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I can't live with these scars anymore, I'm going to scrub my skin till it bleeds

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I hate myself, I'm ugly just because of these ugly acne scars. They're controlling my life. My mum refuses to take me to the dermatologist because SHE THINKS the scars will go. They won't fucking go. I haven't stepped out of my house in what... a month and few days. I'm so hideous, and now I got this weird green thing that is flat and inside my skin.

Is it just me or do my scars get worse with time? They're more visible now then they ever were. People ask if a cat scratched my face because it looks horrible. Fun part is I have NO acne.

My stupid loser boyfriend thinks I'm just looking for things to criticize. People think I'm an ugly beast because of these marks and I'm so tired of living like this. I would be gorgeous if these marks didn't exist. But I'm damned for like with this. I'm never having kids. Accutane is the worst possible thing you can take and also the best.

I left school because I'm scared of what people think. I can't get into any other school now.

I'm 15 and these scars have controlled my life. What the hell do I do with the green thing that's inside my skin? It's inside. Like visible... INSIDE MY FUCKING SKIN! I HOPE I HAVE CANCER SO I CAN DIE.

STUPID FUCKING PARENTS TOO CHEAP TO TAKE ME TO THE DERM!!!

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Bio oil! I dont know where your from but i live in the UK and bio-oil is pretty good for my scars. So maybe try that? Theres a forum section about scars and lots of ways you can try get rid of them without a derm so take a look :)

http://www.acne.org/messageboard/Scar-treatments-f7.html

As for talking about cancer and such, dont. Like you said, atleast you dont have acne anymore, and scars DO get better with time. And like i said, take a look at the scar subsection, theres lots of little things you can do to speed up the process :)

Good luck!

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Bio oil! I dont know where your from but i live in the UK and bio-oil is pretty good for my scars. So maybe try that? Theres a forum section about scars and lots of ways you can try get rid of them without a derm so take a look :)

As for talking about cancer and such, dont. Like you said, atleast you dont have acne anymore, and scars DO get better with time. And like i said, take a look at the scar subsection, theres lots of little things you can do to speed up the process :)

Good luck!

I live in the UAE and I pretty much have no cash and my parents don't want to spend anything on me. Though I think they have that here.

Thanks for replying.

I posted in the scar forums before about home micro dermabrasion kits, but no one replied!

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I really hope you were joking with the whole" I'm scrubbing my face until it bleeds" comment. Just imagine the scars after that. I think you need to try and think positively. I've suffered with acne and scars for 10 yrs. But that doesn't define me. I know that I'm beautiful. Accutane can only make me better. I think you need a good laugh, to bad I horny and don't know any good jokes. Sorry :-)

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*hug* It's so hard to hear how much pain you are in! I know words can't heal your skin but it can heal you on the inside :)

Maybe you should show your mum this post you just wrote and she will know how much anguish you are in, maybe she doesn't think it is serious? If I were you I would have a deep talk with your Mum and let everything you are holding in out. Honestly. Cry your heart out, look her in the eyes, scream about the pain you are in. She needs to know how much this is taking over and getting in the way of your life. (I did this to my mum, she always brushed off my pimples as no big deal but one day I did sit her down and I had tears in my eyes as I explained to her how my skin is holding me back, and she really opened her eyes and said sorry. I felt soooooooooooo much better after my little cry, it's amazing letting out years of emotions that have been bottled up.)

In the meantime please stay strong! I know it's not easier said than done, but just don't let your skin dominate your world. Be strong, and have hope. You're only 15! Perhaps in a few years you will look back and smile at how far you have gone.

And this community is here to help you :)

xoxo

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Technically, if done carefully, a small part of the skin at a time with a strong rough cloth. Little of the skin will come out, clot and heal to form new skin right? Has anyone tried this? Would this work?

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I hate myself, I'm ugly just because of these ugly acne scars. They're controlling my life. My mum refuses to take me to the dermatologist because SHE THINKS the scars will go. They won't fucking go.

Could you ask her to take you to a plastic surgeon? It was only they that could tell me how permanent my scars will be.

I haven't stepped out of my house in what... a month and few days. I'm so hideous, and now I got this weird green thing that is flat and inside my skin.

