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Everything posted by hotburrito

  1. ^Really? I think the OP looks a lot better! The improvement looks slow but sure. On that note, congratulations OP on the improvement, and thank you for sharing with us here
  2. Oh no, not you too! Jk jk. Like you said, all in good fun. I'm jealous of pure hourglass shapes - I'm like an hourglass/apple hybrid. My measurements are hourglass but I'm probably naturally an apple, and I lack that gorgeous dramatic dip in the waist that all natural hourglasses have. What shape are you anyway?
  3. Well there's your problem. I'm pretty much flat-chested, so I don't have that issue! I sometimes feel crap about not having bigger boobs but then I figure it's easier for me to run anyway. There are definite upsides and downsides to having big boobs. I personally wish I were a C cup - I feel like that would be the perfect size, not too big and not too flat. Aside from the whole running issue, my boobs require me to go up three goddamn sizes in shirts/dresses, which means that half of what I w
  4. Aw, I used to love walking. I lived downtown for four years without a car, so I used to walk everywhere but that never felt like exercise to me. On the other hand, I have fairly big boobs (for an Asian girl, at least), so running is always a big hassle for me!
  5. Two years of my life. I'm basically suffering more by living over not living these days, I think, and my misery is bound to last at least another year and a half given the amount of time it'll take for my Accutane course to complete/the sixth months I have to wait to start scar treatments/the scar treatments. I'd rather just not live two years of my life at all than live two years with all this misery-inducing acne.
  6. Bleh, yeah, that does make sense. Scarring > active cystic acne all over your face, that's for sure. I'm just struggling especially because I was used to nearly flawless skin for so long. I think I have to learn to accept that I'm never going to look like my old self again. Good on you for running every day! I've never been very good at keeping a fitness schedule, so I envy people who can do physical activity regularly. Congrats once again on such fantastic improvement. You must be feeling pr
  7. ...okay, Day 6 of my hiatus (well, technically, since it's past 12 AM here) now. I don't even know why I'm posting right - my skin hasn't shown any changes since my last post from, er, about 10 or so hours ago. I guess I'm just wondering how the gallery on Acne.org works - are the images restricted to members' eyes only? Is there a way to lock them down somehow? I think it's hard to have a good log without pictures so I'm trying to post mine, but I'd prefer to make them somewhat less public if o
  8. Thank you! I do have a fair bit of shallow scarring that doesn't get picked up in the crap light of my bedroom, but it's fairly superficial (at the right angles it looks deeper, but only because I'm a fusspot about it). My chin is pretty scarred (you can sort of vaguely make it out in the photo) and I can feel it when I run my fingers over it, but honestly, I don't really care. I'm on a really low dosage so that might explain the lack of side effects - my derm decided that a longer course at a
  9. Holy crap, you look amazing!!! I am so jealous that this drug has worked for you so well, so quickly, and without all the icky side effects. It is really awesome that you didn't even end up with any scarring.
  10. What the hell? That is really alarming. Can you contact Google about this by any chance? Tell them you'll raise a media ruckus if they refuse to rectify the situation? I was actually looking at your log a few days ago and forgot to comment, but I wanted to chime in about the improvement and say that it seemed like you were getting a lot better lately Hopefully you get the Google Images issues sorted out soon though, ugh.
