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(@imad)

Posted : 10/24/2014 5:39 pm

GETTING hit on by girls but i have some acne and idk if they care about my acne scars maybe its jst me ahhhhhhhg why acne come now on dating siite tho my scar is clear i don't think the scars look noticeable in picture

She is the hottest chick this weak and shes got her boobs done lol

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(@rob_x_22)

Posted : 10/24/2014 7:19 pm

i'd do her again

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(@robertitoo)

Posted : 10/24/2014 7:41 pm

Dermaflage didn't work well for me. Concerning doctors, I have pretty much had it with the best one's in America. They just can't fix acne scarring to an acceptable degree yet. Maybe if recell gets approved, it will be worth the trouble. I think at home procedures that work slower and are cheaper are the way to go. Dermastamps don't make you worse in my experience, but they will only help if you have good topicals and practice good all-around health. Your results do depend on your healing capabilities. Also I like TCA 15 - 20% from a reputable source. Maybe my scarring is just particularly stubborn, as it is not bad enough to get decent results through punch floats or excision (no doctor will risk it) and too wide for the dramatic 100% cross method. Yet too deep for lasers to work well on. Silicone and artefill fillers didn't work either. I had an honest doctor tell me to just live with it because he couldn't guarantee any sort of results and said he'd been trying with a patient worse off than me for some time and still couldn't give her good results. This was a very reputable doctor who had even been on TV.

So even though I say, learn to be happy with it, they have annoyed the heck out of me for the past 10 years and I was definitely not against seeking treatment. But I have learned to love myself despite scars and have a husband, child, and anything else someone non-scarred can have. It really doesn't limit you. Maybe if you want to be a model it would. My advice is learn to love yourself for reasons that have nothing to do with y our appearance. I still consider myself reasonably attractive despite scars. But I don't like myself because of my appearance, I like myself for how I treat others, talents, etc. You don't want to waste a decade of your life looking for treatments and being depressed the whole time.

yea because all of the before and afters are fake

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(@tricia)

Posted : 10/24/2014 10:02 pm

 

Dermaflage didn't work well for me. Concerning doctors, I have pretty much had it with the best one's in America. They just can't fix acne scarring to an acceptable degree yet. Maybe if recell gets approved, it will be worth the trouble. I think at home procedures that work slower and are cheaper are the way to go. Dermastamps don't make you worse in my experience, but they will only help if you have good topicals and practice good all-around health. Your results do depend on your healing capabilities. Also I like TCA 15 - 20% from a reputable source. Maybe my scarring is just particularly stubborn, as it is not bad enough to get decent results through punch floats or excision (no doctor will risk it) and too wide for the dramatic 100% cross method. Yet too deep for lasers to work well on. Silicone and artefill fillers didn't work either. I had an honest doctor tell me to just live with it because he couldn't guarantee any sort of results and said he'd been trying with a patient worse off than me for some time and still couldn't give her good results. This was a very reputable doctor who had even been on TV.

So even though I say, learn to be happy with it, they have annoyed the heck out of me for the past 10 years and I was definitely not against seeking treatment. But I have learned to love myself despite scars and have a husband, child, and anything else someone non-scarred can have. It really doesn't limit you. Maybe if you want to be a model it would. My advice is learn to love yourself for reasons that have nothing to do with y our appearance. I still consider myself reasonably attractive despite scars. But I don't like myself because of my appearance, I like myself for how I treat others, talents, etc. You don't want to waste a decade of your life looking for treatments and being depressed the whole time.

yea because all of the before and afters are fake

I'll probably wait till more people get it here and then decide. I wish the dermaflage really did work better or there was some sort of makeup to at least give a better illusion of smooth skin. My skin is relatively healthy now, just the dang dents.

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(@blahblahblahblahz)

Posted : 10/25/2014 2:11 am

Rob, out of curiosity, why haven't you sought out professional treatments? I really think subcision would help in your case.

i'd do her again

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(@sndr)

Posted : 10/25/2014 8:12 am

@Rob_X_22

Yeah, I'm a little curious as well as to why you haven't done any treatments yet? (Other than being afraid of possible risks). There's nothing I regret more than not dealing with this stuff sooner.

