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  1. ok here we go, sorry for the long OP. but please read all of it before pressing that 'post' button Now this thread is actually about the ‘yellowing of the eyes’. But just for the hell of it I will also note: Dizziness / unsteadiness: not often, but once in a while I will wake up in the morning and have pretty poor balance when getting out of bed, and will take me a few minutes to stabilize. This is not normal. It worries me sometimes but has passed before I’ve had time to worry to the point to do anything about it. So it doesn’t really fuss me too much Drowsiness: on occasion, but I don’t know if I could put it down to the antibiotics. So I’m not fussed about that Increased sensitivity to sunlight: this was the first symptom I got years ago, the optition thought I might have brain damage until he realized that yes my pupils do close, but very slowly, so I cant look at even medium light sources without squinting. Tok a while to figure out it was from the antibiotics. Answer is; sunglasses. So I’m not fussed about that Blue-gray skin or teeth: yes my skin is blue-gray as I don’t see a lot of sunshine, don’t tan easily (shouldn’t anyway), I often look like a zombie. Teeth discoloration yes, and rivets in the teeth at the back. This was remedied by tooth whitening and laser tooth whitening so I’m not fussed about that. Mental changes / depersonalization: yes depersonalization is something I experience, but being british I ignore that nonsense and just get on with it. Its probably something made up by some American psychiatrist, just more excuses for people to misbehave and not get on with life. Always looking for justifications and excuses, depersonalization might be a good one. I probably have it (whatever ‘it’ really is, no one really knows), but don’t blame the pills, it is something that one can control if you work really hard at it, and learn to know when you are having a bout of not being yourself, and stop before you say and or do anything not becoming of yourself, especially regarding loved ones or at work. Could I say my wife and I got divorced because of my depersonalization? That’s a bit of a cop out. so I semi don’t believe this symptom Now onto the topic at hand… yellowing of the eyes, something which I AM recently concerned about. Lack of sleep, insomnia, all relating to dark lines under the eyes and so forth… but yellowing, THIS is something that is not ‘my’ fault. as you can see in my recent thread here, my eyes look absolutely shocking, like a dead person. http://www.acne.org/messageboard/pics-1-mo...-c-t259319.html in fact dead people look better because 99% of the time we see dead people after they’ve had makeup applied to cover it up. So I look worse than the dead. So... I’ve been researching online and found absolutely nothing about it, or anything which relates to it being a symptom of antibiotics. Only about how its something to do with liver failure etc. I think in my case its purely aesthetic, or am I completely wrong? I’ve been on mino for perhaps 4 years total, 1 year accutain, lots of amoxicillin in between to combat my chest infections, and all through childhood on the stuff as well due to chest infections and my asthma etc. now I’m on doxy Is there a ‘fix’ for yellow eye? Is there medicine to fix it, or would it have to be surgical? Is there a topical solution? Skin whitening solution or something? I’m very curious This is the price we pay to combat our acne. But even with all the above symptoms (not including possible internal damage), I’d still rather have all these problems than have my acne again. So please, links, opinions, suggestions, fears, etc... post them
  2. Its just an observation But in my work I usually work in Asia and the Middle East I've found that people in the middle east or north african / med area have pretty good skin in general. It's rare to see young arabs or turkish or iranians etc with much if any acne. they are usually pretty clean whereas in south east asia, my time in thailand and where i currently am at the moment (indonesia), seems most of the people have some kind of bad skin! i'd put it down to the diet which contains many fried foods, fried foods of which are not really 'clean' (old oil used in the street food etc), they never eat salad. where as the arabs and med people are eating more salads, just bread and grilled meat (yet for some reason, the south east asians regardless of their fried foods, are so small, slim and skinny - where as the arab / med people get pretty fat after they hit 25) what about the climate? middle east / med hot but dry? lots of sun for sure most of the year if not all. south east asia is humid and sweaty - and asians never go outside if they can avoid it (due to their condition to be as white as possible) what are your thoughts? because i'm looking at the people in indonesia and i'm seeing on the whole, much worse skin on average than say in europe or the middle east / central asia etc
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    South East Asia & Acne

    you're probably right. the pollution where I am in Java is terrible. and they often eat on the road side, so the food is polluted, dirty and all deep fried as you say. using very old oil no doubt too ah yes i experienced the same. bangkok is like that often as well. and all the same additives and MSGs added too
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    South East Asia & Acne

