Hi everyone, ive been going though this forum for a few weeks now and im so relieved to know that im not the only one struggled, depressed and going crazy because of this demon aka acne. i just wanna share my expreience here cause i KNOW that only people here could TRULY understand how i feel.

So.. i started having acne at the end of my senior year, just a few pimple here and there and so im not so worry about it and i just go to a doctor. I got my meds and thought it will be fine. after i finished highschool, my acne got bad, i so i go to this other doctor whos so well know of curing the most sever acne. He prescribed me on accutane and some creams and promised that i will have a clear skin in the next few months and ive got nothing to worry about, from there my face purge like a maniac and i hide for months crying and feeling depressed in my room, i close my curtains 24/7 and i would not turn on the lights and have 0 social life, i cover my mirrors too so i wont look at myself, i would only eat vegetables and no oil at all for that few months since i though eating meat and oil would make me breakout even more.

I did all homemade remedies and everything on the internet that says it could heal acne, it was a really dark time in my life, i feel so ugly, worthless, and in so much pain. When i have to put on my cream and look in the mirror, i cried to myself, i askes god why did he choose me out of all people and why cant i just be beautiful, and i wish that he would just have me killed. It got so bad my mom beg to take out because she want me to feel happy again since i used to be outgoing and go out with my friends. After the purge, my acne got better and it left me many scars. So i try to live my life and years pass by and at one point my skin is clear (3 years maybe).

But then after that my pimples suddenly came back from just a few then more and more, so i dirrectly go to a doctor again and started using their creams, took me a year when i suddenly realize that theres no point on using all this creams because i realize theyre only HIDING my acne, not curing. So i made a decision to stop once and for all using this chemicals and go natural. Then my friend recommend this product (its called aqua+ fyi) and decide to give it a try, its a non alcohol and all natural ingredients so it wont irritate the skin,fyi my skin is so sensitive im not even being dramatic, when i touch my face or didnt wash my face longer than 8 hours, i will have acne.

Im glad to say that my face is getting better even though sometimes i still get acne, its kindalike a never ending cycle cos my pimple always leaves a scar which i hate. But this product really helps a lot with the scarring. Right now i have scars in both of my cheeks with at least 10 scars on each. But its better than in the past so i always tried to be grateful and motivate myself.

I tell myself that acne is a walk in the park compared to a real problem out there in the world, there are people out there who has cancer, who are dying, who cant see, who are starving, whos disabled and who are really physically hurting. So who am i to complain?? I have everything that those people would be begging to have, im in no real physical pain and i could have a normal life, but just because of my ego i wish to want to die while there are real people who are literally dying right now and wish to have even 1 more minute to live??

Irealize how bastard and selfish i was. So i decide that even at times i still complain about my acne, i got back up fast and realize that im so LUCKY. I even put my motivational speech as my wallpaper so i could read it everyday and remind myself to always be grateful.

For those reading this, know that it will get better, maybe not now, maybe not tomorrow, but that day WILL come. And for now you just have to keep fighting and learn to love yourself because that acne is a part of you, but it doesnt define YOU. I really hope what i share could help you.

All love:)