Could you provide us with a picture of this green thing? It may be that you have a serious infection under the skin. You must see a dermatologist and certainly your doctor if you can't see your dermatologist straight away.

Is it just me or do my scars get worse with time? They're more visible now then they ever were. People ask if a cat scratched my face because it looks horrible. Fun part is I have NO acne.

My stupid loser boyfriend thinks I'm just looking for things to criticize. People think I'm an ugly beast because of these marks and I'm so tired of living like this. I would be gorgeous if these marks didn't exist. But I'm damned for like with this. I'm never having kids. Accutane is the worst possible thing you can take and also the best.

By the time you're having children there could well be a proper cure for acne other than accutane, that even has a higher cure rate. I imagine the scar treatments will be much more effective as well whether that's for you or your children's consideration (if they even get it. I'm the only one in my family with acne.)

I live in the UAE and I pretty much have no cash and my parents don't want to spend anything on me. Though I think they have that here.

Thanks for replying.

I posted in the scar forums before about home micro dermabrasion kits, but no one replied!

Maybe you should consider getting a job and paying for the treatments yourself. It's what I'm having to do to get my scar treatment.

Maybe you should show your mum this post you just wrote and she will know how much anguish you are in, maybe she doesn't think it is serious? If I were you I would have a deep talk with your Mum and let everything you are holding in out. Honestly. Cry your heart out, look her in the eyes, scream about the pain you are in. She needs to know how much this is taking over and getting in the way of your life.

This basically. Unfortunately my own parents were very "whatever" when it came to things like my skin, self-esteem etc. It was only when my mother realised I was cutting myself that it finally hit home for her that my skin was really screwing me up. I am by no means recommending this (yet more scars I'm going to have for at least another decade and they're more awkward to explain too) but I'm trying to demonstrate that to make your mother understand you're going to have to give a scream/cry/yell/break down/anything that will finally make her see this is more than some "little marks that will go away".

Technically, if done carefully, a small part of the skin at a time with a strong rough cloth. Little of the skin will come out, clot and heal to form new skin right? Has anyone tried this? Would this work?

No! The best things you can do at home are those mini dermabrasion kits you can get in drug stores. Otherwise I firmly suggest you seek the advice of a dermatologist, plastic surgeon or general doctor to prevent making your skin even worse.

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if you eventually want to get rid of your scars and don't have the money, you could ask your parents to loan you money and after your scars start getting better or some day when you get a job tell them you will repay them. I did this when my parents didn't have the money or didn't feel the importance of giving me money for certain things. Also I totally agree with what meow said! tell your parents cry your heart out explain to them the emotionall distress you have because of these scars and that you need to treat them!.

LOOK I HOPE YOU WERE JOKING about scrubing your skin till it bleeds___really listen to what you say the bleeding is just going to cause more scars! NOT GOOD... micro dermabrasion will help but only to an extent.

look you can atleast be grateful that you dont have acne! people have it soo much worse than you you should atleast appreciate that fact. There is no reason to wish you had cancer your scars WILLLL GET BETTER! you just have to have hope and patience.

YOU SHOULD also appreciate the fact that your parents don't make you too go to school, MY parents would never let me miss school for a month.

mann you should be grateful for a lot of things, and figure a constructiveway to fix your scars. where theres a way theres a will

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@Elliphannte: I've screamed, cut, begged, cried, thrown stuff around to get them to take me to a dermatologist. Instead they took me to a few psychologists and they all say I have bipolar disorder. My mother's too much a whore to realize my mood swings are mainly about my skin. It's the evil root to all my problems! As for the job, I can't get one here until I'm 16 and I don't think I'd want to be seen with a face as hideous as mine and actually interact with people. Reason I left school.

I hate my parents, they're horrible people that care about themselves.

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I 100% recommend that you dont try anthing like that. I know how ya feelin....believe me I have been in my house for 2 years, trying to get rid of them.

I would try what meow_ said, that would be the smartest thing to do.

Also try talkin to your GP, and tell him what you feel and want, and he will most likely transfer you to a Derm.

Try Bio Oil if ya havent already, does work slightly well for me it did.

Hope it gets better for ya.

