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Some of you may have already seen my previous post. Looking at photos before I ruined my face makes me cry. Photos attached are according to dates. My face right now is a result of 1 month on Vitex and 3 weeks on DIM. I've been off of Vitex and DIM for about 2 months and my skin is still disgusting. Nothing has really improved. It has improved very slightly but less than I thought in the span of 2 months. And my family makes me feel so much worse about my skin!!! My mom tells me how disgusting I look and I'm like thanks like I don't already know. I have fallen into this depression, I never leave the house anymore and I always cancel plans with friends. Going out with guys is an absolute no. I'm so unmotivated to do anything anymore, I can't even work on artwork as much as I used to. I hate feeling like this. Acne has sunken so deep into my emotions that I have dreams about how ugly I feel all the time. I want to go out with friends but if I do, the entire time I will be dreading how my skin looks even if I have makeup on. I stopped filming videos for my channel and stopped taking photos of myself (besides for documenting my acne). This is what I get for trying to solve this myself. My skin wasn't even bad before. I don't know what was going through my head. I try to stay positive and remind myself everyone has issues with their skin at one point, no one is judging me for my face, but it's just so hard. At this point I'm wondering if my body will "reverse" itself back from whatever hormones vitex & dim put out of line, aka heal itself, and how long it's going to take. I'm going to my primary next week to get a referal to an endocrinologist and hopefully I can get some answers. I will keep it all updated.
I'm so sorry. I know very well how hard it is battling with bad acne when you cry yourself to sleep, and even have dreams about getting more acne because it's on your mind 24/7. I started getting acne in middle school and that on top of being very pale and having light blonde hair, it stood out on my face a lot. I'm sure I was a laughing stock to some throughout middle school, to others I was simply invisible. I'm sure some just felt sorry for me as well. I remember feeling afraid to lift my chin up and look people in the eye because I was so embarrassed. I haven't told a lot of people about this period in my life because it was the harshest of all. I then began wearing makeup which did not blend well with my skin, and it being oily by the end of school day it just turned into an ugly, gross mess. One day as it was getting better I thought I could pull off not wearing makeup to school, only to have the girl sitting in front of me comment immediately as she saw me in the morning, asking rhetorically whether she also looked "that ugly" when she didn't get enough sleep, as she covered her face with her hands.
Anyway, I can see how DIM especially would do this. I certainly never had the courage to try it because the mechanism of it just doesn't make sense to me. It seems it can create more testosterone which is THE REASON most of us get acne in the first place. Which is by the way the same way Saw Palmetto seems to work, which I immediately stopped bc it was definitely making things worse. I take birth control with Inositol and also try to stick to low GI diet and some exercise in my overall sitting on a chair all day. That seems to have cleared me up after my skin was no longer cleared by bc alone. You can check out my "Yaz (Loryna) Log)" or the new thread I just posted which is just a compilation of things that literally saved me. I hope it helps. Stay strong <3