i feel very alone, you all know what i mean....

My face has been clear for about a year.

But today I got my period, so I have 3 on my face.

Today I'm feeling desperate, angry and kind of sad.

But optimistic, which is weird.

Hang in there guys! Try to stay positive, even though I know how lame and cliche this sounds... started getting acne about a year ago. Don't know why, just out of the blue. May have been from stress and lack of sleep. But anyway, I tried just about every home remedy out there - egg mask, aspirin mask, honey mask, green tea/apple cider vinegar, etc - and spent hundreds of dollars on face washes, exfoliators, acne treatments, and face masks. Nothing worked.

But about 3 weeks ago I FINALLY found the regime that works for me, and already my skin is the best its been in months. I'm ecstatic.

Reading some of these posts though, I really know how you guys feel. Even though my skin isn't COMPLETELY clear yet, at this rate it looks like it will be by the end of the month. It's one of the greatest feelings, and I really hope (no, I KNOW) that you will all find something that works for you and be able to experience this as well. It just takes a bit (ok, maybe A LOT) of experimentation but you will get there, trust me. Just when I was starting to give up, everything fell into place for me.

Just some blackheads on my nose, which refuse to go away.

And red acne scars.... i think they are sort of fading... so i am happy about that

It feels nice to touch my forehead, its been clear and smooth for nearly a month. YAYA!!

Still positive, always have been.

I'm feeling fine, I do feel some new bumps coming up under the skin, they itch.

Fine, my acne is about average for me and my skin isn't dry/flakey, as it sometimes is, so my make-up looks good.

Skin is currently clear thanks to BP - but i want to get off it, because it's awful.

I've become convinced that my acne was a result of using harsh products on my face for years. So i'm currently trying a less is more regime... just to see what happens. I'm now washing twice a day with nothing more than Dove sensitive beauty bar, which i'm also using as a modified shaving cream and shampoo. Will stick with it for 1 month.

This might go horribly wrong.

had a huge cyst come up right on the side of my left eye,hurts really bad & keeped me up all saturday night so sunday i tryrded to pop it. well it poped and it doesent hurt any more BUT now my eye all swollen and im going to my derm today at 3:30

So i kind of fell like crap, should of just left the fucker alone and let my derm take care of it

Feeling indescribably horrible... I'm on vacation, and I feel like it's more out of control than ever... Makes me want to sit in my hotel all day.

So i'm currently trying a less is more regime...

I think that's a good idea, I find that works for me....sometimes.

Feeling indescribably horrible... I'm on vacation, and I feel like it's more out of control than ever... Makes me want to sit in my hotel all day.

You should have a bit of fun! Especially on vacation, anywhere fun? Beach or something?

Right now I'm breaking out more, I picked at like 4 of 'em and I feel guilty! but I had to my face was hurting, itching & ugly [no doubt it looks worse now]

The never ending rollercoaster ride continues for me....

I'm on it with ya and I HATE rollercoasters

saw my derm yesterday......i have shingles on my f----ing face

my eye is all swollen my nose & left side of my face look like shit

if its not itching it hurts like hell

good news doc said it should be gone in a week or so

than i can go back to dealing with my acne

I look like shiz. Keep breaking out around mouth. It makes it extremely difficult to eat and smile. I wish my stupid period would start so I can start taking birth control pills. My face is extremely bad. I dread going to the bathroom to wash off the makeup and seeing how completely repulsive I look.

Looking in the mirror makes me sick.

my face is completely clear today, my back is breaking out a bit but nothing serious....and as happy as being clear makes me it still sucks because now i can see the scars and indents all over my face, its like a goddamned map! My friends held an intervention of sorts for me cuz my confidence has been shot for the last two months, and i totally appreciate what they did but it didnt help any, i literally climbed out of his basement window during the talks and havent returned any calls since....i hate what acne has done to me

saw my derm yesterday......i have shingles on my f----ing face

 

my eye is all swollen my nose & left side of my face look like shit

if its not itching it hurts like hell

 

good news doc said it should be gone in a week or so

 

than i can go back to dealing with my acne

Yiiikes! That blows, hope it goes away soon!

my face is completely clear today, my back is breaking out a bit but nothing serious....and as happy as being clear makes me it still sucks because now i can see the scars and indents all over my face, its like a goddamned map! My friends held an intervention of sorts for me cuz my confidence has been shot for the last two months, and i totally appreciate what they did but it didnt help any, i literally climbed out of his basement window during the talks and havent returned any calls since....i hate what acne has done to me

Well it's only up from here, right?

I dont even know whats going on with my acne anymore. Its as though i find the trigger and then it finds another cause to be triggered by!

I thought i had it pinned down to dairy! It went down to almost being clear but now its back even worse than it was before!

