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  1. hey man i have been reading your recent posts and have noticed you are much more positive now in days and im very happy for you! you probably dont remember me or know me, matter of fact we never corresponded on this message board but i remember you and it seems you are in a better place now in days which is awesome.

    sorry i dont have much to add to this topic but this is a great thread idea.


  2. There is only one person I have ever seen with acne scars who I felt "sorry" for because his scars were more severe than mine. His entire face was cratered up but guess what that dude was happy. He smiled, laughed, had friends and volunteered with after school programs with kids. I never saw him with a girl (figures) but he seemed happy and I felt good around him. He was a good dude.

    Usually when I see others with scars I see how handsome/pretty they are despite it. Even besides scars if someone is fat or anything else that is considered unattractive I seriously dont give a fuck.

    However when I see myself in the mirror I feel hatred, anger, sorrow, despair and its eating at my brain every fucking day. I scrutinize myself too but for good reason.

    Stella compared to me you are perfect. This might sound weird but I wish I was you. I dont even go to book stores because I hate myself.


  3. Most guys dont care about stupid flaws I have seen plenty of girls with acne get married, have kids go on dates and live normal happy lives. Men are attracted to women naturally and its not that complicated on our end. Most of us are dying for the attention of a female and that dude you like should feel lucky you are into him.

    Approach him first if you haven't already. Not all guys have the "confidence" to approach a girl.


  4. I grew up in a small town with 1,500 people and lived out in the out skirts of that small town and there were plenty of assholes there. I went to high school in that small town and was tormented and bullied on a daily basis. People are people no matter where you go and you will meet all kinds. On the flip side I met some cool people too that accepted me for me.

    I personally want to move to outer space or some shit. This world isn't for me.


  5. Your story is much like mine.

    I already got the scars and the acne wouldn't stop by the time I was 18. I broke down many times and "ran away" from every social environment I could. In college, I would be the loser staying inside my room on weekends while everyone else hung out.

    Depressed, angry, and everything in between.

    Why did everyone else have perfect skin while my face was a good platform for playing "connect the dots"?

    --

    Here's what turned it around.

    First truth I learned: Life ain't fair. Some people are ugly.

    What was I going to do about it? Grieve in my room for the rest of my life?

    So my skin broke out (again). Why did this happen?

    In the end I found out I needed a radical diet change. What I eat everyday is highly unappetizing, but within 2 years, my acne almost disappeared.

    Next thing I learned, my friends don't care. They all have flawless skin, yet they accept me for whatever my circumstances are. In fact, they're very supportive. Your friends don't need to understand what you're going through, however they will accept you as you are. In the same way, I won't pretend to know the hardships a friend is going through, however I'll be there for them.

    Keep your head up smile.png

    Good post. You just have to be realistic about it and try to accept it. I have to admit it is so hard and I struggle getting through the day every single day.

    People are nice to me, invite me to go places and treat me normally all the time and I should be grateful and you should too. There are many great people that just don't care about what you look like and actually want to get to know you. I have a habit of pushing people away who try to get too close all because of self hate.

    I too wasted the majority of my 20's away and I live with the regret. So many wasted opportunities that I had and I threw them all away because of my acne and being so depressed.

    Now that I am older and due to not having a social circle anymore there aren't many opportunities for me to be social anymore. I destroyed my life and let acne beat me. Please don't be like me. Accept the people around you who love you.


  6. So, GUNNKE, let's move with us into our farm!

    We will make puppies vomit and cry. It will be funny, you'll see.

    The way I`m going right now Mandarine, I will definitely be moving into a farm if this carries on - but not the sort with animals.

    Still really depressed with my skin. I have broken out all over the right side of my neck, jawline and sideburn area and it appears to be spreading to the left side as well now. Even noticed a couple of spots behind my ears - how did that happen?

    I really do not know what to do about CBT. The theory behind CBT is to do things to challenge the negative thoughts and perceptions about yourself. I have tried to follow to the letter exercises and tasks that I have agreed with my therapist. I have cut down looking in the mirror to 2-3 times max per day and I have also deliberately been putting myself into social situations where my blemishes and perceived imperfections are on display in order that I can gauge the reaction of others.

    The experiments have been going really well. I do know that people are really not that concerned or do not notice your perceived acne/flaws. Also avoiding the mirror does help you not to obsess or focus as much on your appearance.

