Ok I'm 22 and Iâ€™ve had acne as long as I can remember. Itâ€™s a hereditary trait I get from my Dad heâ€™s got terrible skin. He gave it to my sister and brother as well but their acne is barely noticeable compared to my acne. In high school I would dress like a slob b/c thatâ€™s how my acne made me feel like a dirty slob. I would try to put nice clothes on and I would take one look in the mirror and my gross acne would make me feel like someone who didnâ€™t shower or a drug addict. Not only do I have regular acne but I also have what they call Milia which are tiny white bumps or small cysts that can appear just under the epidermis. Also I swear I have the biggest pores in the world so that plus the Milia gives me this gross bumpy like texture and gives the effect of acne even when I have no real break outs!!! Milia in my opinion is the worst kind of acne because its under the skin which makes it almost impossible to pop or to medicate. I have seen 3 different dermatologist and have been put on every acne med out there. Differin, retin-a, ziana, and plenty more that I canâ€™t recall right now. Iâ€™ve tried every home remedy and every over the counter product Iâ€™m even on Birth control and nothing has worked. They help me from breaking out sure but b/c I have milia my face never looks smooth or clear plus my skin is super sensitive so itâ€™s always red. Iâ€™m so severely depressed about my acne I look in the mirror everyday and want to cry. I donâ€™t wanna go out anymore b/c all my friends have perfect skin and it makes me feel so insecure when I go out. Itâ€™s totally effecting my relationship with my bf b/c I never wanna go out with him and b/c I have such low self-esteem I always think heâ€™s gonna dump me for someone better looking. I donâ€™t want to get up for work anymore b/c Iâ€™m a receptionist so Iâ€™m the 1st person people see when they come into my job and I can tell their looking at my acne and not me. Iâ€™m in a bad mood almost every day b/c it stresses me out so much. And on top of my face acne I have a bunch of things wrong with the skin on my body. I have bad back and chest acne. I have stretch marks on my legs I donâ€™t really know where they came from but Iâ€™ve had them forever. I have such pale/sensitive skin that when I get even the littlest bit of sun I break out and get little dots everywhere. I have spider veins on my thighs back and shoulders which unless I get painful laser treatment there not going anywhere and b/c of all this Iâ€™m super embarrassed to wear shorts tanks or swim suits. So when the warmer weather comes I barly go out at all how sad is that? My last restore is to do a microdermabrasion or some form of laser treatment which are gonna cost me and small fortune and if that doesnâ€™t work I seriously give up!!!
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