(Accutane course was 10mg every other day)

ugh.. will i ever be the same?

So i've been on & off accutane since High school Grade 10, i am now graduated 18 years of age. I myself use to be 300lbs with bad acne and obviously i was insecure about myself etc etc. the derm prescribed me 10mg of accutane and i've been cycling off, 1 month on it and 2 months of it, during this summer i was in gym A LOT. Doing fasted carido for 1hour & weight lifting during the day, i was also on accutane, now here is where i don't know whats going on, at the beginning of Aug I started getting tired and started skipping the gym more often, saying i needed a break (wasn't usually of me to say this) but i ignored and kept going, weeks later i woke up one day shaking from my hands and arms/tired sleepingA LOTand not sleeping good at night.

i was also taking protein during my course with accutane with no vitamin A( neither any vitamins), its been now 2 months that the shakiness hasn't gone away, i've went to my doctors we've done over 5 blood tests to see what can cause this, and all the blood tests came fine that i was perfectly healthy. ( note i am now 190 from being 300lbs after 2 years of working out), i started having heart palpitations randomly during the night before bed, so i started to do an elimination diet. If i took protein in the morning i would have heart palpitations and vivid dreams as if they were real making me wake up sweating during the night. i went off accutane for 2 months and no heart palpitations or anything, as soon as i took one i would have it back again during the night, same feeling as if i took protein.

i've been honestly depressed because i havent touch the gym since, i've been an active person since i change my life style. now i can't even lift anything like I use to, im only 18 feeling like im 30, always tired weakness hand/legs shaking, theres not one day where i wake up feeling refreshed or normal, i've done everything, and im scared i permanently damaged myself with accutane forever.. i have a MRI this Novemeber coming up to see if anything with my nerves have to do with anything, if anybody has any knowledge with this topic please help me out, im feeling depressed day by day, my derm says its not accutane it wouldn't cause heart palpitations and causing me shake, then what is? my doctors has no input and just sending me to an MRI, i've done research day by day to see if anything matches up with my symptoms but nothing. I just want this shkiness to go and want my "energy" back as if i woke up with it. please somebody !! i wrote this in hopes somebody is going through my path and needs help aswell.

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