1. More Than a Month
  2. I’m going to do some monthly posts instead because weekly posts are becoming more and more monotonous and I don’t have time to post weekly. The past month was kinda rough, with lots of rounds of breaking out, calming down, and then breaking out again. The closed comedones are still being stubborn, though they have noticeably decreased. The few that come to heads are somewhat painful and contain a yellowy-white hard grain, like ¼ of a uncooked grain of rice. Switching into college was complicated for my dermatillomania and I’m still trying to get back on track with that, since the second I walk out of my room I’m looking into a huge vanity mirror. And I’m stressed. It’s great haha. I’m breaking out along the sides of my chin and a little on the middle of my cheeks, and the spots are usually the deeper (but not cystic or papule-like) breakouts that are probably from old closed comedones.


    Products used:

    -Aveeno Sheer Daily Moisturizer: morning and night

    -Neutrogeena Oil-Free Moisture with Sunscreen (SPF 15): mornings when I plan to go outside.

    -Burt’s Bees chapstick: use in morning and throughout the day

    -Aquaphor tube: apply at night before bed

    -Dove micellar water body wash

    -Dr. Bronner’s Peppermint Castile Soap: Distilled 1:2 of soap to water in a separate glass bottle. Used in morning and in evening.

    -Heliocare oral supplement: on days where I plan to go outside a lot (still wear sunscreen, though!)

    -Kirkman’s Multivitamin without vitamin A or D

    -NAC supplement: for OCD, anxiety, depression (many sites suggest also taking a vitamin C supplement with NAC; I take the daily multivitamin below and a little bit of an “Immune+” Emergen-C packet [the type w/vitamin D, since my multivitamin doesn’t include it] every other day)


    Symptoms:

    -Dry face: Not considerably; getting some dry patches on arms

    -Dry lips: Yes, a little worse than in the past but not tragic

    -Dry nose/eyes: Not really, maybe a little with my eyes.

    -Depression: Same as usual

    -Thirsty: I definitely have to drink more water, especially when I wake up in the morning, but it’s a good habit to get into :)

    -Hair loss: Much less than past few months


     
  3. Holy heck it is closed comedone time, my dudes. They are everywhere. I didn’t used to break out on my cheeks but now I am. I still believe that it’s the comedones being expelled because I shamefully picked one of the more painful spots and a small, teardrop-shaped hard piece came out of my pore, almost like a small piece of uncooked rice. From previous experience, that’s similar to what is in closed comedones - really hard semi-spherical bits (don’t judge me, this is science). Good news: nearly all of the blackheads on my nose are gone, my body acne is almost gone as well, and my neck no longer breaks out. Bad news, aside from above: I got a cystic spot INSIDE my earlobe somehow (it feels like an airsoft bullet is in the exact center of my earlobe, just above my earring hole) and my period is wildly late. My research around sites like these said that having a really late period in your second month is quite normal, so I’m just hoping that it doesn’t decide to show up in the next few days, as I am moving into my apartment on Saturday.


    Products used:

    -Aveeno Sheer Daily Moisturizer: morning and night

    -Neutrogeena Oil-Free Moisture with Sunscreen (SPF 15): mornings when I plan to go outside. I hate the smell and oily texture of sunscreen immensely, but this product is actually pretty good.

    -Burt’s Bees chapstick: use in morning and throughout the day

    -Aquaphor tube: apply at night before bed

    -Dove cucumber moisture body wash: I use shower gloves for my body (GENTLY)

    -Dr. Bronner’s Peppermint Castile Soap: Distilled 1:2 of soap to water in a separate glass bottle. Used only in the evenings after showering, or if I pick my face.

    -Heliocare oral supplement: on days where I plan to go outside a lot (still wear sunscreen, though!)

    -NAC supplement: for OCD, anxiety, depression (many sites suggest also taking a vitamin C supplement with NAC; I take the daily multivitamin below and a little bit of an “Immune+” Emergen-C packet [the type w/vitamin D, since my multivitamin doesn’t include it] every other day)

    -Kirkman’s Multivitamin without vitamin A or D


    Symptoms:

    -Dry face: Not considerably; worse in breakout areas and chin

    -Dry lips: Yes, a little worse than past weeks but not tragic

    -Dry nose/eyes: Not really, maybe a little with my eyes.

    -Depression: Decreased actually, potentially from NAC

    -Thirsty: I definitely have to drink more water, especially when I wake up in the morning, but it’s a good habit to get into :)

    -Hair loss: Yes, but I’m not going bald and I still have eyebrows. Less in the past two or so weeks.

    -SUPER late period, and a few scattered false alarm days where I got that feeling and just knew that it was gonna stab me in the uterus within the next 24 hours. Ladies, you know what I mean. :P

  4. So I think my weeks may be one off on these posts, but when I go back and look, I can’t see where the mistake is… idk. Ever since my dosage was upped, I’ve been getting a long and irritating breakout. I know it’s probably my body expelling the deep acne in my skin, but it HURTS and my skin picking has become a lot more challenging as a result. My closed comedones have become more numerous and obvious, yet all of my mirrors in my room are covered to dissuade my picking sessions so I’m not exactly sure if my comedones are the exact spots painfully coming to a head or not but the breakouts seem to be in the areas where those are the worst. I thought it was PMS but now I really think it’s just the Accutane.


