For those of you who are just starting Accutane for the first time or hell, the 2nd, 3rd or whatever time, take time to observe pre-existing things affecting you. If you have always suffered from the screaming mimis on the toilet after a late night binge of Taco Bell, don't freak out if it happens when you're just now taking Accutane. If you had a nervous twitch in your eye before you got on Accutane, don't think that your eye is going to suddenly explode because you're now on it.
So I had a freak out fest last Saturday where I was sitting on the computer writing my previous blog when I noticed my vision was a little off. I stopped what I was doing and looked around and realized "Yep, my eyes feel weird." Being the worry wart I am, I go consult my handy dandy Accutane handbook (NOW WITH MORE DEFORMED BABY PICTURES! YAAAAAY!) and read over the brain swelling section.
Hmmm.. My vision feels off. My head is a little sore. OH MY DOG!! MY BRAIN IS SWELLING!!!!
My heart starts racing and I start freaking the hell out. What's my next intelligent step? The Internet.
If you ever have any symptom: whether you're on Accutane or not, the worst thing you can do is go on WebMD or any of those other sites. But I'm not always brilliant so I ignore my own advice and end up having an anxiety attack thinking this:
I'M ALLERGIC TO ACCUTANE. MY BRAIN IS SWELLING AND I'M GOING TO LOSE AN EYE! Why did I agree to go on this DEMON MEDICINE again?!?! Woe is me!! Boohoo!!
And so I lie there in bed, with the lights out, still as a board and my mind racing every which way. My fiance eventually comes to bed after a late night nerd fest on the Playstation and I tell him what happened. His answer made a lightbulb flicker on above my head:
"It's probably eye strain from the computer."
Eye Strain? Eye Strain??? Yes!! Eye Strain! And as he rolls over asleep, I grab the phone and look up Eye Strain. Yes, that's it. Eye Strain! Haha! I WILL LIVE!!!
Ever since that freak out fest, I'm cool. Life is swimingly so far on Accutane and as long as the chapstick is beside me, all is well in my world. Let my stupidity be a lesson: While it's good to be self aware, don't be self paranoid or get wrapped up in hysterics. Oh, and stop consulting the internet for your diagnosis!
Be well, fellow taners!