HEY!

I figure the longer you are on accutane the better, so if the dermo puts you on another month don't be bummed just think 'this will help me in the long run'

I know this may seem crazy but I wish my dermo would put me on the max of 9 months of accutane. I have heard of people who have done 6 months of 60mg's and then 3 months at the end of just 20mg's kinda to ween you off it and also help in the long run, I am going to ask my dermo for this.

You think I'm crazy don't you. ha ha

Day 147

Welllllll..... summer is approaching here and it gets very hot and sunny with very high UV indexes! I mean it's already very sunny with temps of around 20 degrees celcius. this will go to mid 30s soon and you know what they say about sun and tane! Another reason I don't want to have another month is... lol I'm gonna start training quite intesively in about 2 weeks and I don't want the joint pain etc!

But I do understand where you're coming from. I guess 1 more month wouldn't be TOO bad but I'm just gonna pray it won't happen lol.

FAce the same. that whitehead is like the final test. Pop it and I fail. LEt it go down and I succeed! The bump on my forehead is like 90% gone. Woo

Funny I remember when I was on day 5 or whatever and thinking this will never finish

Day 148

damn it fuck shit

pardon

DRY SKIN IS BACK. i look like a frikkin leper. Just showered and my face was all red and crappy looking with skin coming off. It just started so randomly at about 4pm dis noon. Thats what I hate about tane. Too unpredictable.

Sigh. I had gone to uni to do work at the library, after 30 mins I checked my mob and saw my chin falling off and stupid me didn't take a moisturiser with me because I presumed since ive had no dry skin for so long I'll be safe so I had to flee to the bus stop looking like a leper in harsh daylight and sit 30 mins on a public bus with my head craned 90 degrees out the window.

This better be gone tomorro cos I have full morning of lessons and going out with sum friends to do assignment on site after

Day 149

face still quite dry and red. need to avoid sun. complexion isn't too good. but no new spots or anything like that.almost 100% smooth.

cmonnnnn face get yourself sorted!

Day 150

wow!

7 days to go. Too tired to post today. Face the same. Well that pimple is smoothening out but its practically flat.

Can't wait to be done. Hope my general skin complexion improves after the pills. And my hair goes back to normal. It used to be like silk literally lol. ANd I never did anything to it, it was just naturally like that. Now its lost a lot of that.

Day 151

forehead is practically 100%. That whitehead is now just a miniscule bump which isn;t even visible i think and the cyst too. Its just a tinyyyyyy little bump if i run my finger along.

rst of face is as usual 100%.

6 days left. Wow!

Day 152

Face os 100% smooth! at lasttttttt.

Ok to be perfectly honest I have a little bump on my neck but it doesnt really worry me it doesn't feel "dangerous".

Got quite a bit of red marks on my forehead and stuff! I keep thinking theyre pimples and I run my finger over them fearfully but they're perfectly smooth

Hoping that when I get off the tane my overall complexion and stuff will improve and the last of the red marks will fade.

I can't believe it's 5 days left. To people just starting and who think it'll never end...... take it from me, once y ou get past the rocky initial months, things get a lot easier and the days start to fly by! First week seemed to last an ETERNITY to me. Now its hardly on my mind. Well ok I lie its always on my mind but not so bad.

Actually that's something I noticed. Being on tane REALLY brought acne to the forefront of my mind. Like 80% of my thoughts are prob about my face. I guess knowing you're on meds for something kind of does that to you.

I can't wait for the day when I can look into a mirror and the thought of acne/red marks/etc not cross my mind. Of oourse, I won't realise the day because I won't be thikning about it! But right now I still can't look in certain mirrors with harsh lighting etc because thye just highlight redmarks problem and complexion problem and stuff.

I guess we're never satisfied. If its not the acne, its the red marks... but it is a product of acne, and I think we have the right not to be satisfied until our faces are fully healed and "normal". I know I won't be until that happens.

Sorry for the long post. Too tired to look through it and arrange spelling and edit my meaningless thoughts. Anyway not many of these posts left for you guys to endure

lol I think im the only one who logged each day here (othert than those 10 days I was abroad). I hope smeone reading this log actually finds some of it helpful.

Oh sidenote, I passed all my uni exams

Day 153

exhauted will keep this quick. face same. that small bump on neck still there. No biggie really. Complexion soso but just washed face. forgot to call derm and i think 2mo is a public holiday. Hope I can get the Thurs apptment. Cos he only goes on thursdays

Day 154

Looks like i won't be able to make the derm appt tomorro. Oh well I'll go next thursday I guess. Wont really make that much of a difference. 3 days left. face still 100% clear.

Was in the sun forl ike 5 hours today. got a nice bit of colour and im not burnt! phew...

3 days 3 days.......

feeling bit down though, but dont think it has anything to do with pills. But ive been getting down easily recently! oh well just can't wait to finish this course and move on

I can't believe you only have 3 days. That's amazing. You should celebrate!

Day 155

yeah mood much better today.

I am kind of celebrating in that im not caring as much anymore! lol. like yeserday and today i was in the sun all day and im completely fine. mood much better today was just a bit down yest but nothin to do with pills.

stil 100% clear :D:D

2 more days. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa wooooooo

Started gym yesterdat and today. wow i really went down since 5 months ago! MY advice, dont stop working out unless you feel you have to because .. well its obvious why.

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Day 154

 

Looks like i won't be able to make the derm appt tomorro. Oh well I'll go next thursday I guess. Wont really make that much of a difference. 3 days left. face still 100% clear.