    Products used:

    -Aveeno Sheer Daily Moisturizer: morning and night

    -Neutrogeena Oil-Free Moisture with Sunscreen (SPF 15): mornings when I plan to go outside. I hate the smell and oily texture of sunscreen immensely, but this product is actually pretty good.

    -Burt’s Bees chapstick: use in morning and throughout the day

    -Aquaphor tube: apply at night before bed

    -Dove cucumber moisture body wash: I use shower gloves for my body (GENTLY)

    -Dr. Bronner’s Peppermint Castile Soap: DISTILL THIS bc its super concentrated. I did 1:2 of soap to water in a separate glass bottle. I started using soap on my face again, but only in the evenings when I take a shower because I’m starting to need to wear more makeup to cover up spots and water alone won’t take off my concealer.

    -Heliocare oral supplement: on days where I plan to go outside a lot (still wear sunscreen, though!)

    -NAC supplement: for OCD, anxiety, depression

    -Multivitamin: Recently purchased Kirkman’s multivitamin without vitamin A or D bc it’s important to get your vitamins especially when on NAC, but DON’T take any more vitamin A while on accutane, since the medicine is derived from A.


    Symptoms:

    -Dry face: Not considerably; worse in breakout areas and chin

    -Dry lips: Yes, a little worse than past weeks but not tragic

    -Dry nose/eyes: Not really, maybe a little with my eyes.

    -Depression: Decreased actually, potentially from NAC

    -Thirsty: I definitely have to drink more water, especially when I wake up in the morning, but it’s a good habit to get into :)

    -Hair loss: Yes, but I’m not going bald and I still have eyebrows. Less in the past two or so weeks.


     
  5. My spots are healing really quickly now, or more specifically the scabs I get from picking at spots. The closed comedones on my chin are beginning to come to (somewhat painful) heads, and after starting 80 mg I had a second mini break-out that’s still healing. My body acne is almost entirely gone now though, which is wonderful. I had a deep, almost cystic spot on my cheek that concerned me for a bit because I had hoped those were gone for good, but it’s going away on its own. I am really trying to not pick, and I started taking NAC supplement (it's safe with Accutane, according to my derm) to help take the edge off of my impulses and anxiety. It’s actually working pretty well I think, it seems to be easier to stop myself from picking and I have been a lot more productive overall
     

    Products used:

    -Aveeno Sheer Daily Moisturizer: morning and night after toner dries

    -Neutrogeena Oil-Free Moisture with Sunscreen (SPF 15): mornings when I plan to go outside. I hate the smell and oily texture of sunscreen immensely, but this product is actually pretty good.

    -Burt’s Bees chapstick: use in morning and throughout the day

    -Aquaphor tube: apply at night before bed

    -Dove cucumber moisture body wash: I use shower gloves for my body (GENTLY)

    -Heliocare oral supplement: on days where I plan to go outside a lot (still wear sunscreen, though!)

    -NAC supplement: for OCD, anxiety, depression


    Symptoms:

    -Dry face: Not considerably, but my whole body is noticeably drier than when I was on 40 mg/day

    -Dry lips: Yes, but manageable

    -Dry nose/eyes: Not really, maybe a little with my eyes.

    -Depression: Less than last week, I’m a bit of a mess lol (NAC also seems to help)

    -Thirsty: I definitely have to drink more water, especially when I wake up in the morning, but it’s a good habit to get into :)

    -Hair loss: Less than last week actually, or at least I seem to notice it less


     
  6. I’m still breaking out a little bit, though less than before. Skin still isn’t that dry. I wonder if I should take a higher dosage, or if I’m just one of the few people whose skin just doesn’t have chronic drying from Accutane. I really hhope it’s the second, my skin texture has been nice (aside from the acne bumps and scars :P) Trying hard not to pick at my face but my PMS is starting up, which means more hormonal acne. Trying to stay motivated and aware of my hands is really difficult. I have weeks of high motivation where I hardly pick and am really good at stopping myself, and then other weeks where I just can’t keep my hands off of my face. It’s very frustrating and I am not very patient, so the red and inflamed results of my sessions continuously wears on my self-confidence and hope that I can overcome this. I have a dermatologist appointment later this week and I want to ask her about taking NAC supplement, which supposedly helps with anxiety, depression, OCD/dermatillomania, and liver longevity. I’ve seen posts of other people using it while on Accutane, so hopefully she will be on board with it.


    Products used:

    -Aveeno Sheer Daily Moisturizer: morning and night after toner dries

    -Neutrogeena Oil-Free Moisture with Sunscreen (SPF 15): mornings when I plan to go outside a lot. I hate the smell and oily texture of sunscreen immensely, but this product is actually pretty good.

    -Burt’s Bees chapstick: use in morning and throughout the day

    -Aquaphor tube: apply at night before bed

    -Dove cucumber moisture body wash: I use shower gloves for my body (GENTLY)

    -I am really trying to keep down the number of products I use to prevent over-irritation


    Symptoms:

    -Dry face: Not considerably

    -Dry lips: Yes, but manageable

    -Dry nose/eyes: Not really, maybe a little with my eyes.

    -Depression: Possibly an increase, but also possibly from PMS

    -Thirsty: I definitely have to drink more water, especially when I wake up in the morning, but it’s a good habit to get into :)

    -Hair loss: Yes, but I’m not going bald and I still have eyebrows

    -Aches: started getting kind of achy recently in my lower back. I hadn’t been to the gym for a while so it’s from either the medicine or my really awful mattress.