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  1. BJSantos

    My Story With Acne

    So where do I start? Hopefully not with the whole puberty talk but just the acne problem that comes with it should do (chuckle). When I was in grade 5 about 11 I got my first zit on my nose. I didn't know until then but that was a pustule where there was a red inflamed look to it. Of course no one in my class was use to it so they called me rudoph the red nose reindeer. Kids can be cruel right? Well needless to say, I just brushed it off until I started middle school in grade 6. That's when my small zits around me nose spread all over my cheeks, chine, forehead and temples. I was then called pizza face by everyone and I could not handle looking at the mirror. One day, I saw an ad on t.v called Proactiv® and I told my mom if we could try it. So once i started using the 3-step system, I immediately saw a massive improvement for the first 2 months. Unfortunately, due to the hefty price, we could not buy it anymore so I had to opt for the cheaper drugstore products. My acne came back and I was desperate to find a cure. I then came across a system very similar to proactiv® called Acnefree® and that cleared me up and even better than proactive®. I continued to use it for 2 and a half years until it was discounted in Canada so I was left with acne coming back. I know, what a pain, right? I started using other products like Oxy which was very decent and good and very fast and cheap to buy! Clearasil is one of my favourites because it works great and feels great. Neutrogena® is also and still today my go to brand and of course clean and clear® has a multitude of great products. So as you can see, I had to go through many phases of ups and downs until I founds things that worked. You guys can too! I'm 17 now and I can say that my hormones are starting to slow down with that my acne is also not as active unless if I'm stressed.
  2. Hi there, I'm a 19 year old college freshman struggling with acne issues. If you could please listen to my story and offer ideas, I'd appreciate it SO much. It probably makes most sense to start at the beginning. I always had amazingly clear skin when I was younger. Even through puberty, which began early for me, I hardly broke out other than the occasional stray zit. It was when I was 15 and I started struggling with mental health issues that everything went downhill. I tried literally over 32 medications over the last four years, but the only thing that really worked was lithium. Changing medications would not at all be an option for me. The side effects suck, but the worst is definitely the acne. My skin type changed, too. My skin had been normal to dry when it was clear, before the lithium. It then became very oily. That's when my acne started. Phases of painful, deep cystic acne came and went, but I always had breakouts all over my face, even when things weren't as bad as usual. My doctor put me on minocycline, which almost completely cleared up my skin. A few months later, I found out that I have liver disease (due to weight gain from psych meds), and immediately had to stop taking the minocycline. Of course, the breakouts returned, and although they usually weren't the severe cystic kind, they never left. I've lost a bunch of weight now, but of course my liver will always be a concern now, so minocycline is no longer an option for me, ever. I've tried many different skincare regimens, and although some have worked better than others, none have come anywhere near fixing my acne problem. I tried Murad, Proactiv, and several other lines. My skin type isn't the super-oily situation I had going on when I first started the lithium. My skin is dehydrated with the occasional flaky patch (usually as a zit heals and disappears), with a thin layer of oil over the top. My skin appears shinier most of the time, but definitely lacks hydration. Currently I'm using a combination of products from different skincare brands, which has kept my skin clearer than it would be otherwise, but hasn't come near clearing it up. I'm incredibly diligent about my skincare. I honestly can't remember a time in the last several years that I have skipped my skincare routine. I use wipes for makeup removal ONLY. I use a gentle all-purpose cleanser; I've found that if I use a treatment cleanser and a treatment product, it strips my super-sensitive skin and makes me break out more. I use an AHA liquid exfoliant several times a week, plus La Roche - Posay Effaclar Duo as a spot treatment. Depending on how dry/dehydrated my skin is, I use either an oil-free moisturizer or a light face oil (this actually helps my skin clear up, not break out, oddly enough). Not often enough, but occasionally, I use a mask. I love the Peter Thomas Roth Irish Moor Mud mask because it doesn't dry out my skin in the process of trying to suck out all the nasties, but does appear to make a difference. As if that all isn't enough, I recently found out that I am Gluten Intolerant, too. Not sure if that has anything to do with it... I kind of doubt it since my acne didn't start until the lithium (though I've heard that lithium or other psych drugs may cause gluten intolerance?). If you've read this entire ramble of a post, God bless you, you're a trooper. Sorry it got so long. I didn't want to leave anything out. PLEASE offer your thoughts or ideas about my situation if you have any! I'm so frustrated by my skin, and although I know it could be far worse, I'm ready to do what it takes to make it better. Jillian
  3. sdeeeeeeez7