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(@missamua)

Posted : 10/25/2014 6:58 pm

Rob, I also think you should do subcision. Your scars are perfect for it.

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(@rob_x_22)

Posted : 10/25/2014 7:25 pm

$$$ i am spending most of my helping my parents keep a roof over there head ...

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(@rob_x_22)

Posted : 10/25/2014 9:42 pm

plus if i didn't have scars i wouldn't have anything to bitch about ...who wants to be perfect...then u don't have any exuses ...until then ...if it weren't for scars i'd be soooo good looking ......NOT

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(@khaled91)

Posted : 10/26/2014 12:29 am

plus if i didn't have scars i wouldn't have anything to bitch about ...who wants to be perfect...then u don't have any exuses ...until then ...if it weren't for scars i'd be soooo good looking ......NOT

I've noticed that you always have low regard for your looks let's say that other people sees you through a different perspective from what you have in mind having said that if you want my honest superficial opinion I think you're good looking even with scars.

Plus you've the courage to post tons of pictures over the internet I wouldn't dare anymore to even secretly take a quick glance at my own face!!

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(@sndr)

Posted : 10/26/2014 6:27 am

@Rob_X_22

You're an awesome son!
Well, there are other imperfections in life to bitch about. Acne scarring happens to be one of the most life-draining ones that I wouldn't wish upon anyone.
The effect that it has had on my psyche and personality is unbelievable to me that it got to a point where I have, for the most part, suppressed the true
wild, go-getter-attitude inside of me because of this skin condition. I'm sure the same could be said by many people here on this forum. My point here is, don't let acne scarring win. I'm trying my hardest to figure out what my next move is going to be in terms of procedures but I can't make my mind up yet. Subcision is relatively cheap, you should check out derms/plastic surgeons that do it in your area.

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(@rob_x_22)

Posted : 10/26/2014 1:33 pm

just saying no one is perfect i don't care how your skin looks your jawline forehead hairline skin color ...we are all wierd lookin creatures

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(@pineapplexpress)

Posted : 10/26/2014 11:33 pm

Thanks SNDR for answering my questions about the fillers. I do wanna say, not that my words will matter much, but you are extremely good looking! Scars or not, WOW! But like I said, I know it doesn't matter because our own thoughts and negativity will always outweigh opinions of others.

My depression has gotten really bad. My mom is practically forcing me to go see a doctor to get some anti-depression medication. I don't want to yet. I told her I'll wait until my derm appointment and see what he says regarding me being a candidate for subcision and fillers and if he says I am then I don't need the meds because I know this can be fixed. But if he say's no then I may consider seeing my GP for some sort of anti-depressant.

I know it's terrible to put all your eggs in one basket but I really am with this filler and subcision treatment. I don't even care footing the bill for something so temporary, just want out of this hell already. So hard faking a smile every day at work, and making excuses not to see friends. On my days off I sulk in my sorrow and then Monday the cycle just repeats. There are periods where it gets better, but that's when I stop obsessing over my scars but no matter how hard I try I always end up here again. So tiring. My hope has been dwindling and that's not a good thing because that's the only thing that keeps me going. Hope in treatments, knowing that things may get better. It's when treatments start to fail or there are so few available that things get real bad for me because that means I have to accept that I will forever have to live with this skin. And I just can't accept that.

I don't care for my skin to be perfect. I just want my scars to fill up some. When I've had swelling my on my face after needling, I've been more then happy with my skin. Even though I can still see some redness, and the surface texture is not perfect I am just happy that majority of my scars are plumped up due to the swelling. Even if I can get something similar like that from fillers I will be more than happy.

On another note me and my boyfriend are off our little break. He really must not mind my face because he wants to come down in a few weeks to visit me for my birthday and then after that wants me to fly out to LA with him for a work thing. It does take a load of my shoulders though, because at least it's one less thing to worry about, at least he accepts me I guess for how I look.

