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Really So Desperate And Depressed Now

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(@winterblues)

Posted : 10/15/2014 10:27 am

I know "depressed" is an extreme word..but honestly I feel like I am. I hardly ever smile, I don't ever look people in the eye, I only leave the house when I absolutely have to. Every winter now for about 5 years my skin looks like this. Summer it's great..a few large pores but nothing that can't easily be sorted with a good primer. But winter..my face looks like this all the time and it's only worse with makeup.

I just don't even know how to categorise this...large pores? Ice pick scars? acne? I have used so many products and spent so much money and nothing is helping..these are a few

Help Me by Philosophy

Paula's Choice Resist Eltra light super antioxidant concentrate serum

PC resist skin transforming multi correction treatment

Dermalex skin treatment for rosacea and couperose

Nip & Fab glycolic fix serum

PC skin perfecting 2% BHA liquid

PC Skin balancing pore reducing toner

PC anti redness exfoliating solution

Retinol Reface

I also use a PC face wash and sulphur soap. I use grapeseed and coconut oil moisturiser. I take vitamin D3, fish oil, zinc...I'm on a low dose of roaccutane. I

I am so so sick of this I just want a normal life and to be able to walk down the street without looking to the floor and actually have a social life. I'm naturally such an outgoing person and I'm so different in the summer months. I really can't take this much longer

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(@tretinoin)

Posted : 10/15/2014 10:38 am

Post acne red marks. Those will fade in team, and leave almost no sign of the acne ever being there. Give it some time, or if you want, you could do a chemical peel. That would greatly speed up the process.

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(@winterblues)

Posted : 10/15/2014 10:43 am

Anton that's the weird thing though..I never ever had acne on my cheeks. Even when my acne was at its worst I only ever got it on my forehead and chin..never cheeks! That's why it's so weird that I have scars there.

I definitely think I will get a peel in time. Unfortunately I'm on month 4 of accutane at the moment so anything like peels or laser treatment are out of the question for (I think) at least a year after I have stopped the treatment

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(@tretinoin)

Posted : 10/15/2014 12:31 pm

Anton that's the weird thing though..I never ever had acne on my cheeks. Even when my acne was at its worst I only ever got it on my forehead and chin..never cheeks! That's why it's so weird that I have scars there.

I definitely think I will get a peel in time. Unfortunately I'm on month 4 of accutane at the moment so anything like peels or laser treatment are out of the question for (I think) at least a year after I have stopped the treatment

Hmm that's weird, maybe you got those red marks from trying to extract clogged pores on your cheeks if you ever had any?

 

It honestly doesn't look bad, infact I wouldn't even consider it as acne. Just red marks and quite some redness on the cheeks probably from the dryness than accutane does to you. Do you use moisturizer?

 

Best of luck, and stop being so depressed.. It honestly isn't even bad. You're on your way to clear skin soon

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(@bloodwar44)

Posted : 10/15/2014 1:44 pm

oh come on , try being decent looking then getting your face burnt in an accident and looking like a monster :P and yeah thats me.

You sound like how I was when it first happened (not like I will ever get over it)

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(@wishclean)

Posted : 10/15/2014 3:10 pm

Looks like you are using too many products.

Take away the sulphur, and also remove any products (Esp. cleansers) with SLS/sulfates in them. That should help the redness go down.

The redness around your mouth could be due to SLS and/or fluoride in your toothpaste and/or mouthwash. I had something similar until I switched my toothpaste and mouthwash.