    Acne Story

    As a teenager I experienced a small pimple here and there, never anything cystic and never anything I would describe as acne. It wasn't until I turned 23 that my skin began having issues. I returned home from a family vacation with a pretty bad breakout. I tried over the counter products for a couple of months before I decided the breakout wasn't going away. I made an appointment with a dermatologist who took one look at my face (not a very close look) and told me that I had adult acne. Because I am allergic to benzoyl peroxide (works on my pimples but leaves the surrounding skin itchy, red, and swollen) I was prescribed a tretinoin cream and medication. I never filled the medication prescription because back then I was still sure the breakout would go away and the side effects of the pills scared me. I don't even remember the name of the pills. I used the cream for a couple of months and found my skin itchy and red and aggravated. I read that this was the initial break out, but the breakout lasted too long for me and I was so impatient, I stopped using the cream. I suffered for a few more months before I booked an appointment with an esthetician. The esthetician went through my makeup bag and threw out every pore clogging item I used on my face. She set me up with new cleansers and moisturizers, and with mandellic serum. I visited her office monthly, alternating between vitamin a peels and gentler treatments, and upping the mandelic serum formula every once in a while. After 3 months I saw a substantial improvement, and after 6-7 months my skin was completely clear. I stayed clear for over a year with less frequent visits to the esthetician. Then, after moving and starting a new job, I started breaking out again. I do have a small problem with picking my skin. I know that makes it worse, and I'm sure that's what intensified the breakout. I was stressed, which caused acne, then I was stressed because I had acne. I booked an appointment with a new dermatologist and she was much more helpful. She diagnosed me with hormonal acne and I started taking spironolactone- which combined with my birth control pills, seemed to help. I saw a great improvement but never got completely clear. I decided I wanted to try isotretinoin. It has been one month now and I have seen promising results. My next post will be all about the first month.
  4. Acnestrugglesreal

    The Natural Way...?

    I used to have severe breakouts about two years ago. I radically changed my diet and began working out, and I was happy and healthy and got rid of my acne. All of last year, my skin was clear. It felt amazing. At the end of summer 2013, I began noticing little breakouts. I thought they would go away. I wasn't eating very healthy and I was drinking though. When school started, I became more and more stressed and worked out less and less. I began breaking out, my skin began spiraling out of control and now I'm left to try and get it back to how it was last year. I'm trying to workout again, relieve my stress and eat healthy but it's been hard. My acne causes even more stress and anxiety than I'm already dealing with. I don't want to see a dermatologist because I hate taking medication and using harsh products on my skin. Thanks for reading, if you got this far.
  5. I've decided to share my acne story on here because I finally do not feel alone. There are so many other people going through the same thing and I want to get this off my chest. Being a teenager in Highschool and having acne is not exciting. People judge you on every single flaw and your confidence goes down. The way you look at yourself is different. I've suffered from acne for a year now and I want to say that everyday is a struggle. I have mild to moderate acne ALL over my face ( not exaggerating) and very red cheeks. My face is extremely sensitive and oily in t-zones. I've tried many cleansers and masks. I've tried gels and creams. I've even tried drinking Chinese herbs which apparently gets rid of all your toxins. I've tried changing my pillow sheets everyday and not picking at my skin. I've tried cutting out ALL junk food. The last thing I've tried is antibiotics, Minocycline. Minocycline has helped me a lot in some ways. My acne was not flaring up for those 4 months and my confidence was boosted. I felt so great about myself but when I found out that antibiotics were not very good for the body, I stopped the pills completely and I'm currently breaking out frequently with whiteheads. All my big pimples are gone, however. Everyday I look at my flawless friends and admire their acne-free skin. I'm scared. I don't like it when people get too close to my face because they can see all my little bumps. I don't like bright lighting. My self-esteem is very low right now. I'm trying to find a hobby to get my mind off my acne but i cannot. I tend to always look in the mirror and start picking at my skin. i can't stop. I cry constantly in my room but no one knows. i don't know what to do because I feel so helpless. when people stare at me, i automatically think they are staring at my skin. i also do NOT like tieing up my hair because i have acne and scars on my cheeks. i always blame my acne for my failures. I'm never happy anymore and i really don't know what to do...it's embarssing. it really is. my parents say it's puberty but i can't deal with this any longer. i'm scared that my first impression to people will be that i am disgusting and i'm dirty because of my acne. acne really hurts me....and affects me completely. i'm tired of hearing people say "it's going to go away" because it's not. a year of this is so hard. imagine another year.. i can't. i just want to bury my face and hide from everyone. i also use bb cream to hide up my redness. i don't want to wear foundation because apparently it clogs your pores. I can't see myself as beautiful because all i see in the mirror is my skin full of redness, bumps, disgusting, grossness, and i feel like puking. I feel so torn apart. if anyone has ANY tips for acne, please tell me.
  6. asianheaux

