is a close second. Can't take much more of this.

 

 

where in NY do you live??

 

 

Brooklyn. Not as bad as Manhattan, but I hate the city. Or this city at least. And can't find a job here to save my life.

 

So Im NOT alone on hating the city AND unable to find a job. Its ridiculous! Subways are the fucking worst. I was on the #2 train today from 14th to 72nd and we were packed in like sardines the entire ride. I ALMOST had a panic attack because im superrrr claustrophobic. Brooklyn is better than living in Manhattan, IMO. I guess I just hate NY all together.

 

I won $160 at the casino tonight. Going fishing tomorrow. Had another interview today. Not thinking about my skin. Living life.

 

Thats Rocks Murph. Whenever I hit the casino's I play the progressive quarter/dollar slot machines since I've heard those can be pretty good odds and its a great lazy place to just sit there and smoke and get free drinks. Thats life at its best! Good Luck to ya if your still at the casino's!

 

Stiil feeling damn ass good about my skin. Looking good, so in return, Im feeling good!

 

Yup the quarter slots and dollar slots are where its at. I came in with $40 last night. I won $50 from a quarter machine, so I walked away with $10. And then I had that ten left, so i was playing on a penny machine. I was down to $5.50 and decided to put it in the dollar slot. 1 pull. Nothing. another pull. nothing. Third pull went from $3.50 ALL the way to $162.50 in a blink of an eye. I was so stoked. I pushed cash out and got the hell of out there!

 

 

 

This might just be my mind playing tricks on me but does anyone else notice their skin is worse on a particular day? For the past few weeks I've noticed my skin is it's worst on thursdays... it's thursday evening here now and I know my skin looked better yesterday. I doubt there is anything to it and it's probably my mind playing tricks on me like I said. Just thought I'd ask out of curiosity anyway

 

Happens to me too... I freak myself out sometimes cuz I'll look in the mirror and my face will look all red and weird, then I'll look like 30 seconds later and my face looks normal.. I hate that

 

 

This is my issue too. It drives me fucking crazy. One minute I'll look into the mirror, and my face will be clear and nice. The next minute I look into the mirror, I'll notice it's all flushed and red looking. Sometimes I wonder if i have rosacea on top of acne. I notice sometimes when I smile or laugh the lines around my mouth turn red, and they don't go back to a normal flesh color until like 10 seconds have passed.

 

 

haha thanks guys - yeah I think it might be all in my head...

 

What Flagg said about smile lines not fading made me realise I might just be more self conscious about my skin on Thursdays because I have anatomy to go to - we have to wear safety glasses and I even if I only wear them for 5 minutes, I'll be left with red marks on the sides of my nose from them and they take some time to fade. And I'm actually wearing them for the full 3hrs so they're worse. So that along with the bright lights in the labs, and the people I talk to there (some of the guys are really good looking ) - just makes me wish that my skin was nicer to begin with.

 

But I'll try not to worry so much over it. That won't help anything.

 

Same here for chemistry. It sucks!

Oh and I'm thinking this green tea/sea salt toner might be working for me. I see a lot less redness and no major breakouts yet. But I've also only been using it for like 2 days so I can't really be sure.

Hands up to those who don't have a job right now!!!......

Ugh...... I feel so F'ng worthless coz for the life of me i don't have the courage to go on job interviews..... My life is taking a free fall.....

In the mean time.... Im the one who's taking care of my cousin at the hospital..... And to my complete shock, i saw a friend of mine who, by the looks of it seems to be working at the same hospital.......

What the heck am i gonna do?...... I don't wanna bump into him....aaarrrggghhhh....

I guess im just gonna go incognito and wear a scarf over my head and a mask across my face all the time...... Or if i see him id run away or go pull the fire alarm or something.....

Same here for chemistry. It sucks!

Oh and I'm thinking this green tea/sea salt toner might be working for me. I see a lot less redness and no major breakouts yet. But I've also only been using it for like 2 days so I can't really be sure.

 

I've been using that toner for a few month now I guess and I really like it I think it has helped with the redness I have too. I still have acne / I still breakout but I think my skin is doing a lot better using this toner than it was before using it

Hands up to those who don't have a job right now!!!......

Ugh...... I feel so F'ng worthless coz for the life of me i don't have the courage to go on job interviews..... My life is taking a free fall.....

 

In the mean time.... Im the one who's taking care of my cousin at the hospital..... And to my complete shock, i saw a friend of mine who, by the looks of it seems to be working at the same hospital.......

What the heck am i gonna do?...... I don't wanna bump into him....aaarrrggghhhh....

 

I guess im just gonna go incognito and wear a scarf over my head and a mask across my face all the time...... Or if i see him id run away or go pull the fire alarm or something.....

 

Yep me. (my hand is up) job-less me. Still looking for work.... hopefully we find something soon! Sometimes I really hate the idea of interviews too but then I remember that I really need a job so I just force myself to be more confident.

Hope your cousin in hospital is doing ok. And if you see that guy again, why not just talk to him - even if it's just 'hey, how are you?, well I've got to get going' - just something quick and small. Doesn't have to be a big deal. I think we all over-think what people perceive of us - we think they're noticing our skin and just our skin but they probably aren't. Our skin isn't a big deal to others.

Anway - hope everything goes well

Lonely .....sigh high-school sucks even more without freinds....

I feel calm and peaceful.

 

Same here for chemistry. It sucks!

Oh and I'm thinking this green tea/sea salt toner might be working for me. I see a lot less redness and no major breakouts yet. But I've also only been using it for like 2 days so I can't really be sure.