    turkey and other med countries will be humid only for 3 months during the summer, and that is only if the location is within x-amount of miles by the sea. so i imagine your experience was being on vacation in turkey, hence being by the sea, and being there in the summer. right now the country is under snow.. not so humid. its dry at all other times of the year and always dry in locations not near the sea (desert and mountainous areas, for example). so you agree then, that your acne is less in the Mediterranean 'home country' locations. your acne is worse in the USA - understood. when i had acne mine was too whenever i visited the US for more than a week. but that was probably due to being on vacation and eating less healthier options most of the time i would be curious if you ate the local foods of SEAsia / china if your acne would be even worse than the US. i'd bet money on it being worse
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    South East Asia & Acne

    so south east asians have more acne that those in the west due to genetics alone? would diet / lack of access to medi / lack of affordability of good products / etc be any factor at all? i see these people in the street eating fried this and that... and so many of these people have a range from a few noticeable blemishes to very severe bumpy acne. honestly if i'd had eaten that stuff in my late teens / early 20's i'd have broken out 2 or 3 times heavier than if i had not, same as if i were to eat KFC for example... it would just cause an absolute nuklear assult on my face. and perhaps it does to them too, but they just don't care / don't know? ....or all in my head? lol although i guess you're saying, that fact i would have broken out at all, regardless of severity in relation to what i just ate is due to my personal genetics ? I just see more in SEA than i do in europe with 'bad' skin i hope this doesnt sound like i'm bashing anyone in asia ! because actually it doesn't bother me. my girl (sometimes gf, sometimes ex-gf, changes with the wind) is thai-chinese and used to have 'terrible' skin, and still does suffer from pretty bad backcne the poor little thing. although tain did curb the effects she still gets it from time to time now. but regardless shes still the hottest girl in the world IMO skin or no skin
  6. Basically, i've been on almost half a dose of how much a full dose of accutain should be (40mg per day) - but i stopped taking it every day about 2 months ago. gradually i started to take it every other day, then every 2 days, and now pretty much every 3 or sometimes 4 days i take 40mg. so i've been using it for a total of 5 months and at my current rate of intake (40mg 2 or 3 times a week) i should have approximately 3 or so months supply left the result is absolutely immaculate skin, never dry or flacky unless i take it more than once every 3 days, never oily and its smooth and a matt finish. i've never looked so good in all my life (i'm 26) i've made many threads on this board, and many replies and all sorts of stuff, from helping people from going nuts to going nuts myself. its been a rollercoaster 12 years suffering with this disease, with ups (when i first went on antibiotics and it worked for 6 months), downs (after taking my first and last course of accutain, acne came back in full swing after 8 months). swings and round abouts really i'm sure i could be helping my internal organs a bit with some kind of supplement i know there are 2 dangers - 1, liver damage. and 2, calcium deposits in the spine. are there any mitigating supplements i can take to reduce this so with my 3 months left of 40mg every 3 days, i will see if i can speak to a private Dr. in the UK and let him know my findings, show him my pics of how severe my acne was and always has been, and let him see how i look now and how HAPPY AND ABSOLUTELY AMAZING MY LIFE IS, EVERY SINGLE DAY - and see if he'll prescribe me as much accutain as i want, because i'm going to let him know that one way or the other, i'm going to be taking this for the next few years and i'm not going to stop no matter what i might decide to come off of it when i'm 30, and see what happens. but the first sign of a pimple or bit of oil, then i'm going straight back on it. i'm happy to live my life on this every day. because the side effects are basically complete happiness and joy. it is the ability to live a normal life for me, i wake up every day in a good mood and i have confidence like you wouldn't imagine. i am so positive and its brought me such positive things, i've had the best 3 months of my entire life and every day gets better if the dr. says no, its un-researched blah blah blah or he doesn't know etc. then i'll try someone else. if that fails, then i'm going to buy it anyway as where i live you buy it over the counter it is perfectly legal. although it is DAMN expensive! but fuck it its worth it sorry to go on, this was actually about the supplementation. i'm sure the side effects will take a pinch somewhere down the line regardless, and maybe i might end up in hospital. its the risk i am willing to take for the happiness i've been longing for 10 years - now i have it i'm not giving it up
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    (ultra) low dose accutane