    My Acne Story

    So, I'm 18 years old and I have been struggling with acne for about 10 years. I know it's weird to think about a 4th grader having acne, but that's the earliest I remember having it because a kid in my class had called me "pimple face". This isn't really a post to tell you guys how I cured my acne, because I still struggle with it to this day and I still have acne. I guess what I want to say is just that I truly understand the struggle and that you're not alone. To begin with, you should know that I've always dealt with extremely oily skin/hair. I had/have severe acne, which I don't think was cystic, but I had pimples covering every spot on my skin. I had acne all over my face, my chest, my back, and even a few on my upper arms. When I was in 4th-5th grade (when my acne started on my forehead), my parents allowed me to try Proactiv. I now believe that that really wasn't a good idea because I feel that Proactiv progressively made my skin worse. After that, I remember trying countless drugstore face washes, creams, etc. Over the years I have gone to the doctor/dermatologist so many times and have gotten 21 different prescriptions, but none cleared up my skin. The prescriptions I've taken/tried are as followed: Differin 0.1% (prescribed to me 3x) Clindamycin Phosphate 1% (prescribed to me 3x) Minocycline 100mg Retin-A 0.025% Tetracycline 250mg Amoxicillin 500mg Benzamycin 3-5% Vibramycin 50mg Accutane 40mg (went on two courses) Differin 0.3% (prescribed to me 3x) Adoxa 50mg Avidoxy 100mg Benzoyl Peroxide 5% Spironolactone 50mg Keep in mind that these are just things I received from the doctor. I tried SO many things. Accutane was the only thing that cleared my skin twice, but my acne/oily skin came back in less than 3 months after both courses. It's a lot to go through as a teenager, and I know I probably shouldn't have taken so many medications because "almost everyone gets acne in their teenage years", but mine was so bad. I literally was the only one in my high school class that had extremely greasy bumpy skin while everyone else around me had smooth normal skin with the occasional 1-2 pimples. I can't even tell you how many times I've had people ask me if I washed my face correctly or if I wanted to try something that "helped their friend". It had affected my self-esteem so much. At one point in my life, I refused to look into mirrors because I didn't want to look at my acne. I also avoided certain clothes because I had so much acne on my back. I can't even tell you how many times in my life that I have broken down and cried for hours because of my skin condition. After my second course of Accutane (which ended earlier this year), my oily skin and my acne started to return. I did some more research and found out about Spironolactone. I went to see an endocrinologist to get my hormones tested. And while I did not have any hormonal imbalances or adrenal/thyroid problems, she wanted me to try it. And to be honest with you, one week on Spironolactone was worse than any side effects I ever got from Accutane both rounds. I drink about 1-2 liters of water a day, but within 9 days on Spironolactone my skin dried up so bad (it flaked whenever I washed it). In addition, the edges of my lips cracked no matter how much Aquaphor I put on it. I was only on Spiro for 9 days until I stopped it. (As of today I've been off Spiro for 3 days) I hated the side effects it gave me, and I worried that in the future if it did end up working my body would depend on it and I would always get acne again if I ceased to use it. So I guess that brings me to today. I have just decided to try and take care of my skin naturally and wait for my acne to go away with age. I wash my face twice a day, then I use Benton BHA toner, spot treat using tea tree oil, and last Benton Aloe Gel for moisturizer. I currently switch back and forth between Mask of Magnaminty from LUSH and a moisturizing face mask. My acne, I assume, is purely genetic. While my mom never had bad acne, she had the occasional big pimple here and there when she was younger. My dad on the other hand, suffered with bad face/back acne just like me. He tells me that his cleared up by the time he was 21-22. Although he still has oily skin today, he doesn’t get acne anymore. Frankly, I’m so sick and tired of depending on medication to solve my acne when I know deep down that it might not even work. I’m slowly growing out of my teenage years and am starting college in 9 days. Hopefully, I learn to love myself more, accept that pimples are cute and pink, and they finally leave me somewhere soon down the road.
  7. Manimau

    Clear Skin Challenge-

    Hi everyone, This is the first time I am writing anything, anywhere on the net. Let me begin my story. I have had acne since I was 14 years old and I am 26 now. One to two year having acne which turned moderate from mild I went to a derm. Obviously nothing worked for me, no medication, no cleansers, no moisturisers, nothing. I had back acne too for couple of months. Do you know what happened to the back acne? It cleared completely. How? Cause I did not have tme to care for it as it did not show outside. And what happened to face acne? Its still there and now I also have hormonal acne. Painful. Any ways I have been reading so much on internet, watching youtube for all possible things I can do for my acne. And yes it worsened cause of me begging to each product and using it to clear my acne. It does not work that way at all. It is so frustating when you do not have great skin. I stopped applying my acne topical creams for the first time in say 7-8 years, or more. Every single day as long as I remember i applied medicine before sleeping. And its been 3 months since i stopped it and my face is a wreck. As i stopped those I kept applying natural things like tea tree, jojoba oil etc etc etc... but you know things never work for me. Finally I decided that there are so many acne suppressed by medicines and I wll jut let them come out and wait and watch.. No touching, no caring.. Being girl I still dont like make-up and very seldom use it. I made a soap at home. Bought glycerine base with olive oil (melt and pour), mixed cucumber, green tea and mint and mixed it and let it set. I use that to gently wash face twice a day and moisturize with cold pressed organic extra virgin coconut oil. its been a week. My face does hurt but a lot less. My skin does not look horrible and looks like skin. And I have just stopped bothering now about my acne. I am not going to try anything new nothing nothing new on my skin now except this. I use homemade soap dont know its effectiveness but I dont care I just know its if not good or better atleast equally worse as everything out there. Lets see ho this challenge goes. I am not going to change my diet as its quiet nice. I barely have any sugar as I drink green tea with honey, I drink milk or have dairy whenever I have too..Like ice creams I dont want to lose out on life for clearing my skin. I think Trying less hard and being happy is going to help. And thats the hardest thing to do...Lets see how my challlenge goes. Today I will consider as the first day of my challenge 10-24-11... will keep updating..I have no idea if this ill work for anyone else. But I hope it works for me. But I think that not irritating the skin will help many people...
  8. kayywink