    The problem is that unfortunately for me, I still have a tendency to breakout now and again and when this happens, no amount of positive thinking can break the downward cycle that I descend into where I just think that I am a vile, repulsive monster.

    Last night I had a complete meltdown - it just feels that I am never ever just going to have what I consider relatively normal skin and if I`m honest, if this is how it is going to be forever more, I don`t think I can take it any longer. The alternative is to just hide away and become a recluse but I`ve been there and done that and it is no way to live.

    >>>>>

    I'm falling into a downwards spiral... My acne is not improving dramatically, but it's not terrible at the moment. The thing is that I'm gradually becoming more and more depressed.. Is it Diane or Androcur cause it, I don't know...

    Two days ago something got into me and I overdosed some Atarax pills. I read it causes severe drowsiness and all I wanted to do was sleep for a long long time. So I took about 15 pills at once and went to bed. Woke up short of breath and needed an ambulance in the middle of the night. It was terrifying, I thought I'll suffocate and die.

    Today I'm feeling as low as ever. I know i need to end taking the pills but I wanted to at least get some results from it...

    That's really scary. sad.png Can you stop taking the BC pills? They always made me worse, both with acne and with depression.

    It finally seems to show some results on my acne. Very slight, but noticeable for me. But the depression is getting the best of me... I have mindlessly stared at a tv screen today from 10 o'clock until now (almost 17) and cried until my eyes got dry. For no particular reason. And my mouth is still dry, head still hurting after the Atarax overdose, how stupid... We had some really nice atmosphere with my bf few days ago, now he's cold and shocked over how sudden my mood took a turn.

    I guess bcp itself wasn't the cause this time, because i didn't have such side effects during the first 3 months, but this time I added Androcur which represses androgens and can easily cause severe depression. I guess that's what has happened...

    I feel that I am also descending into a depression - I am not at work today and I have just sat at home all day today not able to read, watch TV or do anything, everything seems pointless right now. I do know that no matter how crap I feel, I`m going to have to do something tomorrow to break this cycle otherwise I am just going to descend deeper and deeper. Luckily (or not) for me my parents are visiting from the North of England (Lincolnshire) tomorrow so maybe it might just be the impetus I need to sort myself out - we`ll see.

    I hope things sort out for you soon Pianina - if it means dropping Diane or Androcur for the time being then so be it.In the great scheme of things, depression is a more serious and debillitating condition than acne.

    I recently managed to get a course of CBT booked on the NHS, which I'll be starting next week. I got to the point where I didn't think I could handle it on my own anymore. But the thing is, it sounds like I already do all the 'tasks' they set you. I only look in the mirror once or twice a day, I expose myself to social situations, I try and speak positively to myself - but none of it's working at all.

    Even if I limit mirror-time, I can still feel how spotty, greasy, itchy and dry my skin is. Going into social situations doesn't help much, as people will tell me I'm fine or that they don't notice anything wrong and yet how many women have been interested in me in the last ten years? None. That tells me all I need to know; the rest is platitude. Positive self-talk feels futile, as it's constantly up against a tide of negative, nasty comments about people like me (ugly, single, introverted, shy, overeducated) from the media and society in general.

    Then again, CBT might be the only, faint, hope I have left.

    I wouldn`t totally dismiss CBT - it is not working for me but that could be down to a variety of reasons. It may be just the thing for you so good luck!

    I am just like you - people tell me I am fine and I know that they are lying or just being nice. For example, saw my parents and other members of my family today and they all said that I looked well. To prove that they are all lying, I have posted a photo of the state of the right side of my neck/face.

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    I defy anyone to tell me that I haven`t got a fucking problem and it is all in my head after they have seen that photo!!!

    Hey Gunnke are you on meds or ever been on meds and if so would you recommend it? If I do decide to take the plunge and take meds would I have to take them for the rest of my life just to feel normal?

    CBT sounds like bullshit to be honest from what I've read. There isn't anything some doctor can say that will make us feel any better, but meds might work. I just don't want to become dependent on them I just want to get through this rough time that I'm having and give a fuck about working out and taking care of myself again.

    By the way yea I see what you have on your neck and I'm probably saying this because I was 100 times worse than you but it doesn't look like a big deal to me. But I do understand how you can be self conscious about it, trust me I know all about being self conscious. Imagine what you have on your neck all over your jawline, temple and cheeks and thats what I had in my 20's. I have the scars to prove it and it messes with me everyday.


