14 hours ago, xfairylightsx said:

Everytime I think it might be going more spots appear. It sounds superficial and vain but I love clothes. But I have to think about everything I wear so that it doesn't show of my chest or back. At least I can put make up on my face. I want to wear nice dresses, I want to be able to shower without looking at my body and feeling like I'm going to vomit. I want to stop crying at night. I want to stop constantly checking myself in the mirror. I want to be able to take my clothes of infront of my boyfriend. But I hate my body. I'm disgusted and ashamed. Its making me depressed and anxious. I thought that I couldn't hate my self more, but then I got acne. I'm sick of acne. I'm sick of feeling like this. I don't know what to do, everyday I feel myself detaching from everyone, I have to think about every conversation I have so hard. Why am I like this? Is it just acne? Am I that vain? What's wrong with me?

 

side note: I was with my boyfriend before I got acne, since I got it about a year ago he hasn't seen me naked. I know that he wouldn't stop loving me if he saw it but I know it would disgust him.

Love and disgust don't belong in one sentence.

Of course they can. Otherwise loving someone unconditionally wouldn't mean anything.

33 minutes ago, xfairylightsx said:

Of course they can. Otherwise loving someone unconditionally wouldn't mean anything.

That's not unconditional love.

2 hours ago, AlexanderJ86 said:

That's not unconditional love.

If you love someone then they'll surely be things that you don't particularly like about them or annoys you, or in this case disgusts. But if you love them anyway surely that's unconditional? However I think this is beside the point.

1 hour ago, xfairylightsx said:

If you love someone then they'll surely be things that you don't particularly like about them or annoys you, or in this case disgusts. But if you love them anyway surely that's unconditional? However I think this is beside the point.

No, that is exactly the point. Unconditional love is that you accept the whole person under all circumstances. If there was a condition where I wouldn't be able to love the whole person, then it is conditional. If he is going to say "Ewww!! What the fuck is that shit on your skin you piece of shit!", does he then love you? Of course not. Now, it would be different if there was a social conversation and at the end you figure it out together. Why don't you tell him what is bothering you and listen to what he has to say? You can at least start to talk about it, right? If not, then you have bigger problems than your acne.

my problem isn't with with my boyfriend its with myself

4 minutes ago, xfairylightsx said:

my problem isn't with with my boyfriend its with myself

I think you do have bigger problems.

53 minutes ago, AlexanderJ86 said:

I think you do have bigger problems.

so do I. It wasn't I that fixated on my boyfriend, it was you. This didn't make me feel better. It made me feel worse. Thanks for trying, I guess

17 minutes ago, xfairylightsx said:

so do I. It wasn't I that fixated on my boyfriend, it was you. This didn't make me feel better. It made me feel worse. Thanks for trying, I guess

On the other hand, there is nothing wrong with having problems. I have also problems that are way, way bigger than my acne.

On 12/6/2015, 9:38:49, xfairylightsx said:

so do I. It wasn't I that fixated on my boyfriend, it was you. This didn't make me feel better. It made me feel worse. Thanks for trying, I guess

If your boyfriend was disgusted by your acne, he wouldn't be much of a boyfriend! If you love someone and are in a relationship with someone, acne really shouldn't have anything to do with it. In a relationship its all about accepting each others flaws, and loving each other for who you are. I'm sure your boyfriend wound't be disgusted by your acne if he really did care for you. You would be beautiful no matter what.