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(@skullkid87)

Posted : 10/15/2014 3:13 pm

its not that bad, your skin looks really white so i think thats why it looks more red. try using PH balenced moisturizer. also u have much more things to worry about than a little redness. at least i dont see any pitted scars which is harder to cure . good luck in treating your skin tho

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(@winterblues)

Posted : 10/16/2014 4:35 am

thank you WishClean...I'm sure you're right that I am using too many products it's just difficult to know which are causing issues and which will actually help over time! Weird thing is the sulphur soap actually seemed to be giving me pretty good results..but in the last week or so my skin has gotten so bad so you're right it could be that but could be something else entirely.

skullkid87 do you not think these are pitted scars then? I struggle to identify what all the dots and bumps and holes even are!! And yeah I am pretty pale and would usually use sunbeds over winter but I'm on a low dose of accutane at the moment so that's a no-no :(

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(@winterblues)

Posted : 10/16/2014 8:13 am

Just thought I would add some photos to show what my skin looks like even with makeup on. Here I am wearing Smashbox Photofinish Primer and Rimmel lasting Finish Foundation. As you can see the primer and foundation just sits in the pores and scares and doesn't smooth over them at all.

Also I should mention these were taken on a my iphone 4 not in HD so the quality really isn't great. I can guarantee if these were taken in HD you'd really understand where I am coming from with this. I know I don't have cystic acne, but this really does destroy my confidene and it's SO frustrating that it only happens during the cold months. I'm a different person in the summer. I am on a low dose of accutane but I just don't think it will help. It's been 8 weeks now and I have seen little to no improvements. I know accutane is amazing for cystic acne but I feel like (this is hard to explain), but a lot of people with cystic acne, if the acne wasn't there, then the skin underneath is actually clear...but this IS my skin underneath and I sometimes but cystic acne over this. So I guess I'm mean like..most people's "base" skin is actually good but it gets covered in cystic acne, but my "base" skin looks like this!! I really am at my wits end. It's a miracle if I go a single day in winter without crying about this. I missed class today because I am so self conscious...I know that sounds self absorbed but I am just so fed up with being starred at and not being able to look anyone in the eye and only leaving the house at night. I can't spend every single winter for the rest of my life like this.

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(@winterblues)

Posted : 10/16/2014 1:06 pm

Sorry for MORE photos I just really want to make it clear how bad it is! This is my skin tonight, primer and foundation on. Just got back from the supermarket..really felt good having so many people stare. urgh

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(@robertitoo)

Posted : 10/16/2014 1:40 pm

You use this and that blah blah blah. You don't need any Of that trash.I BET you don't use a sunscreen. Listen to me, cleanse with joboba oil and mouturize with it or another oil of your choice. Pick up a sunscreen preferably all natural and or organic that is non comedogenic, I use badgers SPF 30 with zinc. Wear it religiously even on cloudy days. Your redness, marks and hypogpigmentation does in fact go away with time but you've been suffering too much. Go see an experiencedinderm and ask for vbebperfecta.

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(@mementomori)

Posted : 10/16/2014 1:51 pm

Are you able to go a week without doing anything to your skin to give it a break to calm down? Your skin appears to be really sensitive more than anything. Maybe try incorporating more natural products to see if your skin benefits from that. There are a ton of reviews of natural remedies on here. Jojoba oil, honey, turmeric masks, just to name a few.

 

I truly don't believe people are staring at your skin when you are out. There's nothing to stare at.

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(@winterblues)

Posted : 10/16/2014 1:57 pm

thanks for the recommendations..maybe I do just need to leave it for a few days..I must have spent hundreds though on all my "miracle cure" products! Mementomori that's sweet of you to say and it's what friends tell me to make me feel better but I honestly am not just being paranoid. I am nearly 23 and have had skin like this since I was 17 and honestly I know people are starring. I even asked my best friend to be honest with me because I was getting annoyed with people just saying I was "paranoid" and she agreed that she has seen people look (harsh but I was pleased she said it. ) my mum has also noticed people looking. These photos really don't show how bad it is. But thank you, I think I will go a few days without using much other than my coconut oil, grapeseed oil and what would you suggest for a facewash?

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(@skullkid87)

Posted : 10/16/2014 3:25 pm

agree with robert. try to stick with a good natural sun screen. i need to lay off the products myself too..

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