Not even caring anymore its, just getting rediculous!

oh, Do not know if you can say I even feel anything anymore... Been Trapped within myself for so long and been so self-conscious for so long that I don't know if it'll ever completely clear. I mean, the face is about the clearest it's ever looked but still has acne..

Your acne not only influences the way you few your image but It can destroy your personality... Especially, If you don't have support from friends, family and strong faith In God. Mostly, I'm now realizing that i'm having alittle bit of a recenting hairline from all the stressing and have some huge wrinkles along my forehead... The big thing is how it's effected the mind...

oh, Do not know if you can say I even feel anything anymore... Been Trapped within myself for so long and been so self-conscious for so long that I don't know if it'll ever completely clear. I mean, the face is about the clearest it's ever looked but still has acne..

 

Your acne not only influences the way you few your image but It can destroy your personality... Especially, If you don't have support from friends, family and strong faith In God. Mostly, I'm now realizing that i'm having alittle bit of a recenting hairline from all the stressing and have some huge wrinkles along my forehead... The big thing is how it's effected the mind...

i completly understand where your coming from, acne has consumed and spoilt my life, the things i have missed, turned down simply because i cant deal with it. Its really messed my head up i am becoming a recluse.

Yeah

Earlier I was thinking of how I was in High School, it's a hard time for everyone but with acne I kept to myself, it's kinda sad to wonder what things I could have done if I was more confident. Shoot! even now I don't do much of anything besides the standard...

Hmm.

oh, Do not know if you can say I even feel anything anymore... Been Trapped within myself for so long and been so self-conscious for so long that I don't know if it'll ever completely clear. I mean, the face is about the clearest it's ever looked but still has acne..

 

Your acne not only influences the way you few your image but It can destroy your personality... Especially, If you don't have support from friends, family and strong faith In God. Mostly, I'm now realizing that i'm having alittle bit of a recenting hairline from all the stressing and have some huge wrinkles along my forehead... The big thing is how it's effected the mind...

I hear you there. I am so emotionally drained from it all the past few years from trying everything and it just not staying the fuck away that i am at the point of really not caring fully anymore. I am somewhat coming to terms with it best i can and just maybe realizing i could just be fked with it the rest of my life and this is what my skin has turned into and where it wants to be.

So whatever its gonna breakout regardless of what i do so why should i act suprised and disappointed and down all the time when i already know it will never ever fn end. I am numb now from it all. Why do i let myself cry about it or get to that point. I cry and guess what, i still look the same, shitty, just shitty. Shitty needs to become my normal and then i will be ok i think

saw my derm yesterday......i have shingles on my f----ing face

 

my eye is all swollen my nose & left side of my face look like shit

if its not itching it hurts like hell

 

good news doc said it should be gone in a week or so

 

than i can go back to dealing with my acne

 

Yiiikes! That blows, hope it goes away soon!

 

 

my face is completely clear today, my back is breaking out a bit but nothing serious....and as happy as being clear makes me it still sucks because now i can see the scars and indents all over my face, its like a goddamned map! My friends held an intervention of sorts for me cuz my confidence has been shot for the last two months, and i totally appreciate what they did but it didnt help any, i literally climbed out of his basement window during the talks and havent returned any calls since....i hate what acne has done to me

 

Well it's only up from here, right?

 

Thanks Geeking

How do I feel today?

Well, first I was nervous as all hell because I had a derm appt and I'm always nervous going to the doctor.

Then, while I was there he asked how badly my acne bothered me and when I tried to talk about it I suddenly felt I was going to burst into tears.

Then, after discussing the fact that my acne is not improving whatsoever with antibiotics and topicals and all kinds of diet changes, he said he really thinks I would be a good candidate for accutane.YAY! *relief* I was so relieved I might finally get something that will really kick this shit I wanted to cry, but i was ecstatic at the same time.

Now that I have been home..and thinking about what happened today... I ended up crying for an hour. Its official. Though I try to tell myself that my acne isn't THAT bad, that there are much more severe cases out there and I need to stop worrying about it so much, my acne is not overplayed in my head. I mean, I always have put accutane in this mental group for other people, people whos acne is way worse than mine. and now I AM a person with bad enough acne to be on accutane. Theres no denying how effing horribly awful I look right now. A doctor wouldn't have recommended accutane to someone who didn't have something serious going on...

blah. I know this next month is going to be a rough one.

Lastly I just want to say i HAAAAAAAAAATE IPLEDGE. I could be a month into my accutane course by the time of my vacation this summer, but no. I pledge says I must wait, and I won't be able to start until after my vacation is over. I don't even want to go on vacation anymore. I will be too embarassed to be around all these people on the beach and share a room with them and have them see me when I get out of the shower and have no makeup on.

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