not feeling great.

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not really feeling great.

im normally pretty emotionless and i dont care about anything but sometimes when emotions "switch on", i feel pretty terrible.

life has been crappy for many years now, i guess i could say its the psychological effects of acne, like the forums title. (ive had bad skin for 17years now)

gotten to the point now where i don't socialise and don't have a job. 

not saying im depressed but i feel really stuck.

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I on the other hand feel extremely emotionless to everything, nothing makes this shit easy.  But I hear you bro.

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Me,i am doing what i think is necessary and having cleared up my acne i am not dealing with the scars,hopefully successfully and looking forward to moving on and out.
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Acne and acne scars sure have a lot of shit common being unemotional dam, i'm the same but trying to get out of my circle so i can have some bomb as sex

 

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Curious as to how you survive financially speaking without a job. Are you on disability or something?

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no, i live at home. my family dont care what i do as long as i dont ask them for money. (at the moment, i make some money on ebay). ive had some dead end and part time job but nothing worth talking about. i will have to go out and work in the near future but this will probably be another low end, minimum wage job.

i think part of the problem is that i spend long periods alone.

but i feel like ive missed out on quite a lot and often get judged before i even open my mouth due to the way i look.
 

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I think acne forces us to become antisocial due to the negative reactions we usually get from random people that judge us solely on our appearance. Naturally, after so much unwanted negative attention. I believe it's entirely rational to want to lesson that by avoiding situations that make it possible to manifest itself in the first place and unfortunately that generally mean purposefully closing yourself off from general society and living a life of seclusion.
  I feel as though one thing leads to another and before you know it, what started off as a few zits snowballs into something that may effectively paralyze you from living an otherwise normal lifestyle. It makes it so that you don't want to leave the safety of your home because you know it's the one place where the outside world can't get to you. out of sight, out of mind after all. So from that aspect i completely understand where your coming from. 
 The same thing happened to me, i got horrendous acne in middle school. Turning me into an introverted loser in high school and costing me 7 jobs throughout my young adulthood due to the crippling social anxiety all the years of dealing with this shit has caused. Now here i am 24 living at home but not for long i think, since I'm sick of my mother's and step dads bullshit. No college education since i was to much of a coward to attempt it from 18-22. Needless to say i can't help but feel that it all boils down to that faitfull day i got my first pimples, little did i know just how much it would effect my life in the years to come and even after all that. I don't see myself becoming my full potential anytime soon. My final thoughts are God doesn't exist, society is a fucking joke set up for the winners to win and the losers to lose. Its rigged man, humanity is full of shit and i wont lie, i wouldn't mind living long enough to see it all come crashing down.

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fatalbert911, i agree with some of your points. about leaving home, ive read about a sink or swim theory. ( i guess if you leave home on good terms you can move back in, my sister did it twice lol) but having said that, most people ive ever known have moved in with a partner before moving out.

one of my old school friend got kicked out at aged 19 and he did ok. as far as i know, he did nothing wrong. his mother just sold up and told him  "i think its time for you to move out." :smileys_n_people_43:..he ended up sleeping on a family members sofa for a while before getting a very small flat with help.  - imo he did well because he was very confident, smart, looked older than his age and had no skin problems. (i know i dwell on skin but looks do help.-- this friend got jobs in the same places i got rejected from)

 

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