I'm sorry to come off angry but I'm using this kind of like a journal right now , I just want to rant
my face will not clear up no matter what I do, the dermatologist will not give me accutane , he keeps giving me retinols and creams telling me to be patient , I can't eat cheese or drink anything but water because I'm afraid I'll break out ,I'm short skinny and frail , I hate my job , I fear for my life everyday loading and unloading a steel roller which tears my nerves all to pieces , and it's almost killed me several times this year , the job goes on leave in month or two with pay so I don't want to quit , I lost the only girl I'll probably ever love about year ago and it doesn't seem I'll be getting her back , I'm broke, unmotivated , very stressed and depressed , basically my life just sucks and I don't see the point of being here anymore, I play soccer and do kickboxing but haven't been performing well in at either .... I just don't know I'm just a 22 year old guy who doesn't even know what happiness feels like