  7. I saw myself on video today, and I'm completely clear, but... I look so awkward and ugly. I feel like no one could ever find me physically attractive. I never thought I was unattractive when I talked and moved and laughed. But, I am... My front teeth are different lengths, my eyes get all squinty, my smile is too big, and my face stretches weirdly when I talk/smile :*(

    I got a 36 on my MCAT though!!! And I thought I did awfully! A 36 with my GPA and extensive shadowing, volunteering, and campus involvement (I didn't do it for the resume, though. I've filled my life with my passions, and hopefully, it will show...) is good enough to get an interview in any medical school in the country!

    story of my life. i remember the first time i saw myself on video, I felt like I was seeing a creature from another planet. I can't compare myself to other human beings because I feel so inferior and when people treat me nicely I am reluctant to accept their kindness and I feel like they have ulterior motives. I don't know what my point is but your post struck a nerve. At least you are smart you have that going for you.


  8. the responses are actually pretty nice. were you expecting people to say that acne makes people beautiful? if acne wasn't a big deal this website wouldn't exist and we wouldn't bother posting here because our lives would be awesome.

    i still say people with good facial aesthetics shouldn't worry too much about acne like most people on that website were saying. op is a pretty girl and every person i see on here posting their pics are good looking even with acne. you guys are so lucky.


  9. Interesting, I have a different situation than you guys. When I appear in public places, people don't stare at me, but instead, they don't look at me, they ignore me, they avoid eye contact, they look away when I move past them, because I'm so ugly. This has done me a lot of damage on my self esteem. I feel less worthy, not accepted, lonely.

    I think there is nothing wrong if someone is staring at your son. If they're staring at him, let them stare, let them mind their own business, just move past those people that are not worthy of your/his attention. If a girl is staring at your son, perhaps she even likes him. wink.png

    What you should be aware of is that if you son is being ignored by his friends at school because the ignorance ruins people relationship easily. wink.png

    You're worried because you don't get attention by others? My problem is that i get too much attention by others but because of all the wrong reasons! And believe me,getting no attention is far better than getting "wrong" attention. wink.png

    Yes, I get like zero attention and I mean it really ZERO. I don't agree with you. I'll give you an example. You see a hot girl across the street. She is staring at you, because she wants you to notice her and because you like her. In my case, when she notices and sees me, she'll look away all the way until I'm past her when I'm crossing the street. I guess you look somehow cool and other people feel this. wink.png

    with me its one of the two extremes either someone is staring at me (usually a dude) or I get completely ignored (usually females)

    the worst for me is like passing someone by in an empty hallway and when I come withing 10 feet of the person they look away, look down or pretend they are reading something on their cell phone. Or if I say "hello" and I get ignored. I feel like raging.

    and like today at a mcdonalds drive thru some fat chick at the window (not to be mean but whatever) asked me what kind of sauce I want with my nuggets and when I looked at her she quickly looks away with this expressionless face and when she gave me my order she didnt even say shit or look at me. i have developed such a complex that I don't know how to take things anymore. did she see my scars? am I that f*cking repulsive? shes no prize either! i felt like throwing my nuggets in her face stupid b*tch. heh

    /rant

    That's exactly what I was talking about, mate. biggrin.png Finally, I see that I'm not the only one with these problems. This is actually a reason, why I hate crowded areas or bigger crowded cities. If I go f.g. shopping, I'm humiliated not only once, but dozens time per day and that's what nobody deserves! It is just unfair to me. Sometimes I question myself, why do I have these problems? What have I done wrong in this life that I'm having such problems. I'm not talented for nothing, I'm not good in sports which I love, btw., I'm not good at faculty. So basically, I don't have a thing to compensate these acne. How do u compensate it?

    you and I are like the same person, which sucks for you! lol I ask myself those same questions because I really am a good guy. I know total jerks who get more respect than I do. I have gone through different personalities in my life to try to find myself and compensate for having acne/scars and honestly I had the most luck with girls being the outspoken "I don't give a f*ck" guy but its a hard persona to keep up especially when its 100% fake. and I attracted psycho chicks. so if I die tomorrow at least I could say I got laid which to most dudes is no big deal. and believe me I'm ugly as hell its not like I'm bragging at all i'd trade my life away to be someone else in a heartbeat.

    i'm not good at anything either, im not smart, talented, i suck at sports too, I cant really fight and usually get my ass kicked when I tried to defend myself in the past ( i love martial arts) , and i think way too much which makes me talk slowly because Im just not witty.

    i dont know how to compensate anymore I ran out of personalities to test out. so now in days I'm just myself which is pretty much quiet guy who doesn't want to be bothered. im 31 now but feel like im 60 something on the verge of having a stroke because i stress myself out way too much.