 

 

I've been using that toner for a few month now I guess and I really like it I think it has helped with the redness I have too. I still have acne / I still breakout but I think my skin is doing a lot better using this toner than it was before using it

 

 

Hands up to those who don't have a job right now!!!......

Ugh...... I feel so F'ng worthless coz for the life of me i don't have the courage to go on job interviews..... My life is taking a free fall.....

 

In the mean time.... Im the one who's taking care of my cousin at the hospital..... And to my complete shock, i saw a friend of mine who, by the looks of it seems to be working at the same hospital.......

What the heck am i gonna do?...... I don't wanna bump into him....aaarrrggghhhh....

 

I guess im just gonna go incognito and wear a scarf over my head and a mask across my face all the time...... Or if i see him id run away or go pull the fire alarm or something.....

 

 

Yep me. (my hand is up) job-less me. Still looking for work.... hopefully we find something soon! Sometimes I really hate the idea of interviews too but then I remember that I really need a job so I just force myself to be more confident.

Hope your cousin in hospital is doing ok. And if you see that guy again, why not just talk to him - even if it's just 'hey, how are you?, well I've got to get going' - just something quick and small. Doesn't have to be a big deal. I think we all over-think what people perceive of us - we think they're noticing our skin and just our skin but they probably aren't. Our skin isn't a big deal to others.

Anway - hope everything goes well

 

Yep...i hope i can...but what can i do? Im a coward...... Overthinking things too much..... Manic mind racing.....

.....and i sooooo wanted to punch my brother in the face earlier....... Aarrgghhhh

It's the little things he say and how he says it with a tone that makes me feel soo worthless everytime.......

I hate myself for being hurt and feeling like this.......

Upset... first cyst in like 2 weeks. Never fails to put a smile on my face.

Lonely .....sigh high-school sucks even more without freinds....

 

You should try and find a dog if your able to have one. They love ya no matter what and a dog is the best friend you could ever have!

 

Lonely .....sigh high-school sucks even more without freinds....

 

You should try and find a dog if your able to have one. They love ya no matter what and a dog is the best friend you could ever have!

 

I wish. Were not home enough to have a dog

Feeling good today. Did my hair and stuff to cheer me up. Yay artificial beauty LOL

Maybe a date night to go see a movie. Depends when my bf gets in from work.

Skin isn't looking too terrible today. Not many active blemishes...just some stuff that's healing. I start my first day of actual work at my new job at Petsmart tomor morning. Hopefully I'll be able to make some friends there and get to know people now that I'm through with the training and getting to the actual work side of it.

I need someone to talk to. My face broke out about the 3 weeks ago and in just once week my jaw are was covered in acne, some of it with pus.

It just happened suddenly. im already 28, although I did get acne when I was a teenage but never this bad.

I was acne free for years and now I hate looking at my face in the mirror. Most of the acne has already dried up but the still the red marks are there and they really a lot.

I did not realize that it was this bad not until 1 week ago when I was out with a friend and saw myself in the mirror in a mall. It was disgusting.

Im really depressed and I dont feel like eating. I dont go out of the house. People around me do not understand how I feel.

I have never been depressed. Im crying everyday when I see my face in the mirror.

im so fucking miserable

not good. my face hurts. massive breakout!! - around my lip line too, and I think I have to blame my new chapstick for that, but it's the same brand I've used (chapstick brand) sooo maybe not.... I'm trying not to dwell on my face cos I was doing well prior but it sucks you up emotionally, it's like you invest each day to how your skin looks. I guess I was becoming spoiled ><

Massive Breakout on my upper lip again....ouch.

ShonenTofu,

Sorry to hear about what you're going through, I can totally relate. It must have felt pretty devastating to break out again after being clear for so many years. Is there anything you can think of that might have caused you to breakout again suddenly like that?

If most of it's already dried up and there aren't any new pustules forming then maybe you're over the worst and it's just a case of waiting for the red marks to fade, which I know isn't easy and can still be pretty distressing in itself. I feel like i'm stuck in a constant cycle of breaking out/picking, waiting for it to heal, waiting for the marks to fade and breaking out again.

I know just awful you must be feeling. I feel devastated and my heart sinks whenever I look in the mirror, I feel doomed and trapped by my face. I never feel like eating either or if I do I just want to binge on all the wrong things to comfort myself, even though I know I can't or i'll just break out more. Like I say if you've stopped breaking out and it's drying up then you should be over the worst and hopefully it'll get better.

If you still want somebody to talk to i'd be more than happy to chat with you, feel free to PM me.

I feel weird.....kinda confident and yet something else......whatever its only temporary

Depressed and stressed.

Im starting to think I have those Demodex Mites, that many people complain about. Ive started taking Oil of Oregano which Ive read can be used to kill them. We'll see.

i wish i could have period without fuckin breakoutttttt.

Not feeling good. Feeling pretty shitty actually.

I'm so stressed out - I have so many things that I need to get done at once. On top of that, the stressed / upset mood I'm in is making me think negatively about everything -getting things done on time and about myself - and negative thinking like this is just making it all worse... and this stress will probably show on my skin in a few days

Hoping I can relax a little and think a little more clearly so I can get this work done and feel better...

i wish i could have period without fuckin breakoutttttt.

 

I'm sure there will be months where you will have period with no breakout , keep ur head up:)!

Ah and btw welcome to the forums!

I feel okay. But it's still the morning, we'll see what happens...

I'm trying not to stress at all, so what I do is play games more, even though I should be studying. I know playing games is a waste of time, but it is 'till I stop breaking out.

I'm still gonna study 2-3 hours a day of course.