    Differin 3% Experience

    I decided I wanted to tell people about my experience with differin so I figured I would start a blog on here! Background on my skin, I started getting acne when I was in 6th grade, never severe but pretty moderate. Then my freshman year I decided to go on birth control to see if it would help, and it did a little bit but not much. During my sophomore year i found out I have sensitive skin that reacts badly to benzoyl peroxide, harsh face scrubs, and some other random things. Lucky me, right? At the end of my sophomore year I went to a dermatologist who prescribed me differin 3% and doxycycline. It took the full three months to get any results. I had no changes in the first month, just some minor flaking but moisturizer took care of it, the second month my skin began to purge these big painful pimples that seemed to take forever to clear up. And in the third month my skin was clear but more oily. At my three month check up he said I could try switching to the 1% to see if it would help with the oiliness. So I did. And that was the stupidest thing to do. My skin stayed clear for maybe two more months but then began to break out all over again. I was pissed. It was my junior year and I was back to feeling so insecure about my face that I would stay home sometimes just to try and clear it up faster. During christmas break I went back to using the 3% and my skin was awful. It was red, dry, and irritated. My skin was peeling off and leaving me with raw patches that only aquaphor would heal. You know how when your sunburns starting to heal and you peel off chunks of dead skin? That's what my face was doing. In May my face was still breaking out, but it was also so dry. I would get out of the shower and it would literally be a layer of dead skin on my face that you could see. It was like differin was just tearing my face apart. I tried cetaphil, cerave, ponds, clean and clear, and aveeno moisturizers and nothing worked. I switched to a cream cleanser by burts bees and it helped some but didn't take it away completely. My parents decided it was time to go back to the dermatologist and I asked for ziana and aczone. He said it was a good idea so I am now using those prescriptions. I will be tracking my progress! I don't know why my skin reacted so badly to the 3% differin the second time I used it but I will never go back to it. I know it works great for other people and I'm glad it does but it just didn't do it for me!
  9. I have lately been watching videos on Youtube , about people telling their stories about acne. I was surprised to find someone as positive as the girl on this video. I feel identified with her because I am being bulled at school and that makes me feel so sad. We are not monsters, we are not "pizza face" . We are just normal people trying to fight against our skin condition. I love her speech http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5ZJqBs5HzIA
  10. And here it is again, that devastating feeling all over again. Acne… Once again I am literally feeling like the worst piece of crap on the entire planet. Like wtf man? Why does it seem like I’m the only guy who is suffering from this skin disease? I mean I know there are many people out there who undergo bad acne as well, but what? Why does it seem like I’m the only one going through this feeling like a piece of worthless junk? Almost everybody I see everyday, be it at the subway, on the bus, train, or even a regular public walkway, I find it almost impossible to spot anybody, anybody at all with ACNE. Not a single person I see everyday has visible acne at all. Everyone seems to be so full of confidence, energy, and motivation to get on with their beautiful days ahead of them, and me? Sitting at home not wanting to even step out the house just because I didn’t want anybody to see how horrible I looked. The pain is real, the struggle is real, more real than ever before. I just get so damn jealous and envious whenever I saw people who had flawless skin and didn’t have to worry so much about it screwing up and turning into the worst looking human pizza in the world. Needless to say, all of my friends don’t seem to be having any serious issues with acne at all. And you know what’s the best part? When you find out how lmao their daily skincare routines were and yet they hardly get any pimples. I have a friend who had acne at the age of 15 that lasted for probably 2 years. He is now super totally clear with 0 skin issues at all. And what does he do to maintain such a flawless complexion? Just scrub his face with the hair shampoo that he uses everyday, wow. And on top of that, he doesn’t even bother applying any moisturizer at all after washing. Why? I asked him. “because my skin is oily and if I moisturize, it is only going to get 2 times oiler than it should be”. Bravo dude! Amazing routine you got there to maintain such a perfect looking complexion. There was another time when I went swimming with a few of my college friends. After the swim, we all took a bath, and to my shock, none of them had any sort of facial cleanser to cleanse their faces when they were bathing. All they used were whatever they could find (shampoo, bar soap, or some whatever handwash). Same thing, after they had dried themselves, I didn’t notice anyone of them applying moisturizer or any kind of skin cream you can think of. Like wtf again? All they did was wash with whatever they could find and just dried off and that’s it. WHAT IN THE WORLD IS THIS SORCERY? And they seem to be living the acne-free happy life, a kind of life I can never experience, not any time soon form now seeing how bad my face looks at the moment. I was like that one retarded dude who carried a moisturizer in his backpack just in case he needed to go for a swim or a bath or whatever. And yet, I have to worst looking hell of a face. To be honest, I don’t feel myself to be an ugly person at all. I don’t think I appear to be actually ugly at all, in fact, I dare say I am an above average male if