    I do (allegedly) smoke tho it makes me forget how lonely I am and I can enjoy a movie or video game. I dont recommend you do that tho heh.

    keep in touch you seem like a cool dude. peace.

    Yeah, I feel you, mate, I feel you. We have a lot of things in common as I can see hehe smile.png But unlike you I can't change my personality completly. I mean, at the start of a new conversation with a new person I'm very reserved, shy, nervous, but when I relax I can be very talkative aswell. I can listen to other people and I put myself in their situation, I'm very tolerant, but you know, girls don't like that. Girls like some "bad" boys, which I'm not, and I can't pretend to be a bad boy if I'm not. You know how they say: the worse a man treats a woman, more she loves him. I can't be like that. I'm not that kind of a person and that's the reason I'm not interesting to the females, you see? It's written in their subconscious mind allthough they will never admit it.

    hey reading our conversation again I realized you were asking for advice and all I did was ramble about myself. sorry about that. I honestly don't know how to help you because like I mentioned before you and I are very similar. I am here if you want to talk tho bro. feel free to message me if you like. peace.


  10. Interesting, I have a different situation than you guys. When I appear in public places, people don't stare at me, but instead, they don't look at me, they ignore me, they avoid eye contact, they look away when I move past them, because I'm so ugly. This has done me a lot of damage on my self esteem. I feel less worthy, not accepted, lonely.

    I think there is nothing wrong if someone is staring at your son. If they're staring at him, let them stare, let them mind their own business, just move past those people that are not worthy of your/his attention. If a girl is staring at your son, perhaps she even likes him. wink.png

    What you should be aware of is that if you son is being ignored by his friends at school because the ignorance ruins people relationship easily. wink.png

    You're worried because you don't get attention by others? My problem is that i get too much attention by others but because of all the wrong reasons! And believe me,getting no attention is far better than getting "wrong" attention. wink.png

    Yes, I get like zero attention and I mean it really ZERO. I don't agree with you. I'll give you an example. You see a hot girl across the street. She is staring at you, because she wants you to notice her and because you like her. In my case, when she notices and sees me, she'll look away all the way until I'm past her when I'm crossing the street. I guess you look somehow cool and other people feel this. wink.png

    with me its one of the two extremes either someone is staring at me (usually a dude) or I get completely ignored (usually females)

    the worst for me is like passing someone by in an empty hallway and when I come withing 10 feet of the person they look away, look down or pretend they are reading something on their cell phone. Or if I say "hello" and I get ignored. I feel like raging.

    and like today at a mcdonalds drive thru some fat chick at the window (not to be mean but whatever) asked me what kind of sauce I want with my nuggets and when I looked at her she quickly looks away with this expressionless face and when she gave me my order she didnt even say shit or look at me. i have developed such a complex that I don't know how to take things anymore. did she see my scars? am I that f*cking repulsive? shes no prize either! i felt like throwing my nuggets in her face stupid b*tch. heh

    /rant

    That's exactly what I was talking about, mate. biggrin.png Finally, I see that I'm not the only one with these problems. This is actually a reason, why I hate crowded areas or bigger crowded cities. If I go f.g. shopping, I'm humiliated not only once, but dozens time per day and that's what nobody deserves! It is just unfair to me. Sometimes I question myself, why do I have these problems? What have I done wrong in this life that I'm having such problems. I'm not talented for nothing, I'm not good in sports which I love, btw., I'm not good at faculty. So basically, I don't have a thing to compensate these acne. How do u compensate it?

    you and I are like the same person, which sucks for you! lol I ask myself those same questions because I really am a good guy. I know total jerks who get more respect than I do. I have gone through different personalities in my life to try to find myself and compensate for having acne/scars and honestly I had the most luck with girls being the outspoken "I don't give a f*ck" guy but its a hard persona to keep up especially when its 100% fake. and I attracted psycho chicks. so if I die tomorrow at least I could say I got laid which to most dudes is no big deal. and believe me I'm ugly as hell its not like I'm bragging at all i'd trade my life away to be someone else in a heartbeat.

    i'm not good at anything either, im not smart, talented, i suck at sports too, I cant really fight and usually get my ass kicked when I tried to defend myself in the past ( i love martial arts) , and i think way too much which makes me talk slowly because Im just not witty.

    i dont know how to compensate anymore I ran out of personalities to test out. so now in days I'm just myself which is pretty much quiet guy who doesn't want to be bothered. im 31 now but feel like im 60 something on the verge of having a stroke because i stress myself out way too much.

