Hello everyone,

So basically when I was 13, my skin was crystal clear. I sued to use Dermalogica Foaming wash with nivea creme and literally my skin used to glow. The my mum decided she couldn't afford to keep buying this for me, so she told me to switch to the cheaper Neutrogena products...so I did. I bought the Neutrogena foaming wash and used it and literally I started getting whiteheads onmy chin, on the first day and because I had OCD and I wanted my old skin back, I was frustrated and I popped those whiteheads, leading to scabs, which then left scars.

When I was 14, the picking got worse. I got pimples on my cheeks and forehead which I picked like crazy until there were giant scabs on my face. If the pimple didn't pop properly, I would put toothpaste on it to make it scab forcefully. I of course, I ended up with tons of scars. My mum even cried like crazy because of this , and it made me feel really insecure.

At 15, I still picked. I got tons of blackheads, and again, because I have OCD, I popped literally every single blackhead and whitehead I could see. These led to scabs which then led to scars. And this cycle repeated again and again, until my chin was darker than the rest of the face, and my face overall was 5 shades darker than the rest of my body. I felt absolutely horrible.

Currently I am 16, and I recently stopped picking, but I still keep getting acne, and I don't know what to do. I hated my face, so to be a bit rebellious, I stopped washing it . Literally, my face cleared up temporarily, I got no pimples, but then the whiteheads and blackheads came, and I didn't know what to do with them so I just ignored them. They turned into pus filled pimples and I got giant cysts on my face. So I returned to the Neutrogena and since I'm a fan of suzy from miss a I decided to follow her 424 method. It worked great at the beginning but then, after a while, my pores got clogged up again, and my acen came back. So I decided to step away from all these synthetic products and just use lush. I used herbalism as a cleanser, but then, this also made me break out like crazy . I've tried cetaphil as well, and itjust cleans my face but then I don't exfoliate (because this aggravates my acne)and my whiteheads and blackheads all comeback and turn into pus filled pimples.I've tried everything and I've given up.Everyone calls me spottyface and mean names like that,which makes me really depressed.Can someone please give me some advice? I'm scared I might start picking again because of all the cysts I'm getting on my face.