 

Was in the sun forl ike 5 hours today. got a nice bit of colour and im not burnt! phew...

 

3 days 3 days.......

 

feeling bit down though, but dont think it has anything to do with pills. But ive been getting down easily recently! oh well just can't wait to finish this course and move on

OH NO

I've been reading everywhere that tane makes you depressed and moody! How moody? Thats the only thing that I'm nervous about. I've heard of people... getting seriously depressed from this stuff. What can I do to prevent that??? Do you know??

Day 156

nononon don't get the wrng impression! I have had normal ups and downs while on tane. MY mood basically depends on real life situations! Good day = good mood. Bad day = bad mood. In fact ive had some of the most fun times of my life these past few months (nothing to do with tane lol).

Wow last day tomorrow. My face looks very good I must say and I got colour in it cos ive been in the sun these past few days! Things are lookin up!

No side effects really other than dry lips and a bit of dry skin after i wash but that is easily dealt with with moisturiser. MY legs are SO stiff from yesterdays workout. Dunno if its cos of tane or if its cos i really did a lot on my 1st day back. I;ll say the latter! I hope so anywho.

Ok ill write a proper post tomorrow.

Wow, congrats! I can not wait to be where you are and I hope you go ahead and do something for your self!

Day 157 (or 158 counting xmas day)

didn't really have time to post yesterday,, well I did but it wasnt really on my mind! I thik that alone speaks volumes about how far I've got.

So I am completely clear. I still have red marks but I am hoping now those will fade. I am hoping my complexion will improve too.

I am extremely happy with the results, and as long as my body isn't damaged I am definitely pleased I followed this course through.

So I was 157 days plus xmas day which I discounted. So a toal of 158 days. And yest was day 158 so today is day 159, or Day 1 Post Tane!

I will post updates for a couple weeks on how it goes post tane. Not daily. Possibly twice a week. If anyone followed this log I hope it helped a little. I didn't really try to disguise my emotions I'm afraid.

I am no longer self conscious when out. I still avoid car mirrors but because of my marks and complexion which will hopefully improve now. My complexion actually is not bad at all but I wnt the best!

wow can't believe I'm typing this lol never thought I'd reach this far. Coincidentally people have been telling me how clear I am these past few days. It makes me happy but does embaress me a little cos I just want people to forget about it lol.

To be honest I am kind of nervous about stopping the pills. I guess I got a little used to the safety net of accutane. Hoping the side effects vanish quickly! Not that they've been bad. hmm not sure what else to say, if someone has a question feel free to ask.

My course:

Day 1-96.........20mg/day

Day 97-157.....40mg/day

While taking tane does the acne get worse before it gets better??? I just started 3 days ago and I'm nervous about it all LOL

lol well I can only speak from my own experiences. It did get worse before it got better! Just grit your teeth for the first month or 2 and you'll be fine.

So today is my 4th day off tane. No new pimples or anything thank god! lol

side effects are slowly diminishing i think. Can't reall be sur ebecause I'm still moiturising morning and after shower. Lips still get dry but not as dry I think. But I still won't leave home without my handy vaseline.

Still early days to really know whats going to happen. Tomorrow I have my final derm appointment at 11:50am. To be honest, kind of nervous about it.

wow I write "still" a lot

Congrats man. Im actually on day 177, but I had to take time off inbetween then because my liver results were no so good. If your worried about your complexion still, red marks, scars, etc. Find a derm that does laser facial surgery.

I went in for a consult the other day for redness and mild scarring. Derm said the v-beam would works best for redness and fraxel would work for scars.

Only prob is, gotta be off tane 3 months to do v-beam and 6 months to do fraxel. Plus, with v-beam, you cant be tan, as the laser is attracted to color.

*breathes sigh of relief*

so i am now OFFICIALLY off the pills!

So I go in the derms office and he says: I've seen you before right?

I'm like ...yes.

Then he rememebred!

He seemed to be very pleased with the results. He told me to continue avoiding sun and moisturising for 4 weeks after stopping... can't make any promises about avoiding sun! He said there's a 10% chance it could come back and if it does I will do another course after the summer... but I'm not even gonna let the idea into my head! I'm cured and I have to believe it!

He said the red marks will fade on their own so I guess I'll wait it out... ah well after cysts and stuff it's not much to complain about I guess! But still...

side effects still seem about the same. Lips very dry today.

thanks nappyjim I saw your log your face seems to have pretty much cleared up too!

Hey mate, enjoyed the log. Congrats on finishing. Are you gonna put up before and after photos?

You look a bit like Owen Hargreaves in your photo!

hey! glad you enjoyed it, still thinkin about the whole before-after photo thing.

Trust me I look nothing like Owen Hargreaves ! although my dad is half canadian half english and grew up in both Canada and UK...hmm fishy

haha just like Owen Hargreaves, that is fishy

Anyway pleased with the results of your course? I finished it about a year ago and the results were great but damn acne came back about 3 months ago, wish I hadnt given the rest of my pills back to the hospital now! Grr

Wow, congratulations on finishing. Good to have positive thoughts about the acne not coming back because that's exactly what I feel.

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thanks for the comments!

quick update.. hardly feeling the side effects anymore. I mean dry skin is 00000000000 (although i still moisturise after I wash) and lips dryness is so minimal.. like i just put vaseline twice a day.

still got a lot of red marks but I don;'t expect those to go away for now.....

Random thought. For me, accutane did not cause depression at all. I think it all depends on what's going on in your life. When I was on tane I had some of the best times of my life, now I'm off accutane and I'm pretty sad about something that's going on and am down. Lol damn!