    geek lol btw, 10mg roughly per week give or take (if i don't forget, which i sometimes do), for the last 4 months. might lower it again and see how we go thus far - perfect skin day or night, i dont even wash my face with any products and my skin looks better for it, eat what i want, do what i want. fucking love it
  8. 'with my dr.' ha! i don't have a dr. i live in different countries as and when, no where particular for more than a year. besides, dr.s have absolutely no idea, including derms. i've probably done more research than any dr. i've ever spoken to. none of them know any more than whats written in the general guide books irregardless, i now take 1 x 20mg pill every 2 weeks aprox. i've been known to take 1 x 20mg after 3 weeks. the longest i have gone is about 3 weeks but the oil starts to come back, so i nip it in the bottom early by taking a tain then we're back on track. my skin is still absolutely perfect, not a single side effect anymore since i've lowered it to this super low level i'm still using the original 4 month supply !! i have 1.5 boxes left at this rate they'll last until the rest of the year. and tain is easy to get hold of in asia should i need any more. but to be honest this will last. and i might even try lowering it to 1 x 20mg every month if i feel that the impact will be non existent / very minimal. my body is adapting very well and i'm happy to go on with this until i die having zero acne is just 1 less thing to worry about in daily life. couldn't ask for more really. i feel like a normal person and now having perfect skin has just become part of my life, although i still appreciate it ive forgotten what it was like to get a pimple or even a blackhead i - love - it
  9. hello bitch x how are you my love? you are 'unable to recieve messages' - what the fucks wrong with you?! :P

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    (ultra) low dose accutane

    I'm not delusional. I just dont give a shit Ultra low dose, 10 years. However long
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    (ultra) low dose accutane

    No you won't. You will develop bone and joint problems (osteoporosis, hyperostosis, spurs, etc.). I'm speaking from personal experience. There are also a number of long-term studies which document this. I agree it feels good to have control over your life, I was your age when I stated Accutane. Beware of the price you'll pay later; the bone thing is not scaremongering, 2/3rds of long term users develop this. I wish I knew at the time. bone problems can be fixed and maybe you just have weak bones, because i'm big boned and stocky and strong, never had a broken bone in my life. i cant imagine it being an issue for me on a personal level and anyway, i'd sooner take some minor bone issues than be living in an existence where i have acne. because that is all it is, an existence. when i get married, if my wife will tolerate it then i might come off the accutain, or take less and do whatever i can to control xyz. but i wouldnt in a million years come off of it now, even if i was guaranteed problems in later life. id rather enjoy the best years of my life right now than live in misery.
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    doxycycline?

    Problem with doxy is not how long it takes to work and clear your skin It's how long it takes when you stop taking it for all your acne to come back
  19. Skin is still perfect I just take it as and when, I don't have a schedule or required amount. If I can feel it coming or see some dodgy looking oil build up, i'll pop a tain (20mg). That'll usually be enough for 5 days of oil free for me, with an unclean diet. It will fix your acne, but won't fix your life This low dose seems to have no visible side effects, but I wonder every now and again if it does still trigger depression. Most of the time it's my own fault as I have nothing to be depressed about that I don't get myself into on purpose - but I wonder if the tain pushes things in the wrong direction But anyway, whatever, its 1 million times better than having acne.
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    Masturbation and Bad Digestion

    my gf would be very unhappy if she didnt get it at least twice a day. so that must mean i'd be fuked if i thought that had anything to do with my skin but good luck though, in all honesty.
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    Masturbation and Bad Digestion

    i dont get this board sometimes. you guys who abstain from masturbating because you think it affects your skin, what are you going to do when you get a gf or wife? never have sex because you think it'll make you break out?
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    (ultra) low dose accutane

    i'm doing the same, been going since oct 2010 but have been experimenting with different levels of dosage. due to the severity of my problem i cannot go less than 40mg per week i have discovered 40mg (2x 20mg, 1 on tueday and 1 on friday, for example). with this i can almost eat what i want (although i prefer not to as i dont want to get fat lol) and remain totally clear. i'm 26 now so i don't know how long i will have to do this for (i have tried lowering the dose and it comes back within 2 weeks if i do that), but i'm guessing its going to be late 30s+ i have no side effects other than occasional dry lips... easily treated i love every day and have had the best 6 months of my life to date, i honestly can't ask for more and dont see how life can get better. i honestly believe it is my clear skin, which in turn has given me the confidence to really be myself and do things i wouldnt previously have done or even could have done. i am not a different person on this low dose accutain, i am who i always was. i wake up every day and feel like i've won the lottery. confident, single, world at my feet, can do anything and go anywhere so yes i will also be on this indefinately
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