    I do (allegedly) smoke tho it makes me forget how lonely I am and I can enjoy a movie or video game. I dont recommend you do that tho heh.

    keep in touch you seem like a cool dude. peace.

    Yeah, I feel you, mate, I feel you. We have a lot of things in common as I can see hehe smile.png But unlike you I can't change my personality completly. I mean, at the start of a new conversation with a new person I'm very reserved, shy, nervous, but when I relax I can be very talkative aswell. I can listen to other people and I put myself in their situation, I'm very tolerant, but you know, girls don't like that. Girls like some "bad" boys, why I'm not, and I can't pretend to be a bad boy if I'm not. You know how they say: the worse a man threats a woman, more she loves him. I can't be like that. I'm not that kind of a person and that's the reason I'm not interesting to the females, you see? It's written in their subconscious mind allthout they will never admit it.

    agree 100% although I have so much hate inside that the whole "bad boy" personality isn't too far from the real me.

    being shy, nervous and reserved as a dude is basically sexual suicide (not sure if that term exsists but you know what I mean I think) . no girl wants that, sucks but its true from what I've learned.

    everyone I work with is married and almost all those dudes have bragged about how they have cheated on their wife. sucks man.

    personally I have to "change personalities" because I have been conditioned to hate myself so my real personality has become quiet and distant. nobody likes that period let alone girls and I do have to function and do stuff like go to work so whenever I smile or have a convo with someone throughout the day its 100% fake.

    i'm sure we'll figure it out bro, hopefully sooner than later!


  11. Interesting, I have a different situation than you guys. When I appear in public places, people don't stare at me, but instead, they don't look at me, they ignore me, they avoid eye contact, they look away when I move past them, because I'm so ugly. This has done me a lot of damage on my self esteem. I feel less worthy, not accepted, lonely.

    I think there is nothing wrong if someone is staring at your son. If they're staring at him, let them stare, let them mind their own business, just move past those people that are not worthy of your/his attention. If a girl is staring at your son, perhaps she even likes him. wink.png

    What you should be aware of is that if you son is being ignored by his friends at school because the ignorance ruins people relationship easily. wink.png

    You're worried because you don't get attention by others? My problem is that i get too much attention by others but because of all the wrong reasons! And believe me,getting no attention is far better than getting "wrong" attention. wink.png

    Yes, I get like zero attention and I mean it really ZERO. I don't agree with you. I'll give you an example. You see a hot girl across the street. She is staring at you, because she wants you to notice her and because you like her. In my case, when she notices and sees me, she'll look away all the way until I'm past her when I'm crossing the street. I guess you look somehow cool and other people feel this. wink.png

    with me its one of the two extremes either someone is staring at me (usually a dude) or I get completely ignored (usually females)

    the worst for me is like passing someone by in an empty hallway and when I come withing 10 feet of the person they look away, look down or pretend they are reading something on their cell phone. Or if I say "hello" and I get ignored. I feel like raging.

    and like today at a mcdonalds drive thru some fat chick at the window (not to be mean but whatever) asked me what kind of sauce I want with my nuggets and when I looked at her she quickly looks away with this expressionless face and when she gave me my order she didnt even say shit or look at me. i have developed such a complex that I don't know how to take things anymore. did she see my scars? am I that f*cking repulsive? shes no prize either! i felt like throwing my nuggets in her face stupid b*tch. heh

    /rant

    That's exactly what I was talking about, mate. biggrin.png Finally, I see that I'm not the only one with these problems. This is actually a reason, why I hate crowded areas or bigger crowded cities. If I go f.g. shopping, I'm humiliated not only once, but dozens time per day and that's what nobody deserves! It is just unfair to me. Sometimes I question myself, why do I have these problems? What have I done wrong in this life that I'm having such problems. I'm not talented for nothing, I'm not good in sports which I love, btw., I'm not good at faculty. So basically, I don't have a thing to compensate these acne. How do u compensate it?