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(@sydboi)

Posted : 10/27/2014 3:39 am

@SNDR

 

Link me dude!!! Sounds great :)

 

Also I've tried MSM cream on a rolling scar that was only a couple months old. Put it on twice a day for 3. Months, saw no difference. Yet, putting MSM cream on cuts and scrapes after they have scanbed on my body has made them disappear quickly.

 

 

 

@Pineapple,

 

I've had that Island daydream repeatedly. Lol

 

I've just been prescribed some anti depressants, but I'm scared I may react and get more acne. It is so hard sometimes to talk about acne and scarring and why it is causing so much depression. I get the feeling doctors just think "what the hell, that's not even a problem".

 

That's great about your bf and you back together, yay :)

 

Again inbox me if you feel depressed okay?

 

@Pianina

 

I love ACV as a drink. Never tried it topically, though I've read some good stuff on here about that.

 

In regards to sleep, that's my fave time of day. I get so tired physically and mentally that my brain seems so willing to switch off. Then I don't have to think about my skin, or other problems. I could sleep 24/7 sometimes, honestly.

 

@tricia

 

Great skin and modelling sometimes isn't synonymous, I found this pic of this male model with pitted scarring around his temple area. However, that said, the rest of his skin is amazing, :(

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(@sydboi)

Posted : 10/27/2014 3:55 am

Also @Rob,

 

I know it is hard to accept a truth someone else believes, but I've seen your pix, and I honestly think you're a good looking bloke. So I hope eventually you'll believe that of yourself. I hope we all will believe it of ourselves.

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(@pineapplexpress)

Posted : 10/27/2014 4:34 pm

So went to the GP's today and got a prescription for Cipralex. Going to hold on to it for now and maybe fill it depending on how I feel in about month. To be honest I don't really see how depression medication can help when it's something I have to look at every day, on meds or not on meds. My mum says it'll make me stronger and make me not care as much about my scars but I just don't see how that's going to happen. The only way I see my depression getting better is if these scars get better because that's the root cause of my depression.

 

Sorry for sounding like a negative Nancy :$ just don't got the energy to be smiling and being positive. Been doing that for too long. Just wanna be myself which now, unfortunately, is a miserable person. Have a girls night tonight at my friends place. Hopefully that'll take my mind off things a little bit. It's funny aside from you guys and my mom everyone else thinks I'm such a happy person because I fake it so well but does anyone else get exhausted fron faking it?

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(@imad)

Posted : 10/27/2014 5:00 pm

Yes i stopped talking a lot, became even more withdrawn and had to take lots of days off work because i couldn't handle the stress i was under. The way i was walking at times they knew that ive lost my mind. I also started carrying a knife and had no problem using it on who eve that pushed me over the edge. The thoughts of suicide just about everyday was overweening i wanted to do it on my birthday aswell because i couldn't find a purpose anymorre to live.

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(@pineapplexpress)

Posted : 10/27/2014 7:07 pm

Yes i stopped talking a lot, became even more withdrawn and had to take lots of days off work because i couldn't handle the stress i was under. The way i was walking at times they knew that ive lost my mind. I also started carrying a knife and had no problem using it on who eve that pushed me over the edge. The thoughts of suicide just about everyday was overweening i wanted to do it on my birthday aswell because i couldn't find a purpose anymorre to live.

I'm sorry I am little confused. Did all this happen after taking anti-depressants? Well either way that seems like you went through a very difficult time. Suicidal thoughts are the worst. Sometimes I can't believe i've ever had them. Seems like a nightmare that scars could cause all this.

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(@acnescarsarehell)

Posted : 10/27/2014 10:10 pm

cheer up guys. with treatment scars can always be improved. it can be a long road but cheer up. we're all in it together. Just remember to keep positive.

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(@sndr)

Posted : 10/27/2014 10:43 pm

@pineappleXpress

You're very welcome. Thank you for the compliment! Of course it matters! I appreciate it every time, I just wish I thought so as well.