I got rid of my dark circles. Not trying to sound so egoistic or self-obsessed or whatever but that’s just how I feel about myself. But I feel like it is all because of acne, that I am the ugly person I am today. I totally feel that ACNE has made me an ugly person both externally and internally. Externally, yeah you got it, I appear to be one hell of a pizza face from another planet. Internally? I have become demotivated in literally everything in life, from studies, to social activities, to exercising, to doing what I loved… I have also become somewhat antisocial as compared to what I was back when I didn’t really have any acne at all. I feel that it is all because of acne, that I am treating so many people in my life like shit nowadays, that I am being a total jerk towards the people around me. When told to do certain simple things, I couldn’t even be bothered and did them sloppily, and I am most certainly confident that this is due to how acne has affected me emotionally. Acne is responsible for the deterioration of the quality of my life. I have never been in such a constant state of moodiness, misery, depression, anxiousness, and stress. My life has always been with so much of joy and motivation until it reached this year, 2018. The year my acne peaked to its legit climax in my years of having acne. Never have I ever had acne that was this bad in any other years of my life. The kind of acne I had at any given time before the year 2018 were all not even anything serious at all. They were hardly even any visible acne unless you had nothing to do and you actually took the effort to observe and examine my face. Life was such a bliss before 2018, there were ups and there were downs and they were all totally worth going through. But the shittiness of acne that I have been facing the whole of 2018? That’s just totally something I can’t accept. Something I wished could be totally banished from the surface of this planet, something that shouldn’t have even existed in the first place because nobody in this world, deserves to live a life revolving ACNE. You know what is it that really gets me on my nerves living with this skin disease? How people tend to react to it and how they perceive it and you for having it. People without a single speck of ACNE on their faces seem to think of us acne sufferers as people who don’t wash their faces often enough. Like what? So now it’s got to reflect upon our personal hygiene eh? ‘People who have acne are people who don’t keep themselves clean enough’, is that what you people are trying to tell us? No? I’m just paraphrasing the sentences that you have given me regarding my skin disease. Face it, that is what you meant. Sometimes I even get so pissed off with these kinds of sensitive sayings that I just feel like giving them the hardest slap. I even wished that I had the power to curse these people, making them live a life with FULL of ACNE on their faces, just so they could know how it feels to be in the position of somebody who suffers from this messed up DISEASE. i know it sounds harsh but it's just the dark part of me.. How does it feel like to have a conversation with people for someone who has acne? Ho, I got to tell you, screw face to face conversations man, screw presentations and speeches as well. What is it with people’s eyes moving about all over your face huh? From your cheeks to your chin to your forehead to your jawline. It seems like they are way more intrigued by your acne that your conversation. It is just so emotionally shattering, it just makes you feel like giving up talking to anybody anymore. Some people may say that acne is just a superficial problem, that at least it doesn’t pose any huge risks on your health. Yes, that is as true as it sounds, but did you know that acne can have such a hard impact on your emotions that it can take a toll on your overall health as a human being? This is exactly the case for me. I have been this unhealthy, drinking, not exercising, hates to go out kind of guy for practically the whole of 2018. I even get some sort of random anxiety kind of feelings sometimes, especially when my acne has flared up really bad and I feel so emotionally defeated. I get all sorts of thoughts during these periods of anxiety shocks. There are times when I even thought of rather being an animal than a human being, rather just die off than to continue living if I had to deal with acne all my life, even weird thoughts of having superpowers such as Wolverine’s where I could rip the shit out of my face and then have it grow back perfect and flawless. And it’s not like I haven’t tried. Please, I have tried so many things to fix my acne, from googled remedies to certain products to medication such as Accutane. Nothing seems to work. Well, actually they do, only for the first few weeks into them. Every single remedy that I have tried only seems to work initially and then sooner or later things will start to go wild and out of hand. I will have one of the worst breakouts ever and in the end, I will just give up on that remedy. And it’s also not like I haven’t tried controlling my emotions and not letting it spill out like an overflowed river. I have tried countless times, to accept myself for having whatever conditions and flaws (where the biggest one was still ACNE) but it is just so hard that I gave up completely. I forced myself numerous times, to try and get over with it, stop thinking so much about it BUT I JUST CAN’T. My life revolves around acne and I can’t seem to get out of this orbit. 99% of the day, I think about acne and acne and acne all over again. The productivity of my brain is all lost and taken up by acne, acne, acne. And I am totally out of control of it. It’s sort of like abusing my mind and it’s like some sort of drug where you just can’t help but think of it. And by thinking of it, you only upset yourself more. I’m so done with acne and so done with my life because of it. I only wish to be broken free from this prison acne is keeping me in..
  11. alikarol3

