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Dunno where to begin really, but ive reached that point of just giving up. I recently tried to hang myself about a month or so back, when everything just got on top of me, but my dad managed to stop me. i have been described with manic depression and dysmophobia, where i seem to ecssasibate things therefor see them as worse. I cry every day, am afraid to look in a mirror, i spend my days hiding out in my room, and have stopped going to school. i wont go out and see anyone,im so confused about my face it drives me crazy. I even began cutting myself, im not who i once was. I am seeing a dermatologist again, since the last one just made things worse. i have to see therapists and psychiatrists But 9 months ago this wasn't me . I was always happy and everything was fine. Acne has ruined what great life i had,i don't see anyone im always nervous and i hate how i look. My face is so uncomfortable all the time, its like a constant reminder of how much i hate myself. I dunno what im looking for on here. know one can help me, i guess its just a way of expressing how low i am feeling adm. Hopefully u can all learn from this and maybe be a bit stronger than i am. But if i don't get any good news from tomorrow, i think im just gonna give up and throw in the towel as some would say. The worst part is know one understands how much this means to me, and i am just so disgusted at myself for letting it happen. God bless everyone xxx

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The first step for you is to stop cutting yourself/harming yourself. Its not your fault you have acne, so dont get mad at yourself for it.

You have to start thinking of things that made you/make you happy. And take it day by day. First start off by not harming yourself anymore. After you get past that, start leaving your room once a week, only once a week, anyday doesn't matter.. then after that and your used to it, start leaving your room twice a week..

Life might seem to suck, but you only got 1 life!! Maybe this chapter sux but theres always the next capter.. theress alot of life to be lived, its a long long season, and you can start to get going at any moment.

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i have stopped harming myself for about 2 or 3 days now to let my arms heal up, it scarily gave me a kinda of relief, but i felt so helpless when i was doing it, knowone cud help me. I still feel as if im fighting a loosing battle everyone who has tried to help em just seems to fail. I cant seem to think of anything happy as my mouth is so dry that when i smile it hurts so much. So beinh unhappy feels better physically. I know i only have one life but i hate the lone im living adm. I has stopped me playing football, having gf's, going out, doing my modelling, and eerything i just hate my life unless it gets sorted soon i just dont want this life anymore xxx

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you like depression.

your not supposed to like it, you might not even admit you like it, but you do.

when you realize you do like it..

challenge liking it, try the opposite, avoid it, your mind is powerful and capable of this.

and your right, no one can help you... except yourself. but you have forgotten that all you need is yourself to help yourself, atleast for depression.

death wont solve this problem either. you'll just be reborn into another depressive body and continue till you break the cycle, or you'll just be dead. Family and friends will mourn you, but imagining them mourn you just makes everything even worse doesnt it?

you've probly thought about this havent you, and this just made you even more depressed right? you know theres a way out, why are you avoiding it? have you thought about why your avoiding it? just think why your doing that, why are you so willing to experience depression? whats so bad about being happy?

this isnt just about acne and you know it.

your just a being trapped in a body like the rest of us, this body has acne!? SO? its the end of socialism as we know it isnt it?, the end of a happy life as you think it is... ?

The mind has gotten weaker and its using depression as an excuse, but the mind always has potential to bring it back to normal, your mind isnt retarded, its a normal mind, its fully capable.

The being , the living, the person in the body, whatever you wanna call it, is not damaged is it?

so why are you trying to end your life so much? stop tricking yourself.

you have control, if you didnt, you would never have posted here and you would be dead by now. it is simple, but its difficult, you will think its the most difficult thing in the world, but it would be simple enough for you to do.

if you dont fight this, I dont know what to tell you, you'll let me down, I'll be hugely dissapointed. But I dont think you'll let me down. I think you'll find a way real soon.

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thank you, from the bottom of my heart, thank you. I wont let you down, but i cant honeslty at the moment see a way out, im physcally and mentally drained and i dunno death just seemed like a way of stopping every day from being the same, i was at my happiest a sleep. I will try xx

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Seriously, if you are gonna spend all day in your room or whatever do some meditation or something to keep your mind off of the things that bother you, dwelling on your insecurities will only make it worse. Meditation really helps clear your mind of frustration/anger/worries. Just give it a try.

Don't give up though.

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