    you and I are like the same person, which sucks for you! lol I ask myself those same questions because I really am a good guy. I know total jerks who get more respect than I do. I have gone through different personalities in my life to try to find myself and compensate for having acne/scars and honestly I had the most luck with girls being the outspoken "I don't give a f*ck" guy but its a hard persona to keep up especially when its 100% fake. and I attracted psycho chicks. so if I die tomorrow at least I could say I got laid which to most dudes is no big deal. and believe me I'm ugly as hell its not like I'm bragging at all i'd trade my life away to be someone else in a heartbeat.

    i'm not good at anything either, im not smart, talented, i suck at sports too, I cant really fight and usually get my ass kicked when I tried to defend myself in the past ( i love martial arts) , and i think way too much which makes me talk slowly because Im just not witty.

    i dont know how to compensate anymore I ran out of personalities to test out. so now in days I'm just myself which is pretty much quiet guy who doesn't want to be bothered. im 31 now but feel like im 60 something on the verge of having a stroke because i stress myself out way too much.

    I do (allegedly) smoke tho it makes me forget how lonely I am and I can enjoy a movie or video game. I dont recommend you do that tho heh.

    keep in touch you seem like a cool dude. peace.


  12. @CVD you are right about the PTSD thing. I have become so overly sensitive and defensive throughout the years. Whenever I feel really down I do think of others that have it worse. At least I can walk and talk and am not bound to a wheelchair etc. When I see others less fortunate than me it is definitely a reality check. Although I do admit it doesn't make me feel better about myself. I feel so selfish sometimes ya know? like this person is on a wheel chair and I'm over here worrying about these scars on my face. my brain is a mess.

    Who knows why God gives us certain challenges in life? I heard once that we choose our lives in heaven before we're born, knowing full well what our lives will be like.


  13. Interesting, I have a different situation than you guys. When I appear in public places, people don't stare at me, but instead, they don't look at me, they ignore me, they avoid eye contact, they look away when I move past them, because I'm so ugly. This has done me a lot of damage on my self esteem. I feel less worthy, not accepted, lonely.

    I think there is nothing wrong if someone is staring at your son. If they're staring at him, let them stare, let them mind their own business, just move past those people that are not worthy of your/his attention. If a girl is staring at your son, perhaps she even likes him. wink.png

    What you should be aware of is that if you son is being ignored by his friends at school because the ignorance ruins people relationship easily. wink.png

    You're worried because you don't get attention by others? My problem is that i get too much attention by others but because of all the wrong reasons! And believe me,getting no attention is far better than getting "wrong" attention. wink.png

    Yes, I get like zero attention and I mean it really ZERO. I don't agree with you. I'll give you an example. You see a hot girl across the street. She is staring at you, because she wants you to notice her and because you like her. In my case, when she notices and sees me, she'll look away all the way until I'm past her when I'm crossing the street. I guess you look somehow cool and other people feel this. wink.png

    with me its one of the two extremes either someone is staring at me (usually a dude) or I get completely ignored (usually females)

    the worst for me is like passing someone by in an empty hallway and when I come withing 10 feet of the person they look away, look down or pretend they are reading something on their cell phone. Or if I say "hello" and I get ignored. I feel like raging.

    and like today at a mcdonalds drive thru some fat chick at the window (not to be mean but whatever) asked me what kind of sauce I want with my nuggets and when I looked at her she quickly looks away with this expressionless face and when she gave me my order she didnt even say shit or look at me. i have developed such a complex that I don't know how to take things anymore. did she see my scars? am I that f*cking repulsive? shes no prize either! i felt like throwing my nuggets in her face stupid b*tch. heh

    /rant


  14. being told to kill yourself because you are so ugly isn't just my twisted perception of the world. it actually physically happened to me. a person actually felt like they had the right to tell me that for whatever reason. as if i wasn't human or worthy of anything but death. many other people have said similar things like that in different variations and again it wasn't me having a negative perception of the world. it actually happened. i have also had to get into physical confrontations with people just to keep some sort of self worth and pride. it is all very tiring.

    reading other peoples posts and stories here I would have to only assume things aren't better in other peoples neighborhoods. i guess it is basically human nature. it is unfair to some of us. some of you can still skate by in life and be positive which is awesome. good for you! but please excuse us if some of us get angry.

