I'm on my third box of Accutane, so almost three months into the treatment. I'm on 60mg which appropriate for my weight. But it isn't working. There will be days that I don't get new spots, then suddenly three-five large inflamed pimples will appear on the same day. This morning I woke up with four. My face is covered in old acne spots that are bright red, and are showing no signs of going away quickly.

My skin looks terrible. I am thinking about quitting my job and postponing school because I can't stand to be out in public. I want to emphasize that I would never actually commit suicide, but I feel like I wish I was dead. Nothing is working. No treatment has worked. If anything, Accutane is making me get a ton of inflammatory acne.

I have tried all other treatments including diet and hormonal treatment, everything. Since the age of eleven. I am twenty-nine years old, and I am still covered in acne. I just can't take it anymore. I wish I had never been born. I can't adequately express the depths of despair that I feel. I feel like I can't get though an hour or even a minute without crying. I've lost all hope that my skin will get better. I just want to hole up and hide away. People tell me that it could be worse or that I am not just my acne. But it doesn't help. It's causing me real distress and no amount of comfort from anyone helps. I don't know how to get through this. Or how I CAN get through the rest of my life with this disease. I don't know that I can.