    My Story & Accutane Journey So Far

    Hello to anyone who is taking the time to read this... My name is Ali. I am a soon-to-be-21 year old psychology major, and I also study public health and nutrition. Woo! I love it !! I am also dealing with acne! Boo. My struggle with acne started when I was 18. From puberty until I turned 18, my skin was flawless. But then I suddenly began breaking out very rapidly and severly for no apparent reason. This was extremely traumatizing for me. I quickly began to hate myself. In no time, I was a master of drugstore cosmetics and probably tried every facewash known to man, as well as proactive. Nothing was working. I tried exercise, increasing sleep, managing stress, changing my diet, birth control, etc. And although these things would help slightly( except birth control), it would only do that--help. Nothing was curing my acne and stopping it from forming. It was awful. I could talk to you for hours about all of the trauma that acne has caused me. I don't remeber what it is like to look in the mirror and not be afraid of what I see. But I do remember how much easier and happier my life was. I go through everything that anyone suffering from acne experiences. I sit in my room alone a great majority of the time because I am too embarressed of the way I look. I turn down invitation from my friends all the time because their skin is perfect and I am the one with something wrong and it causes me anxiety (Even though my friends would never judge me--it just depresses me to be around flawless faces). I don't watch tv or movies because everyone has perfect skin and it makes me depressed. I am afraid to eat just about anything that isnt a fruit or vegetable because of what it might do to my skin. I cry, a lot. But not too much, because too much crying causes a breakout. My whole acne experience is just soo much sadness. And of course, the sadness I feel is all a state of mind and it is my belief about the way my skin should be that causes my sadness. I am aware of this. But it is just hard. I want my life back--I don't want it to revolve around acne anymore. I've come to realize that I will never be able to except it. I just don't have it in me. So, because of all these feelings I have, I decided to go to a dermatologist in March of 2012. I was given a benzyol perxoide and some other topical (adalpalene?) to put on. It didn't help at all. Then in August of 2013 I went back and saw another doctor. Of course, the first thing he did was put me on more topicals---tazorac and aczone. Again, no improvement after a month. Then, I was put of an antibiotic and this thing was the HOLY GRAIL !!!! I was on antibiotics from October until mid-December, and during this time my skin was the clearest it has been in three years. I was loving life again. I was seeing a new guy and felt sooo confident. I was able to go to sleep with him with a fresh face and no makeup without feeling self-concious, because there was nothing there but itty bitty blemishes ( and there was like...2). But, I couldn't stay on them forever. Once I was taken off of them, my skin was INSANE. My acne was back with a vengence!!! I got my first cysts in 3 months on CHRISTMAS MORNING. Ya, Merry Christmas to me. I was miserable. But, I was FINALLY allowed to go on Accutane. I had been waiting for this for sooooo long. My Accutane Journey so far: At the time I started accutane, my skin was already back to the mess it had been before I went on antibiotics (maybe even worse...) Month one: 20mg. I had a slight inital breakout. The only things that happened to me this whole month was dry lips, aches everywhere, and very slight dryness. My blackheads moved to the surface and began to just...fall out. (Sorry x] ) Month two: 40mg. This month, all of my balckheads were gone. I was still breaking as much as always though, which was frustrating.including cysts. I.HATE. CYSTS. I had a handful of little tiny blemishes from blackheads moving to the surface on my cheeks that would become inflamed occasionally if they didnt just fall out. I still had dry lips, eyes, pain in joints. However, the ONLY upside to this month was that was my face has zero oil. I used to be soooo oily but now my face is never oily. Or my hair. WIN. Month three: 60mg. I am currently starting my second week in month three. I take 40 mg in the morning and 20mg at night. At this moment, my face is looking pretty bad again. I am breaking out pretty bad on my cheeks and ONLY my cheeks (why is this?!) The rest of my face is finally perfect except for my cheeks--they refuse to stop breaking out. Some things to mention: -Everytime my dosage is increased, I break out again. -My skin was never dry or flakey since I started Accutane. Not even a little. -My lips are falling off. No seriously, I'm convinced.They are trying to escape off of my face. They have taken the biggest beating from Accutane. Poor things. I was convinced that I would escape the dreadful dry lips while on Accutae but nope, they crack and bleed everyday no matter what I put on them. -I broke out on this weird rash on my hands in month 2 which I still have. It looks like psoriasis. FUN! More psychological damage. -I have days/ few days or maybe even a week where my skin looks beautiful and I am finally convinced that I am finally done breaking out and now its only going to keep getting better....and then I break out again. Why. Accutane has been such a rollercoatser ride so far. It's soo frustrating to have such god days but then go back to having such bad days. Oh Accutane...you little tease. But seriously, let me stop breaking out now. Please. At this point, I am scared that Accutane isnt going to work for me. But then I notice that my blackheads did go away and maybe it's just going to take a loooooong, painful, time. We shall see. So...thats pretty much everything about my acne story and my journey with Accutane so far. I still have a long way to go, and I hope that I can finally have my clear skin back! Did anyone else experience this? Anyones experience with Accutane sound like mine so far? Any advice or stories? BTW...I just want anyone reading this to know..that if you ever feel alone or that you are the only one who feels these things...youre not. You at least know ONE person (me) who knows exactly how you feel. Im right here, right now, feeling the same thing. <3
  12. It's my first post! I have read a lot of stories here. Some are sad, some are hopeful. But no matter how you look today, all I want to say is you're beautiful. All of us are beautiful creations and soul and nobody's ugly. It's all in your mind. Let me tell my maybe, 10 year battle with acne until now, and I'm hopeful the battle will be over soon. When I was a child, my mom told me everyone kept telling me how I looked so cute and like a kid with a foreign blood (I looked white.) I started having acne when I was grade 6, 10 years ago. I'm 22 now, a registered nurse, and I must say, my acne has improved considerably in the past years, though I still get a few but manageable breakouts sometimes. It was terrible when it all started. My face, 2 arms (upper), back, and chest were all filled with acne. 10 years ago it was all red, bumpy, painful I guess, like the usual things you can see on the pictures, but I now that I'm 22 I realized that when I was in my puberty it didn't really bother me. It felt like it didn't exist at all (even it was during those times it was worst.) I think I just went on, kept myself busy studying and earning honors, taking the position of a school paper Editor-In-Chief and competing on contests (modesty aside). It left deep scars that I can see until now, but in those deep holes, I buried gold and covered them with hope and resilience. Then I graduated elementary and began high school. My acne continued, I still really like went on with my life, but I was aware that some people around me have