1. More Than a Month
  2. Done.

    Blogs My Epuris Journey

    So i'm done. I went to the doctor. They said i'm done. it's been six months since i started this, I went through a lot. This was a super hard process honestly. I felt down about myself a lot. I felt uncomfortable in my own skin. But I also still had a blast. I still met people. i had two girlfriends that regardless of what i looked like/was going through, were there for me. I still played shows and wrote and did art like i still will. I think it just goes to show how much power the mind has and how I will never let anything control what I do or if I wake up in the morning. No matter what, I will have strength. At the moment my back is clearing up, finally. Doctor said the pigmentation should go down. My face has some scarring that will also heal as well. I'll probably post some of what my back and face and chest have gone through in terms of change in a bit. But I'm essentially done blogging on this. Honestly, this blog helped me air out this really sensitive issue for me, I'm really grateful for it. Hopefully I give you some insight and hope into your own accutane journey, regardless of whether the end was dire. Enjoy and happy days.
  3. So, I've basically finished 6 months. I stopped taking accutane for a week in costa rica, but it stays in your system regardless. i have seen improvement, but only improvement of what happened the past 6 months, which was breaking out....All in all, for my back acne, i'm glad i took it, but for my facial acne, it was not a good idea. Honestly, I'll be trying to mend the damage that accutane did to my face unfortunately. But even my back still has scarring. I'll probably update after I go to my doctor's appointment. If anyone was even following then thanks for being a part of my journey, hopefully you gained something. For myself, I realized how intense this process is, and nobody's perfect, but i'll always have fun and i'll no matter what, pursue my passions regardless of my skin. One love.
  4. So, I'm actually starting to see improvement....which is nice, like I'm for the first time in a couple months actually optimistic. My back is clearing up, scars as well I think? Will have to wait a few more months to see what I can do about those. My chest is still breaking out in some spots, but my sunburn makes it look better (?). Face is not bad, but I have some pitted scars that get me really really sad, I really want to do something about those. The scarring in general i'm really sad about, but the clearing up is ok. I took a week off because I was in Costa Rica so i'm like almost done 6 months, but also not. I'm just going to wait to finish this box.
  5. Hey, so I was in costa rica having a blast so I couldn't get to this, but i'm almost done the journey. It's almost half way into my last month - maybe. I'm still breaking out! Like, i cannot believe it. Is this normal? Shouldn't I be done breaking out in the slightest? Also, I noticed something. I was with a girl and she was rubbing my chest and the next day I had a severe breakout on my chest, like everywhere she rubbed was basically breaking out. What is that a symptom of? is this something epuris/accutane can even fix? This experience has me super confused! I can't wait to be done this in less than 3 weeks.
  6. Alright. I've finished 5 months. Still breaking out. Getting somewhat clearer? Not sure honestly. Like really not sure. I'm not getting too many breakouts on my forehead anymore, but there's signnificant damage that i hope once i'm off this will sort itself out. if not, i'll look into alternative methods. I treat my skin naturally a lot and know certain tricks to, hopefully, help. Also, I'm going to costa rica on thursday so I'm taking a break from this for a week, i guess we'll see what happens. This technically should be the last month. That's crazy that I've gone through 5 months of this. Honestly, it hasn't really done anything I wanted it to do, and it's been quite taxing. The one thing i'm happy is that people are so loving and caring and understanding and empathetic to people, I always have such a restoration for humanity in times like these.
  7. Update. Not too much of a difference. i think my back is clearing up. Chest is still breaking out. Face is still breaking out, causing pock scars. Again I'm quite fed up at this point. Getting really really dry at the bottom of my nose again. Almost done 5 months on this stuff, pretty crazy. Coming up the last month.
  8. Hey. Finished 4 months and almost 3 weeks. So, almost 5 months. Crazy. And what have I noticed? Things are not better, that's for sure. And I would say the skin on my face has gotten worse, and maybe my back has gotten better but I can't tell with the scarring. This is sad. I'm sad about this. this is not what i wanted whatsoever. if you compare my blog posts from the beginning to now, you'll see I was really optimistic, and usually people's optimism goes up during their course, mine is the opposite. I'm starting to realize i'll never get the skin I want, and I know that we never get the perfection we hope for, but I expected this to decrease the noticability of my acne, at the very least. To update what's happening with my skin, I just got a big breakout on my chest and the cysts have immediately started scabbing over. another thing i've noticed are pimples that I don't pop will stay, harden, and then end up scarring. It's almost better to pop cysts, which I've been reluctant to do but have done. These cysts rupture my skin and has made my forehead wrinkle much more prominent. The other night I was up all night, anxious about my wrinkle, like, I'm still outwardly confident and happy, but i'm so self conscious about it. These breakouts, man, still going on. I don't know when the hell this will get better.
  9. K, So i'm like flaking away skin on my face. Kind of strange. Man I want this to enddddddd. like dudesss it has been 4 months and two weeks....what the heck. Just wondering if this is a good or bad sign that my skin is flaking on my face. BTW i never really had a problem with my face until epuris, really. Oh! And i'm getting rashes on my wrists and stuff. Dunno! Let me know dudes! I'm so ready to be done
  10. Alright. It's been 4 months and 2 weeks (ish). My back I think is getting better? Hard to tell honestly because of the scarring, which makes me really sad, like really really sad. Face will still have maybe a pimple a day, and I've noticed if I just leave the pimple it stays and hardens and doesn't leave, like ever. It's almost like popping it is better because then it will leave because at the moment it just becomes a permenant cyst. I have a few of these on my neck face and forehead now. I'll have to ask my derm about it becaues that's not usual. My chest is getting wicked scabs that even if i shower they will become inflammed. Not sure what to do about those. This process is really getting on my nerves. I'm not seeing any improvement and only damage really. If anyone can tell me that the scars, the cysts, or the lack of improvement is part of it, this late in accutane, then i guess it might help, but I haven't read too many people not seeing improvement at this point.
  11. Alright, I've finished 4 months and one week on Epuris. No change. not sure what else to really write about honestly. Just seems like my skin has gotten worse. Like it's super sensitive and looks so tired and worn out. Thing is, I take care of my body so well, sometimes maybe I eat out a little too often but nothing that impending to my health. i am getting less breakouts on my forehead, I guess, but back is still breaking out, chest is still breaking out, and dryness though has gone down a bit, and redness has gone down in my face. Not sure what any of it means because I'm not sure how this drug is supposed to work at this point because the results have been sooo mild, if any! I really really really hope something happens soon.