Yeah, I don't think this type of depression can be helped by taking anti depressants. I'm an advocate of not taking any pills, unless truly needed. I believe for us, that no matter what, our insecurities will still bother us unless we fix the problem at the root.

Juvederm filler tends to yield more permanent results, at least in my experience. I don't think we would ever be able to learn to accept the current state of our skin, as vein as it sounds.

Try to aim for something that will give you more permanent results though. Don't settle for temporary fixes because it will always lead you back down that dark, depressing road.

I'm sure your boyfriend thinks you're absolutely gorgeous. AND I'm sure it's more than just accepting the way you look.
I miss having a girlfriend (not my last ex though, haha).

@Sydboi

Will do!

Ah well, I guess I'll continue using it for a bit, but if anything I'll just keep it for healing cuts and scrapes. I wish there was a lotion that turned your skin baby smooth, permanently, so that we all could have gotten on with our lives a long time ago. That's definitely not going to happen any time soon though...

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(@khaled91)

Posted : 10/27/2014 11:00 pm

@SNDR

Lotion with permanent effectiveness :) I wouldn't mind applying any disgusting matter on my whole body just to smooth out my skin texture when I go out.

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(@sndr)

Posted : 10/27/2014 11:04 pm

@Khaled91

Haha!
Even if it was made out of raw sewage I would still lather it on my face, gracefully. As long as it rid me of these damn rolling scars! :(

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(@pineapplexpress)

Posted : 10/28/2014 3:36 am

Just got home from my girls night and I am so glad I went. No matter how difficult it can be at time's to actually get out of the house and socialize it actually helps tremendously. It was awesome to hang out with my friends, play game, drink some wine, eat good food and of course gossip lol it really beat sulking at home obsessing over my scars. My advice to anyone in the same boat as me, force yourself to socialize in comfortable places with people you love and feel comfortable with. It helps tremendously.

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(@imad)

Posted : 10/28/2014 5:46 am

 

Yes i stopped talking a lot, became even more withdrawn and had to take lots of days off work because i couldn't handle the stress i was under. The way i was walking at times they knew that ive lost my mind. I also started carrying a knife and had no problem using it on who eve that pushed me over the edge. The thoughts of suicide just about everyday was overweening i wanted to do it on my birthday aswell because i couldn't find a purpose anymorre to live.

I'm sorry I am little confused. Did all this happen after taking anti-depressants? Well either way that seems like you went through a very difficult time. Suicidal thoughts are the worst. Sometimes I can't believe i've ever had them. Seems like a nightmare that scars could cause all this.

No i don't beilve in them like yourself, i don't see how its going to change anything the way a look at my skin. I always put a strong front like i was happy i tryed my best not to be a burden attention seeking whore, i mostly kept to myself and shed so many tears alone, like i was suicidal at 19 due to family issues and acne drove me to the wall i drove my car at 140 in a 60 zone was ready to find a wall and end it all. I was plaining on doing it on this mountain but couldn't remember where it was if i had remember i most likely woilda been dead, Even now aswell when i'm really down and want to put an end i would drive to places for a good place to ram my car at high speeds to end the pain.

 

It got really worst when i was getting scewed by my fuking derm wasting my time freaking had chonie depression and he didn't want to help me out says, i don't need it anymore when clearly i did and he gave me a quote on subsection and fractal but the way you book at this place is just hopeless and don't send the infor to you

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(@blahblahblahblahz)

Posted : 10/28/2014 5:53 am

I'm not against medication if it was for depression that was caused by real medical reasons like a chemical imbalance. The problem here is that we KNOW exactly what is causing our depression issues. It's our freaking SCARS. For example, when I had treatments in the past like lasers or whatever, there would be a a week or two of swelling that made my skin look perfect. Of course my mood was lifted completely, and it was directly due to my skin looking temporarily better.

Medication is just a temporary bandaid, and doesn't really address the root cause of our depressive episodes. If acne scars are interfering with life so much that you can't function, then maybe medicines can just be a short term fix. But then there are pretty bad downsides to anti-depressants like weight gain.

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