indifference when it comes to that. Maybe some would tease me behind my back or laugh at me without my knowledge, but I remember in high school I somehow enjoyed what they say the one of the most colorful parts of your life. I remember one of my friends said that our teacher said to the class when I was absent, ''Don't tease Emmanuel, what's he's going through is not easy.'' Well yeah, but I'm just like, I'm not asking for anyone's sympathy as my myself do not feel that my life is ruined because of this. I continued being an honor student, becoming an Editor-In-Chief again, competing on Science and English quiz bees. (modesty aside.) If you ask me how am I able to act brave and be able to go on during those times, I'll answer you: CONFIDENCE. It's all that I have. I believe a confident man is able to pull of everything, make bad appear good, I guess it has become a defensive mechanism for me, that if I know something is going in my face I have to double my confidence so I could go on like nothings happening. Then I entered college. I took up Nursing. My acne still persisted, but then I had to go through some cystic acne sometimes. So when I was about to enter 2nd year, when we have to go and officially enroll to the College Of Nursing, there was a doubt. I asked myself, will they accept me in, because I have acne? Do I look dirty and are we supposed to look flawless clean? Before that I applied for a scholarship. Funny that the interviewers asked what happened to my face, and questioned my possibility to enter the College Of Nursing. I didn't get it, they gave it to an I.T. student. To cut it off, I made it in the College Of Nursing. But you know, way back then and sometimes until now whenever I get a job (22 here yet on my 5th company already haha) I still get nervous during physical examinations, like the Doctor will always see my acne and I'm like, hope this will not hamper my plans. It's during college days that I experienced and felt all the consciousness grow and how some people will try to hurt you using your acne as your imperfection. But they all did this when I was on my back; I guess nobody can say this in front of my face. Why? Because they knew I'll get back to them, some of my friends tell me I'm a monster, in a positive way like this monster rules or what. Again, spent my life studying in college, never went to a club, bar, got drunk or have sex. As a result, I'd become a candidate for Cum Laude in the end. I guess when people see you have respect and regards for yourself, they'll treat you the same. Oh I remember most cystic acne went on during my 3rd year college, when we started having duties already in hospitals. I'd walk with cystic acne near my eyes, cheek like I even feel something's heavy near my eyes. Jan. 1 2012 I guess me, dutying in the operating room filled with nodular acne on face, and neck. So I opted to finally, return to the Dermatology dept. of our chosen hospital and 75% of my misery stopped! EPIDUO + DUAC GEL + Cetaphil Cleanser + Lymecycline (Tetralysal) + Intralesional Injections. Yeah. Those saved me and using them religiously put me in a happy place where I'll only get nothing more than 6 -10 breakouts on my face. I started on Epiduo, and I guess, this is the Holy Grail cream that changed my life. I used it for 2-3 months and the results were amazing! I don't get those nodular acne anymore, only small ones that goes quickly. After on Epiduo my doctor switched me to DUAC (Benzoyl + Clindamycin) for the big ones, and it worked too! I've been using them as a maintenance, but the Lymecyline antibiotic I took mostly for 2 weeks when I had major breakouts before. Been using Cetaphil Cleanser for 2 years now, my room is filled with empty bottles I deserve a loyalty award. haha. Did IL injections for cystic ones that rarely happens. Now, I still get few breakouts sometimes, especially when I'm stressed or commuting everyday to work with polluted air, but I'm able to last a month or 2 without anything. Right now my regimen consists of Cetaphil cleanser, Duac, Dickinson's Witch Hazel toner w/c is another Holy Grail, Snail Recovery gel by Mizon before sleeping (My another fave Holy Grail), I've used already Tokyo Love Soap original which is a Holy Grail whitening tore lessening soap. What I wanted to say is do not surrender. I'm with you, as a lot of times I was vulnerable just like you, I cried in restrooms cubicles, in the jeepneys, walking, in the rain, I wanted to surrender, 'end it all', quit, do not look to the mirror and go outside. But I threw myself into doing things with #graceunderpressure. I've been working for 2 years already and able to sustain the high maintenance 'clear' skin. Be strong, as easy said than done, but do not let your life revolve on acne and draw people to define you with what you have in your face. No. Go on, enjoy life, pursue what you do, like I'm into modelling, (facebook.com/hausofvlmnt if you check it out), do not be ashamed. So what if some of you are edited, if you look good without or even with acne? It's still the same person as you in the picture! I've already had 4 girlfriends now, and they loved me despite There is always hope, one day the battle will be over, and we will make it through even if we almost barely survived. We're all in this together, and sometimes, we just have to think some could be having even worst acne than us. Some are even handicapped. I was coming home 12 midnight then I saw a handicapped, and even a dwarf guy who's still selling flowers at night and still smiling. I was like to myself, ''D*mn, I'm even luckier than him, I think I'm so devastated that I forgot some people are barely having any.'' Do not surrender, keep going on, and once it's over, you can press rewind like nothing happened. South Korea is there, Thailand is there, U.S. is there, those countries offer excellent skin resurfacing, like nothing happened. If you look good, you will always look good. Despite that acne. It's never too late. Keep positive, and avoid emotionally stressing yourself, as I think whenever I'm stressed, they tend to come out.
  13. I was following the paleo diet (no grains, sugar, dairy, or beans and focusing on fruits, veggies, nuts, fish, lean meat, etc.) and it was not only helping my body but also my skin. It looked a lot firmer, healthier, and had more life to it. And no breakouts in sight. A month into my diet, I got sick... very sick. I won't go into the nitty gritty details but I ended up in the hospital needed fluids due to dehydration and also just double checking that it wasn't anything serious. I have never been sick for that long - it took me 2 weeks to feel like myself again! Anyways, after being so sick I could not handle ANY food (I could barely handle liquid) so I was eating popsicles, gatorade, and that's about it. All sugar and dyes. It was a big shock to my body to go from such clean eating to total junk. Once I could finally eat food again, I had horrible cravings for all things carbs, sugar, and dairy! My skin absolutely reflected it too!! Clogged pores, a few zits, no radiance, fine lines are more noticeable. It amazes me more and more how much diet and acne are connected! I am looking forward to diving back in to the paleo lifestyle and continuing to see the awesome results that I had previously been enjoying. I am still using retin a micro .1% 2x per week and no longer have any side effects from it. My Acne Story: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pz8HfhcCkw0 The Craziest Acne Treatment I Tried: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jlhsBCe0Zzs Every Acne Treatment I Tried: The Good, The Bad, & The Stupid: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ukQ1w8uo5Nw Retin A Micro Side Effects & Results: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a57vGEtd7W0 If you are curious about my paleo journey, you can check it out here:
  14. Jorgem1009

