I dont know how to start this...
Im well into my 6th month of accutane and still breakout a lot - i am fine with that, but those breakouts are getting worse and worse and so does my skin....It goes well sometimes, but strikes back in double the effect.
People tell me it gets better and i have to wait, but after 6 months i feel like im taking those pills just to destroy my lips.
I am afraid to go out, afraid to meet people i wouldnt be afraid of meeting, i cant really care about my future as i am too scared to present myself.
When i accidentally look in a mirror i am disgusted, because i am a very self aware person and this just destroys my confidence.
Maybe i could adapt to this circumstance, but i cant because every week it appears my life is impacted by wether my skin lost the gamble or not.
I started to pick, and i cant control it even with help. I hate this and i now its the wrong thing to do. But i feel just so ... helpless.
People bring up the argument that they notice only a small margin of what we see in ourselves, but i honestly cant imagine that.
Im sorry, i just had to vent somewhere because i feel like noone close to me would understand how it feels to wear this self inflicted stigma.
Thank you for reading kind stranger ~
I expirenced alcohol effected the healing of wound. Being on Accu/iso makes it way easier to attract infections that looks like acne. I was treated with pencillin and Fucidinacid. The treatment with accu then became normal path of clearing up. Still not perfect but better. Hang in there
@jPablo
I know, but it just is hard to accept sometimes
I weigh around 64Kg and take 20mg per day. I had to take a week off last month because i had very bad stomache pain so i dont know wether this affects someting or not.
@Iso Dane
I have some medical alcohol over here, and use it if i have a open wound - it stings a lot, but helps in the long con. In case of penicilin and Fucidinacid- did you visit your derm to get is prescribed?
And thanks for your replies
Hello, mate!
We will meet within a week in the worldcup. I mean.. if you support your national team...
Anyway I want to say you will clear up in the future. I keep saying this on this forum. From my experience, I believe severe acne is caused by hormone. Because I had severe acne on my teenage, and I cleared up when I entered my uni. But in the freshman year, I got severe injury on my left kidney, and severe acne relapsed. A few years later, I cleared up again. And 2 years ago, I got treatment for the testosterone problem. That treatment caused severe acne again which left me severe scarring at this time. I used to be very outgoing person, but I've refused to see anyone these days after the testosterone treatments. Because severe scarring affects my self-esteem so badly.
You will end up clearing up in the future. I can't guarantee when. But you will. And taking accutane regularly is very good indeed, although it doesn't work as much as you expected. Maybe you can raise up dosage after getting consultation with your doctor. Or it can be inflammation which is different from acne. So, some antibiotics or antihistamine can be helpful. You can talk to your doctor about this. In my case, my acne after kidney injury got cleared up when I traveled Turkey. I don't understand why, but I guess changing diet or relaxing myself helped.
I want to give you some advice. As I said, you will clear up in some days. You can trust me. But managing active acne is very important to avoid getting post-acne scar which is much more painful psychologically than acne. Please, don't squeeze it.
Once again, I would repeat. You will clear up. So, I hope you stay positive. And I hope you meet a great doctor who can make the day you clear up come sooner.
I hope your national team shows mercy to mine. 🙂
That opening line killed me inside xD Yeah we will meet next week, and by the flak the german team got for that -lets be honest - atrocious performance vs. mexico, everyone thinks we will meet our end like every world cup winner did in the next tournament xDBut i support them as they are still my country's represantative
Thats a unfortunate story of yours, and I am sorry for the relapses as I can imagine the toll on ones self esteem that takes. Just when you can live with your appearance some sh*t happens again - that has to be depressing.
And Turkey is lovely, maybe the climate and the "holiday"-feeling helped you. I notice that aswell when I'm in Croatia or Spain my skin clears up as I somehow leave all my worries behind for this frame of time ~
I take your words as they are and try to apply, it just isnt as simple as to just stop sometimes. Sub-consciously your hands wander and you dont even notice it
My doctor tells me that this is one of the reasons why acne is often multiplied in its appearance. In terms of additional medication she's rather hesitant but I will talk to her with my worries ~
I take your positivity and thank you very much for those needed words
Slightly unrelated, but I always wanted to visit Seoul once in my life as I love SK food and the culture as a whole, Im so envious xD
Last but not least, they will! I mean, as long as your clothing doesnt look like brazils in '14 haha.
Lets hope for a fair match, but I dont see why it wouldnt as we usually play one of the most fair football in the world ~
Yeah its a low dose. Its rather common my doctor told me. In this forum people tell they are on 40mg+, but that appears to be mostly a thing in the USA.
I was on 20mg from the beginning on. My derms reasoning was that this would be enough over a 4 to 5 month course. I wll ask to up my dosage for my last month as it is a longer course than anticipated 🙂
UK recommendations are 0.5mg/kg for first month and then up to 1mg/kg onwards. Until a maximum cumulative dose of 150mg/kg.
Obviously every country issues different advice to their doctors. Maybe the advice is to use low doses in Germany.
Doctors in the US seem to be able to prescribe phenomenally high doses of up to 2mg/kg. It would be very difficult to convince a dermatologist here in the UK to prescribe that sort of a dose, because if things went wrong theyd be liable because they went against the states guidence. Likewise in Germany if the guidence is to keep it low - it might be difficult to convince your doctor to go higher.
BTW - low dose will work. It will just take longer.