To anyone that's still reading (probably just me.....lol). I'm still alive and still dealing with this beast. I just celebrated my 35th birthday and took the time to reflect on my journey so far and man of man, what a ride. Acne has really forced me to self examine who I am as a person and to face some hard truths about what my self worth is wrapped up in. I'm still not where i want to be emotionally, mentally or spiritually, but i haven't given up yet.
I recently updated my signature detailing what i'm using so feel free to take a look if you have any questions about my diet, skin care or supplements.
Still on spiro at a dosage of 150 mg and still breaking out. Some days are definitely better than others. I am grateful to spiro for giving me breaks in between my acne but it has unfortunately not been the miracle i had been hoping for. My naturopath wants me to stop next month and that thought scares the shit out of me. Having to go back to the days of hating to look in the mirror and constantly crying, hating what I saw and at times, wanting to just give up is not a life i want to repeat. I guess its akin to sticking to the evil that you know versus the one that you don't. No one really gets it except for those going through it.
As of today, i am beginning a breakout cycle, a week out from my period which is hella normal. It's not a hide in the house with your face covered breakout but its a stay indoor because i don't have plans 'Thank God' breakout. I just don't feel like dealing.
I wonder to myself if i am going to be forty and still be dealing with this shit. That thought depresses me.
But all i can deal with is today. Getting through today is my goal and if i can do that, then i know i'll be alright.
FYI - my allergies which were another battle i was dealing with are GONE. Quercetin is a miracle worker!
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