I feel like i'm always expecting. It feels like i've been sentenced to prison for a indeterminate period of time. I know it's a really random comparison, but thats what i feel. Whenever i'm going trough a bad breakout i absolutely can't leave the house and thats why i compared to prison. I mean, i only go out if i NEED to. I'm in college and here in my country we are on what in US would be considered summer vacations and since i started breaking out very bad (more than usual, it's not like my skin was clear before it started breaking out) i haven't leave the house for anything. I feel like i can't make plans because acne is so unpredictable, you never know if next week you will be looking decent or like a monster, you are always expecting for it to get better. In my case i'm always expecting to be able to get out of this "prison". And most of the times my expectations are frustated because i'm always breaking out. Everyday is a day of frustated expectations. You feel stupid for even thinking it would go away but at the same time you are a human being and you have hope (even if its little like mine). I'm always postponing things because i have hope that someday it will get better. I'm tired of expecting things to get better in the future instead of living the present. Sorry for my rant, i hope i wrote in a way thats not confusing cause i don't know how many times i said the word "expect" (and i know my english is not the best). Can anyone relate to this feeling?