Today is day 72 maybe??
Well the wedding went great. It couldn't have gone any better! My husband was so happy, and my evil cousin apologized and cried. Hahaha!
A few days before the wedding, I went to the dermatologist and she prescribed some prednisone. It was a really high dose (I can't remember what it was exactly) and it really helped my face look decent for the wedding! She warned me though that in women there is a high chance of a breakout after you start weaning off of it. Major understatement.
Here I am over a month later and I'm still suffering from that breakout. Cysts all over my poor cheeks and under my jawline. Sometimes I cry because I'm so frustrated that I'm on month three for pete's sake and I still have horrible, horrible, deforming acne. WTF? I know some people say that they didn't clear up till month 5 or so but it doesn't make me feel much better.
I want to make friends out here because it sucks so bad not having my family or best friend around, but I'm scared to be in social situations right now. I'm scared that all anyone will notice or remember about me is my acne. I'm quite young as it is, but I feel like all of my husband's older friends think I'm even more immature or juvenile because I have a condition that in society's eyes should have been solved in highschool.
Not to mention all the stress surrounding my husband and I with talk of us getting sent to Turkey is totally making my face awesome!! Sorry I'm being a sarcastic, bitter person right now. And ugh I wish Theresa, my acne surgery woman, was here right now. (Even though she's rude) She'd at least help alleviate some of these puss filled monsters.
Well, it's time to quit feeling sorry for myself I guess. Oh I got my bloodwork done and my cholesterol and triglycerides were so damn high that I'm being required by the military to see a nutritionist. I swear I eat fairly healthy (haven't had a fast food burger and fries for 5 years) and I work out 4 to 5 times a week. It's totally the accutane. I have some fish oil that I suppose I'll start taking to hopefully bring it back down. And for some odd reason I had high potassium levels which concerned my doctor. So tomorrow I have to go to the vampires again and get more bloodwork done to see if it was just a fluke or something. UGHHH.
On a non-acne note, married life is awesome! Our house is kind of more like an apartment and has an upstairs (something I've always dreamed of having since I was a kid.) Brian complains that it's not that great but to me it's perfect! Newton loves the stairs and loves sleeping in bed with us at night. The weather = amazing!!! I had to actually wear a hoodie and sweat pants yesterday evening when we went to the baseball field! People back home are saying they can't wait till it gets below 75 at night! That's one thing I do not miss! Shopping here is double amazing! And surprisingly I enjoy living on base! It's odd, but I feel much safer than if we lived off base!
Ok well that's definitely enough for now!
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