sooo, just washed my face after a whole day in the city . and you know what i see, my whole face filled with new pimples. alot of new pimples.
i just want to cry, and hope for a black hole to appear and suck me in.
i'm lost. i fell . . . i don't even know what i feel. maybe disgusted, angry, sad, frustrated, well all of the emotions exept from the positiv ones.
two days to school start, and i just dont want to go. i just don't.
why would i want people to see my face, when i don't even want to see it myself.
why can't there just be a school dedicated to people like me, people with acne. then there wouldn't be a problem going to school, when i know that everyone can understand my situation.
or even better, why can acne just go and die !
when i just thought that my face would get better, it just slaps me back to reality.
why can't anybody or anything help me ? why do i have so suffer by myself ?
i don't have the money or the time to try everything that supposely "helps" acne. i have allready tried everything my doctor has told me to try. and as always day fail.
why can't i just stumble upon a product that can just save my life?
i look at my sisters life, perfect ( well almost ). perfect boyfriend, perfect skin. PERFECT LIFE.
and here i am complaining to myself, feeling ugly, feeling "not normal".
feeling alone, as if im the only on in the planet with this disease.
where is my people? where are they? i don't see them. all i see is a ugly girl walking alone in a world with perfect skin.
let me just die alone with my imperfect skin.
everytime i write a post i always write at the end : iloveyouall.
well, there is no love to give today.
so let me just say goodbye.