Well, I guess I've created this account for my own purpose. To write down how I feel. About acne. Gosh, who knew they could change your personality. My friends will never know about this, because I hardly get pimples on my face. They're all on my back and chest. I wonder when exactly they started appearing. I obviously didn't care about them, so I picked them, until eventually, they all became scars. It all happened so quickly.
For the past few years, I've never worn clothes low enough to expose my back. I finally occurred to me this year that "bacne" has effected my self-esteem so much.
In 5-6 months, I'll have my formal/prom. I've got my dress. It's backless. My goal is fade my scars as much as possible. See, prom is a time to enjoy yourselves, dance and have fun. I don't want to sit there all night making sure my hair is covering my disgusting scars. I don't want to sit there being envious of all the flawless girls. I want to be care-free for once in my life. I hate feeling like this.
And so, I've started a new routine. Aloe vera + lime juice. Every night. It's so time consuming, having to wait approx. 20 minutes for everything to dry. That doesn't include the time it takes to rub it on. I'm praying that this is going to help. All this effort.
I'll be posting pictures of the progress a few times a week if I get the chance. Ugh, it's embarrassing. But I know I'm not the only one dealing with this, so it's somewhat comforting knowing there are people out there going through the same shit.
Anyway. That's it for now.
I wonder if anyone will read this...
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