Hello everyone,

With mixed feelings of disappointments and courage, I have finally decided to make a post on this forum, in order to talk with those who are also suffering from acne scars. The scars- which never go away; which make you feel frustrated on special parties; which are breaking you apart from the very inside; which are getting more stubborn with the treatments; and which are just making you harrassed in every way (mentally, emotionally and physically). I know I am not the only one who is fighting a war with acne scars, there are too many people like me who want to get a solution- alas, as luck would have it, there seems to be no permanent cure for it. To me it seems that scars are not just the marks,they are more like a stigma on my soul which is likely to put me in ordeal for good or probably even after the death. I don't know how to choose better words to describe my feelings for suffering so much over the years but enough is enough- I have decided to fight back once again, with full power and energy. I know my victory is not possible but it's not implausible either as impossible is nothing, right?

Now let me cut the chase out and tell you what I'm writing this way. I have suffered from acne vulgaris for several years, in fact ever since I began to taste the life at its best in my school day, I had some tiny pimples on my cheeks. My cheeks, which were looking healthy, beautiful and ruddy once, are now fully pigmented, covered with uncountable deep scars from the acne. I admit I popped out my acne once in a while and it was only when I had no better way to get that nasty puss out of my painful pimple. I could have found a better way if there ever was, for me popping the pimple with a tissue was the only way to feel a bit relief from the pain. I would further apply a drop of detol on the area with a small swab after cleaning the puss.

We can't predict how a particular cream or lotion would affect your acne, so I tried an over the counter acne cream, hoping that it would help me get rid of my pimples which were oozing puss throughout the night. My bad, I applied the cream overnight and next morning woke up with a worst nightmare of my life, my entire face was overcovered with numerous puss-filed packet type acnes, they were so small in appearance but so painful to wash. I rushed to the doctor and bought a lot of medications instantly. My acnes were cured in one week and I was so glad about it. But as the time was passing by, I noticed a lot of changed in my skin, it was getting rougher and drier day by day regardless of how effective mositurizer I was using to keep it hydrated.

I went for a check up once again and this time my doctor told me that It would be better off for me to undergo a session of glycolic peel as acnes had been changed into deep scars. So I didn't give it a second thought and did what was necessary to treat the scars. Time passed by, I had taken five peeling sessions but there was little to no improvement in the scars. They were changing their format, design or pattern every week but were not leaving my skin alone as healthy as it was before. So i decided to stop taking more peeling sessions. I was prefering to take oral mediations more than creams and ointments. However, I was using penoxoyl cream religiously every night to deal with the acne.

Time was passing very fast and I was growing old, of course I had to. This all started when I was only 17 years old, since then I have been trying out different treatments for the skin, but nothing works the way it should or at least does what it promises to do.

I met with a dermatologist five years ago just with the intention to get a regular therapy for the scars. He prescribed me a tube named 'contractubex' for late night application and told me that he would perform hydromicrodermabrasion on the scars to improve the appearance. I was not very inclined to do it though, my mother convinced me for it and soon I was in his room, undergoing a painful session which included features of three treatments all at once; cleansing, sanding, and peeling. He cleansed my face and applied tiny crystals through a pumping machine and then abrated my skin with the suction pump. It was very very painful,but I had to put up with it, it was about those nasty scars which were making my life a living hell. Abrating the skin was not enough so he used glycolic acid 15% on the skin, let it work for 2 minutes or less, and abrated my skin once again- it was like someone is taking off your skin with a knife while you are alive. Can you really imagine the pain? Though he used a numbing serum but the pain during the treatment could always be felt. The after-results were also unforgettable, after the treatment I was not even able to sleep with comfort for two nights, my entire face would swell like a baloon. Regardless of the pain it involved, I undertook five more sessions of dermabrasion with the slightest hope dwelling on the inside somewhere, what was the result? Zero............. My scars would heal for the short time after the session and skin would look healthy for two months but what's next then? Everything would just go back in the same condition again; complexion, fine lines, and scars.

Now I am 30 years old and I shall marry someone and raise my cute kids, on the contrary, I am still visiting the doctors and trying to find a solution because I don't wanna my husband to look down upon me just because I am not even close to a normal looking female... I am beautiful though but the skin is not as flawless as it should. I am so frustrated right now, sometimes I wish I had hung myself long ago while I was suffering from acne or at least I could find a good doctor.

I went to my doctor few days ago once again, it was a silent way to decree that "I would continue to fight back with you, oh Thee Slutty Scars" and he didn't ask me to take sessions of any sort anymore. Instead he prescribed me the following meds:

1 Polyquinone Plus Cream

2 Cosmecticeuticals LAA 25%

(I am mixing two drops of number 2 in number 1 to make a mixture for the entire face)

Oral Meds:

EPO (stands for evening prime rose oil)

Pre-aging capsules (Antioxidants)

For eyes:

Argirelines 10% Orbital

for day time:

SPF 60

Results so far: I have been using the mixture for three days now and I didn't notice any difference yet, I know it might take one month or more to work. But today I was just standing in front of mirror, cleansing the face and discovered that my skin was peeling badly. I didn't know how to remove patches of dry skin completely so I applied a combination of aloe with jojoba for 2 hours after mixing it in nivea, I cleansed the face again and noticed that my scar was changing the color.

I don't have big hopes with the treatment yet I have already tried the harshest treatments for the scars and they should work but they didn't. I am not sure if the serum will eradicate the scars forever................ I have begun to have mixed feelings once again, I have no way to go, maybe I am being bit indecisive. Help me out and give me your honest thoughts, suggestions and pieces of advice, I would appreciate.

Thank you very much for reading such a lengthy post.