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Posts posted by defoe

  1. yeah, the loneliness is tough. As far as not having a girlfriend, it's been so long for me that I don't really have any good advice. Besides, why would you take it from someone it obviously hasn't worked for?


    music and computers are my refuge, and writing... it's amazing, but I've found that once you're able to get your emotions out on paper, you can at least understand them and have a better chance of dealing with them. hope that helps.

  2. Thanks everyone for your replies. You don't know what a relief it was to post and how much your nice comments mean to me.. actually maybe you do.

    I know that it's time to stop feeling sorry for myself. A lot of people have it a lot worse, etc., and I know I have a lot of other things to offer, but it's like a don't even know how to get started you know?

    I guess I'm lucky in that my facial acne hasn't been as bad as my bacne, but it's a small comfort. It always comes back to: how do you love someone else when you can't even accept yourself? I've had this problem for so long that I feel like some monster..

    Another question: is 25 too old for accutane? I've heard a lot of good things about it (and bad) from people on this board and maybe I need to go that route. I've never been to a derm in my life (too embarrassed) and wouldn't even know where to begin.

  3. This is my first post although I’ve been reading the boards so long that I already feel like I know you guys. Where to begin…? I’ve allowed acne to pretty much destroy my life and any chance of having a happy, fulfilled relationship. I’m 25 and have had acne ever since I was 14. I withdrew from life and never let anyone get close to me, and now I’m worried what will become of me… I feel like a shmuck, coming to these boards for solace and then my first post being so depressing, but I feel like people will at least understand how I feel. Half time I don’t want to even get out of bed in the morning. I just lay there for a good 30 minutes thinking the world might be better off if I just didn’t get out of bed at all. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m so depressed and alone. It’s like I’ve lived in this self-imposed exile and I don’t know how to break out of it. I feel like my youth has passed me by, and I’ve lost any chance of getting out and doing the things normal people do. I just can’t connect. I know that acne isn’t my only problem, but it’s definitely a big part of it and tied in to how I think about myself. I don’t know, I guess I was just looking for some help or advice from anyone else going through the same thing.. I see happy people everyday and wonder, why can’t I be like that?

    p.s. sorry for such a depressing post, usually I’m someone who tries to pick up other people who are feeling down. I just have no one to do it for me…