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I just came back from my trip to India and my dad took me to a doctor there and he recommend the microdermabrasion, which is exactly what I wanted! So I'm back in Dubai now and I'm going to have to get it done here. Not sure where though. India was way better to get it done it's bad I couldn't stay. Is it true you can get black spots from microdermabrasion?

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My stupid loser boyfriend thinks I'm just looking for things to criticize. People think I'm an ugly beast

These two sentences-- back to back-- don't make sense. Obviously someone wants to spend time with you. Life goes on; so what if scars get in the way. Scars show the struggle, and yes they are ugly.

Time heals all things, but unfortunately, acne scars need more attention. Rather than weeping about your scars and staying at home, get a job so you can visit the derm. Although you will need insurance or a whole heck of a lot of cash for medicine and/or procedures.

And go back to school, find a way.

And read up on the org.

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I hate myself, I'm ugly just because of these ugly acne scars. They're controlling my life. My mum refuses to take me to the dermatologist because SHE THINKS the scars will go. They won't fucking go. I haven't stepped out of my house in what... a month and few days. I'm so hideous, and now I got this weird green thing that is flat and inside my skin.

Is it just me or do my scars get worse with time? They're more visible now then they ever were. People ask if a cat scratched my face because it looks horrible. Fun part is I have NO acne.

My stupid loser boyfriend thinks I'm just looking for things to criticize. People think I'm an ugly beast because of these marks and I'm so tired of living like this. I would be gorgeous if these marks didn't exist. But I'm damned for like with this. I'm never having kids. Accutane is the worst possible thing you can take and also the best.

I left school because I'm scared of what people think. I can't get into any other school now.

I'm 15 and these scars have controlled my life. What the hell do I do with the green thing that's inside my skin? It's inside. Like visible... INSIDE MY FUCKING SKIN! I HOPE I HAVE CANCER SO I CAN DIE.

STUPID FUCKING PARENTS TOO CHEAP TO TAKE ME TO THE DERM!!!

You need to shut the hell up about wanting to have cancer. My grandma struggled with cancer for years and years and it drained her, then took her life. I cannot believe you would even say that you hope to get cancer and die. I can understand you are angry, but maybe you should think a damn second before you rant. I am sorry if I am sounding harsh but I have lost many people in my family to cancer. Scars ≠ cancer.

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I hate myself, I'm ugly just because of these ugly acne scars. They're controlling my life. My mum refuses to take me to the dermatologist because SHE THINKS the scars will go. They won't fucking go. I haven't stepped out of my house in what... a month and few days. I'm so hideous, and now I got this weird green thing that is flat and inside my skin.

Is it just me or do my scars get worse with time? They're more visible now then they ever were. People ask if a cat scratched my face because it looks horrible. Fun part is I have NO acne.

My stupid loser boyfriend thinks I'm just looking for things to criticize. People think I'm an ugly beast because of these marks and I'm so tired of living like this. I would be gorgeous if these marks didn't exist. But I'm damned for like with this. I'm never having kids. Accutane is the worst possible thing you can take and also the best.

I left school because I'm scared of what people think. I can't get into any other school now.

I'm 15 and these scars have controlled my life. What the hell do I do with the green thing that's inside my skin? It's inside. Like visible... INSIDE MY FUCKING SKIN! I HOPE I HAVE CANCER SO I CAN DIE.

STUPID FUCKING PARENTS TOO CHEAP TO TAKE ME TO THE DERM!!!

Yeah that's right wish you have cancer because you have scars!!

What if you were crippled, disabled or mentally challenged???

I know scars are hard to deal with and acne. I admit I have said these exact things condemning myself because "lifes too hard" but this was the best advice I got??

Have you tried skin enhancing foods such as blueberries, pumpkin seeds, almonds and avocados all give your skin an excellent glow and makes it nice and soft

I wish you the best of luck

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they make OTC scar lightening products but some contain hydroquinone which is banned in some countries for health reasons but i'm pretty sure its still around in america. oh and another thing when you use scar lightening products make sure to wear sunscreen since the sun can make them come back again.