    My Acne Story

    So I've always had almost perfect clear skin as a kid and even as an early teen, even while always having oily skin. However, as I got older I started noticing small breakouts, but not many. They usually went away rather quicker and left little to no marks on my face. Around age 15-16 my face became REALLY oily and I started developing blackheads, but they were barely noticeable. However, recently, now aged 17, my acne has been getting really bad and bothersome. Sometimes it calms down, and sometimes it just flares up. I used aloe vera gel from the leaf ifor a month with some improvements. However, I started to develop a patch of small closed comodones on both cheeks that make my face look rough. I began to use Neutrogena Oil Free Acne Wash and this just dried out my face and made it flake, although I do admit I overused it by using 4-6 pumps every time I used it. I left the wash and began to use Clearasil, with a Neutrogena Oil Free Acne Stress Toner, and then some oil free moisturizer. This regimen helped a little, but barely. I'm just lucky my skin flared up AFTER prom and graduation. I turned to a natural face cleanser, raw African Black Soap. This soap made my face tighten, which some moisturizer solved. I have been only using it for a week (as of August 24, 2015) and to be honest, it has made me breakout. Some people say there is a purging period but who knows. Before beginning the ABS, I had pimples that I hoped the soap would remove, but it didn't. Out of desperation, I popped them. They oozed so much gunk (sorry, TMI) but they left red and dark spots. The picture where my face doesn't look too bad is a picture before I started the ABS and before I popped them. The picture with all the pimples and redness is after I popped them. Seeing this picture made me cry a little - I had never seen my face so horrible ever. I will begin, starting tomorrow, using Neutrogena Clear Pore Cleanser/Mask with 3.5% Benzoyl Peroxide while also using the African Black soap. The ABS will be for the morning while the neutrogena cleanser will be for nighttime. I will be posting updates on how my skin will react. Hopefully I get good results since I start college in a few days.