    (((hugs))) Frank*L sad.png

    It makes me so sad to hear what you and so many of us have had to put up with from nasty people just because we have a skin condition.

    you're an awesome person ibiza thanks for the love! its all good

    A kid once told me that he'd like to step on my face because it reminded him of the moon.He wanted to be another Neil Armstrong! HAHA

    you should of punched dude in the face for making an empty threat and for being a sh*ty comedian.


  15. @deja being a dirty hippy myself I haven't even shot a gun before but I always wanted to blow some shit up. here in texas pretty much everyone owns a gun. i'm sure its an awesome feeling dumping that clip out I need to let out some frustrations.

    You can be happy that you don't have acne/red marks on your chest or shoulders. wink.png I have both of them and I can say that it is very unpleasant experience. Especially during the summer and while I'm on the seaside, everyone is starring at me, like I'm an alien.

    yea man now that my face is kinda cleared up I'm getting some bacne again which I haven't had in a long ass time. wtf I can't win! I refuse to go outside without a shirt my body is devoid of any color its pretty pathetic lol.


  16. well, from the looks of your pictures, you don't have it as worse as other members here so that might be a reason.

    I still think that we should spread a positive vibe though but others are just going through much harder time.

    Just my 2 cents biggrin.png

    Please please give motivation and spread positive vibes because WE NEED IT!

    yea he obviously is a good looking dude with the confidence to post shirtless pics of himself but has the nerve to tell others who are going through much tougher times than him to stop being so negative. some of us are suffering beyond belief. acne is much physical as it is mental.

    sure this board doesnt have to be all negative, hell this post is very negative but I also try to support others and be positive as well. its give and take. we are all trying to support each other, some of us just choose to be negative at all times which is also cool. who are you to tell them not to be? you dont know what they are going through!


  17. being told to kill yourself because you are so ugly isn't just my twisted perception of the world. it actually physically happened to me. a person actually felt like they had the right to tell me that for whatever reason. as if i wasn't human or worthy of anything but death. many other people have said similar things like that in different variations and again it wasn't me having a negative perception of the world. it actually happened. i have also had to get into physical confrontations with people just to keep some sort of self worth and pride. it is all very tiring.

    reading other peoples posts and stories here I would have to only assume things aren't better in other peoples neighborhoods. i guess it is basically human nature. it is unfair to some of us. some of you can still skate by in life and be positive which is awesome. good for you! but please excuse us if some of us get angry.


  18. I kinda wanna quit my job now because I'm so embarrased sad.png

    no don't do that. the last thing you want to do is to be dependent on others for your own well being. you need money trust me.

    I totally understand not wanting to face your co workers/customers due to shame and embarrassment. I'm 31 and I've been struggling with that feeling since I was 18 when I got my first job. I know its hard but you have to provide for yourself some how. Locking yourself in your room in your parents house ( I assume you live at home if not I'm sorry) is not the answer. You just have to tough it out and be strong.

    coworkers have always commented on my shitty complexion and have many times due to their blatantly rude comments have driven me to the verge of suicide. as a matter of fact currently I am not in the best state of mind either but every morning I go to work and do what I got to do to provide for myself. It is a giant burden I know but it is something you must do!

    look reality is your acne may or might not go away anytime soon. you don't know for sure. the only thing you can do is continue to treat it and be aware of the problem and try to fix it. until you are satisfied you just have to be optimistic and not dwell in your own negativity no matter how others treat you.

    sure its easier said than done, I'm still trying to figure out how to do that myself. maybe one day we will figure it out and if you figure it out before I do please let me know. i want to know how to be happy.

    difference between you and me is that you are actually attractive underneath it all. you have good facial aesthetics. reality is you can never be everything to everyone. I dont think there is a single person alive that is 100% universally attractive to everyone. For example sitting around with a bunch of dudes bullshitting watching tv and there can be a obviously beautiful celeb on tv and one guy will say shes hot and ther other will say how she isn't their type.

    you implied guys i guess ignore you beacuse of your skin or whatever well guys are full of shit and are idiots, trust me I'm a guy.

    anyways much love and keep posting on here if you feel compelled. and again dont quit your job! totally stupid move if you do!

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