It's pretty natural to feel anger about having acne...you may have heard of this theory..
"The 5 stages of grief and loss are: 1. Denial and isolation; 2. Anger; 3. Bargaining; 4. Depression; 5. Acceptance. People who are grieving do not necessarily go through the stages in the same order or experience all of them." Elisabeth Kubler Ross
None of us get to choose what life throws at us and we've all been jealous of those we perceive to have a better life than us and we grieve for the loss of the 'normal' life we perceive acne has taken away. Remember nobody deserves to suffer including you.
I hope having a rant helped relieve your anger and frustration and I do wish better days ahead for you.

Yeah I also look around at people that dont have acne problems, which is the majority of people I see, and my self confidence shrinks like a popped balloon. I think about how much easier my life would of been and would be had I never gotten acne. Everybody's skin looks perfect compared to mine, its kind of alarming and depressing, and gives me anxiety.

I hear you man, an 11 year acne/scar veteran here and at this point i dont give a fuck. I see how fake all the shit around me is, the truth is our entire existence is but a instant and before you know it life is over. Do what makes you happy bro fuck everyone else, you either live for yourself or for others. To be honest the only reason i haven't gone rampage on america is due to the fact that doing so whould cause self annihilation on my part. If i where more then just a pathetic human I'd love spreading some chaos, being an ajin would be nice.

I read this and felt so much relief, I am on the verge of a breakdown and everyone around me seems to have perfect skin. I am crying every single day, researching treatments and I found this. No one I know has to deal with this, no one understands. I keep getting 'at least you have your health.' fuck my health i'd do anything for clear skin. I've been called selfish and immature for considering roaccutane, i'm sick of all those comments I need to talk to people who understand.

10 hours ago, marilyn62 said:

I read this and felt so much relief, I am on the verge of a breakdown and everyone around me seems to have perfect skin. I am crying every single day, researching treatments and I found this. No one I know has to deal with this, no one understands. I keep getting 'at least you have your health.' fuck my health i'd do anything for clear skin. I've been called selfish and immature for considering roaccutane, i'm sick of all those comments I need to talk to people who understand.

Hey,
You shouldn't feel guilty for wanting your skin to be clear. I also wish people understood why Im stressed out over my skin, but they dont.
What I recommend is use a 2.5% benzoyl peroxide cream and make a dermatologist appointment.
Have you tried antibiotics or tretinoin cream from the doctor?
-Benzoyl peroxide is the most effective over the counter treatment.
-Accutane is the most effective prescription medication, so you shouldnt feel bad for considering it as your ultimate cure.
You look pretty by the way . I hope you are happy in your skin soon.

Hi thanks for the reply

I have tried every cream under the sun and it has very little effect, just dries my skin out but the cysts still appear  I've had antibiotics and they did help but obviously you can't stay on them forever   I have just been given a prescription for isotretinoin gel, so hopefully that will do something. I have also just been referred to a dermatologist finally so I guess that is some good news. 

aw ty I wish my skin was pretty hahaha D:
Accutane will be my last resort! what have you tried? 

I hope that gel works well for you and Im happy that you are seeing a dermatologist, that is definitely exciting news. Yes, I have done accutane. I actually just finished taking it at the end of last year. So far no more acne, so I hope it stays that way. Im a good looking person too and acne+mild acne scars have made me pretty insecure about my appearance. You should clear you acne before any indentations show up because those are a real bummer.

At one point, I also wanted to do that to those who have normal skin. I even questioned, why me? Some people would really have a hard time understanding unless they also go through the same pain. And that pain is deep.

I hope we can achieve our skin goals soon. Cheers to us brave ones.