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I HOPE I HAVE CANCER SO I CAN DIE.

be carefull what u wish for!

i would take acne/scars over cancer anytime

i know acne and shit is hard to deal with sometime

but it´s no life treatening decease so be thankfull for that

stay positive cause negativity makes shit worse

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EmbryD, before hating on your mom, take on some responsibility. Am I saying acne is all your fault? Absolutely not! However, if you're picking and digging at your blemishes then that is absoluteoy 100% you and causes marks to linger longer.

I'm taking a wild guess in assuming your mother either hasn't dealt with acne in so long she's forgotten what it's like or she's never had to deal with it like you are right now. That's no reason to take your anger out on her. You can switch the anger to something positive. It's possible! You're already going to check out the bio oil. Great! Also, quit touching your face. Quit the close inspections in the mirror. Stop running your fingertips over every single lump and bump and then digging the fingernails into the roughness.

YOU are responsible for your happiness and worth in this life. Nobody else.

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you can cry and whine and moan about how hard your life is with acne and scarring. well, you're not alone. i'm sure that my face isn't as bad as some others, but i still have the red marks. my derm wants to put me on accutane to, but i politely refused. start being proactive. you can sit there and wallow in your sorrows about how much your life sucks, or you can do something about it. go back to school and get your education. how are your parents letting you stay home for that long? how is that even possible? get a part time job like someone mentioned before and save up your own money to get what you want. i have to do that too. i have to pay for my own gas, clothes, food, and i even gave my mom some money for my antibiotics that she got from the pharmacy. if you want to see changes, then take some responsibility. oh, and don't wish for cancer, that's ridiculous. i can't even imagine someone saying that.

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Look up Dr. James Fulton. He is the top acne specialist in the world. No one is more knowledgeable. Bio Oil might clog the pores.

You need to treat. Contact me - maybe I can help you get free product or hep you with it. You Can get rid of your acne with he right products and dilligence and no picking. And to improve scarring is possible but will need treatment and maybe in the future you can do that. But first get rid of the acne. You can do it - I see people recovering from sever cystic acne every day. Do not lose hope.

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I hate myself, I'm ugly just because of these ugly acne scars. They're controlling my life. My mum refuses to take me to the dermatologist because SHE THINKS the scars will go. They won't fucking go. I haven't stepped out of my house in what... a month and few days. I'm so hideous, and now I got this weird green thing that is flat and inside my skin.

Is it just me or do my scars get worse with time? They're more visible now then they ever were. People ask if a cat scratched my face because it looks horrible. Fun part is I have NO acne.

My stupid loser boyfriend thinks I'm just looking for things to criticize. People think I'm an ugly beast because of these marks and I'm so tired of living like this. I would be gorgeous if these marks didn't exist. But I'm damned for like with this. I'm never having kids. Accutane is the worst possible thing you can take and also the best.

I left school because I'm scared of what people think. I can't get into any other school now.

I'm 15 and these scars have controlled my life. What the hell do I do with the green thing that's inside my skin? It's inside. Like visible... INSIDE MY FUCKING SKIN! I HOPE I HAVE CANCER SO I CAN DIE.

STUPID FUCKING PARENTS TOO CHEAP TO TAKE ME TO THE DERM!!!

Then, you need to step up, and go yourself. Make a family doctor appoint, seek help, and request a dermatologist. If they do not give you one, seek more doctors, see walk in specialists till someone gets you help. My parents due to financial problems never seeked me helped. Also, I got left with a bad scar cause, my doctors office never called me for my appointment. They told me it was 4months later and in that time, I ended up with a cystic breakout. It will never be the same again. Its been quite depressing. What is even more depressing is that, my dermatologist is giving me free medication through samples cause I have no coverage. If someone stepped up to help me besides for proactive, I could be better off. My skin is 100% clear at the moment but, I still have scarring, impurities, not flawless skin despite a full 6pack, athletic, muscular build, healthy balanced diet, and I just don't get it?

Please, nobody warned me. I am warning you. Go get help immediately. Do not scrub. Clindoxyl gel helped me. I think it was 2.5% or something. That and clindets for my body. My body is fine. Also, do not squeeze, and stop being neurotic. Its not the end of the world. Life will go on. And if people wont be with you cause of acne, scarring, or something silly, your better off without them.

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