So i finally visited one. It was a very late appointment and i was the only patient there, it felt weird. He was a very nice guy however told me what i already knew, about how acne is caused blah blah, about the sweat glands and sebum etc. That is the dermatologists theory, but my instincts tell me otherwise as to why im having acne. Anyways, i poured my heart out to him, explaining how severely depressed i am and that's where his look changed. Prior to me pouring my heart out, he explained what roaccutane was (as if i didnt already know) and asked me what i knew about the side effects etc. He said that because of health and safety, it's very difficult for doctors just to hand it over then and there. Then i told him about my depression, and he then changed some things. He told me that i would need accutane however he needed to run some liver tests first and foremost, and therefore he wants me to try a drug named Trimethoprim. He said that this should relieve some of the stubborn acne and help, however i wasnt 100% sure that it would be the miracle drug as he described. One thing i am scared about however, is getting my blood taken. I have a really bad phobia of blood and cringe everytime i see it, so im not looking forward to that one bit But hopefully my liver will be healthy and i will be able to get started on accutane, finally. Oh and i have to see another psychiatrist. 20 years old and i need mental help, blood samples and pumped with harmful drugs, what a life!