Hi all of you out there struggling so hard )) !

I™d like to find here someone to talk to for the support in my attempts to get my mental acne under control. This is my story in short. (Since i™m not really English speaker and i have this strong impulse to do this don™t mind the language mistakes : ) I™m a girl, 25 years. The real problem is that i don™t really have serious acne anymore. I have hormonal acne now, something that comes up twice a month and it™s always the same and it always disappears in less than a week. The real problem is this deep picking addiction issue. I™ve been reading lots of posts here, i™ve started to read ™Skin Deep™ by Grossbart, i™ve been analyzing myself in it seems all ways and trying so many tricks to get rid of it, it feels i™ve done it all except going to the psychologist. I don™t really think i have OCD (or am i trying to refuse admitting it?). Why ? Since last night i was really content with myself not been picking for 2 weeks...i finally got small hurtful inflammations again...i did the mask yesterday, i didn™t look close in the mirror to examine my skin...i was good, more than good. I keep a diary for this stuff and i wrote a good entry in there...

But today... it crashed. I™ve lots of worries in my head and i am actually able to realize that instead of dealing with the stressful feelings i lived it out in my relflectance in the mirror. So okay, i ™™cleaned™™ my face. It will heal in the next two weeks i™m not gonna touch it if i'm strong. But what after another 2 weeks? Or a week? :/ Otherwise i feel good about my looks. I get compliments. But it™s as if when my skin gets this good... i recreate the problem instead of waiting the acne to diminish.

Today i realized i gotta speak out and as i can™t do it at home or with my friends since they™d think i really need a psychologist, i™m reaching out here where i™ve been reading so many similar posts and i rather need a support group? This forum exists to make you feel you™re not alone in this and therefore move you one step closer to healing. In my life, in my country, in my environment i don™t think i™ll find people who™d understand the deep roots of this problem. So anyone who has reached or passed this level where i am right know? I'd be glad to have someone to discuss it with and therefore get i hope the final step to get clear.

Cheers, A