My skin is in the worst condition it's been in years. I'm on my 3rd round of Accutane. I think I didn't stay on it long enough the first two tries. I've been on it now for 3 months but over this last week I got several large, deep cysts on my face. I usually break out around the time I get my period, but I think it was exacerbated by my stress levels last week. My face hurts. It looks bad even with makeup and without makeup I can barely stand to look at myself in the mirror. I feel so depressed. The cysts I have now are just going to leave more icepick scars and dark hyperpigmentation spots. I'm so tired of it already. It takes me so long to get ready to leave the house and sometimes I just don't want to.

I have my next appointment with my dermatologist on Friday. I am going to talk to her about seeing someone about my horomones. I think there might be something wrong in that department for a few reasons. Maybe if that's addressed I can keep the acne away for good.

I have to meet new people for an important meeting tomorrow and I feel ridiculous showing up with a face like this... I imagine people meeting me and immediately thinking, "Oh goodness! What is wrong with her face? Maybe she doesn't wash it or something." I swear, if anyone ever asks me again if I've ever tried Proactiv I'm just gonna start flipping tables over. lol

I know many of you can relate. I appreciate having a place to vent.