Okay... I dont know how much time has passed since my last post but i need something to ease up, and i thought of this. I am so depressed!!! Why's this happening to me? I can't fight against this anymore. It hurts. I feel hopeless, like nothing can save me. The truth is, i dont feel that i have the worst acne scenario in the world, i dont. But, it just bothers me really well. Things came up to the stage where I look very negative on the things, like nothing is helping and i feel so bad also because my parents spend dozens of dollars on me and nothing seems to be helping. My room has become a little pharmacy, for real. And when i look at all those things i have, i just feel bad and hopeless because none of that has helped me at all. I've been using Avene washing gel, Erythromicine 4% and Effaclar Duo for over a month now and i just don't believe in this shit anymore. I've been researching through the internet a lot, about Vitamine B5 ( im not able to get it in this stupid country cause everything works so slow, pharmacies doesnt even have it.), so i bought Vitamine B 100 complex, and Fish oil. I'm on it for over a 2 weeks now and i dont see any changes. I know some time has to pass, but like, i don't know! I've done so many researching about what could clear my acne ( white pimples are my biggest problem), like, i go to sleep and the morning after i wake up with that things on my face. I can't go in public with that on my face, so i pop them with a disinfected needle and squeeze that white thing out of it. It's good for the rest of the day but what stays after it is brown marks. I have my cheeks covered in that brown marks. And i can't go on a chemical peeling because acne's still active. I have figured out after the reading so much things on the internet that FOOD obviously can't be the problem or the root of the acne, cause if it would be, then all the people would get affected by it. It's not. It's something else yet to be discovered. I'm praying for that day to come soon, cause i can't take this anymore and I know that im not the only one. There's so much people out there in the world who are fighting against even more serious stages of acne, so i have to take them under my consideration because if i feel the way i feel, how do they feel then? I couldnt even imagine. This battle is really hard and we all know it. And whats killing me even more, you can't possibly know for how long this is gonna last...

So, the food is not the root of the Acne but i've figured that it can affect your acne in the way that it only helps them to get more worse. So another problem is to discover what type of the food is the problem. That's also hard and time-taking. The real problem, i think is in ourselves. Something in our bodies its not in the way that its supossed to be, and our body is fighting against it, doing that stuff to us. Obviously its puberty ( Im 18 ), and hormone disbalance, but who knows, what if its not? Some teenagers arent even affected by acne am nd they are also in puberty. So, i guess, some of the people carry something inside that reacts in the way giving them Acne, like i do. Who knows what that could be, i hope scientists will find out soon and make something thats gonna solve our problems. It's just a matter of time...

But, my question is, WHAT IN THE WORLD can or possibly could low the oil producing by sebacous glands? I think thats the root of the problem. Excessive oil production. If there wouldnt be that much oil, there wouldnt be any infection caused by bacterias feeding with that oil. So, guys, please, if you know something ( medicine, or alternative medicine, vitamines, whatever ?) that helps to reduce oil production besides Accutane, help me please, any advice is welcome. I've read about vitamine D, that it helps for acne. And i figured also that in summer my face is 100 % clear cause i spend 3 months on the coast side ( swimming in the sea 6-8 hours per day + on sun also ) And ive read that sun has anti-inflammatory effect and the sea cleans face from bacteria... I might consider buying vitamine D then.. What are your suggestions? Please help.

Im so desperate........