  11. Argh, this box ate my comment Basically, I just wanted to chime in and say your scars (even at their "worst") aren't very noticeable at all! If we're assuming that your scars really do look in real life at least like the ones in your "worst" pictures, then I'm guessing you probably don't have to go through any big laser treatments and fork over thousands of dollars in cash. I'm not well-versed at all in scar procedures though, so I'll just wish you the best of luck. I have fairly shallow sc
  12. I'm admittedly not very familiar with self-help literature so I have little idea how much of self-help lit actually does read like spiritual philosophy (I can believe it though) and universal mathematics (that one... not so much). I would agree that the influence of the ancients on virtually any aspect of the modern world is undeniable - I just thought it was odd that you would point to these ancients as the source of contemporary self-help literature inspiration rather than, say, Abraham Maslow
  13. Thank you for sharing as well! Your scars look a LOT better
  14. What about the fact that many readers of the self-help genre cannot for the life of them understand major Western philosophical works written between 600-200 B.C.? Aside from the oddly narrow time period you've carved out here (I have no idea why you've basically limited your selection to the Ancient Greeks), major Western philosophical works are goddamn hard to understand - not only because of their archaic language, but because philosophy - properly done philosophy - is generally a giant mindf
  15. The coming Tuesday, if all goes to plan. The quote isn't necessarily about that, at least not within the context of the book (which is about biopolitics), though you could certainly try to interpret it that way. As for the definition of "self-esteem," I'd probably suggest that your reading of it sounds more like "self-concept," at least to me. "Self-concept" can account for both high and low appraisals of one's own value, while "self-esteem" strongly implies that the esteem in question is reason
  16. This is a nice post. When I first developed acne, I found that avoiding mirrors at all costs was a pretty effective way of not feeling massive amounts of self-loathing 24/7. I'm probably the worst person to give this type of advice (plus I feel like a hypocrite for saying this because I definitely don't always stick to my own rules), but I've found that one thing that has helped me deal with acne better is just trying to get over my vanity best I can. In a way, knowing and accepting that I'm
  17. This is definitely true for me as well. I don't think it's true for all people (and I really envy the people who can rise past all the insecurity), mind you, but even though I understand that I'm being incredibly irrational in feeling so self-conscious over my skin when other people really do "have worse problems" and all that, the mere recognition of irrationality does not beget any actual change of feeling. It's kind of funny. I used to be one of those people who would get totally ballisti
  18. Good luck! I can't imagine what it must be like to take Accutane at 14. It's a hell of a drug - I'm 22 and I'm not dealing with its effects very well at all. My personal advice is not to lose hope and to check the "success stories" thread for inspiration/motivation. Some of the transformations there are just breathtaking (and so, so reassuring).
  19. Thanks for the comment, yeah it's great to have it back haha. I had some scars from zits when I popped them but they're gone now. I got scars from cysts that grew on my nose but that has been fading drastically too. I found that tea tree oil helps to reduce scars a lot because it makes you shed skin like crazy which mean your body is consistently regenerating with newer skin which helps reduce the marks/scar. Moisturizing helps a lot too, tea tree oil at night and moisturizing in day are the bes
  20. Ugh, I am so sorry to hear that. I'm currently on a week-long Accutane hiatus because my higher dosage triggered my depression in a really huge way, so the Accutane might be the culprit here for you as well? It's worth talking to your derma about at least. Now that I'm into the fourth day of my hiatus, I'm actually quite shocked at just how much more clear-headed I feel. Still depressed, but no longer as irrationally devastated. Either way, I hope you feel better soon.
  21. Chiming in with all the analogy love. This log (your sense of humour, not the situation itself) is very entertaining! Good luck with your treatment
  22. I wish I could find a proper, non-sped-up version of this on Youtube, but the acoustic version of Florence + The Machine's "Shake It Out" is so gorgeous and so appropriate.
  23. Congrats on being clear! Side effects aside, it must be feel great to have your skin back. Do you mind if I ask if you have any scarring and red/dark marks?
  24. Maybe you should talk to your derma if you still don't see results within another week? I'm about 130 lbs (so medium build) and 40mg was my initial dosage as well - it worked very quickly (my lips were dry within a day). Though of course everybody's internal systems work differently (I'm one of those people who react very strongly to any type of medication, which is both a good and a bad thing), I daresay I would've seen considerably milder results on, say, 10mg.
  25. I can't say that I'm not angry about my acne at all. I am, but it's not a very visceral type of anger - just a very strong bitterness over the fact that I'm going to lose so much of myself (both physically and psychologically) to this condition. Agreed that sadness is very lonely/isolating/withdrawal-inducing. I'm not sure whether I'd rather be more sad or more angry, honestly. Anger can be a fairly productive emotion insofar as it sometimes motivates a person to take action, but as you pointed