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Well I have been depressed over my acne/complexion for years and I tried my hardest to hide it from my friends and family ever since I was in high school. For the last year though I have been really depressed and even sought help from professional therapists and dermatologists. I even went on this site for help smile.gif But I guess a few weeks ago I really hit rock bottom...I tried to end my own life because I was so depressed and the anxiety over acne overwhelmed me. I was admitted to the hospital for a 72 hour hold, which by the way is no picnic. While the people at the hospital were really helpful, I was still very much ashamed of myself for why I was there. I mean I am psychiatry resident and I had a great girlfriend who loved me for me (I broke up with her after this mental breakdown because I was ashamed over my acne and depression). I mean seriously I tried to end my life because of acne, what kind of obituary is that. I have been out of the hospital for three weeks and while I feel a little bit better, it is still hard and I am not going to say that I am completely out of the woods because those thoughts still cross my mind and who knows what will happen if I have a really bad breakout. I guess I just wanted to share my story and what the depression can really lead up to. I think that if I sought help earlier from my family, dermatologists, or even therapists I might not have ended up like this, but I kept it in because I was embarrassed. Today I am taking it one day at a time and next monday I go back to work which is really making me nervous because I will be far away from my family and friends, so my support system really shrinks. I am going to try to not let my acne control my life, but like I said I am still feeling sad and anxious over my skin. I encourage everybody to try to find some positive things in your life to cling on to and truthfully we are our own worst critic, so sometimes what we see is not what the world sees. I am blabbing now and I dont know why I wrote this post, but I think its carthartic for me. Thank you for reading all and good luck to everybody!!

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Thanks for the encouraging words. My problem is that when I feel depressed I keep things bottled in, and when I try to talk about why I am depressed I get really anxious and embarrassed. But right now I am trying to take it slow one day at a time and I honestly do not know what will happen. I mean what happens if I get a really bad breakout? I want to say that I will handle it maturely and deal with it in an acceptable manner, but I just dont know. Thank you though, I appreciate your support

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Thanks for the encouraging words. My problem is that when I feel depressed I keep things bottled in, and when I try to talk about why I am depressed I get really anxious and embarrassed.

That's exactly how I am. I've felt very depressed because of acne before and thought that ending it all would be the simplest way out. Since your 'attempt' what have the doctors said? Are you going to get any additional help?

I think chucking your girlfriend is not a good move! I know what it's like to feel ashamed that your girlfriend has to look at a load of acne, but they're with you for much more than your face.

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