I've struggled with moderate/severe acne since I was 12 years old. High school was a very embarassing time for me. My sister had moderate acne as well, but hers cleared up when she turned 18. So, of course, I hoped mine would follow suit...but it didn't. In fact, it got worse. I had my first baby when I was 18, and not only did the acne on my face not get any better, I also started to break out on my neck and back. It's very persistant...I've tried pretty much everything over the counter. I've spent incredible amounts of money on products like Clearasil and Proactive to no avail. A few years back, I went to a dermatologist who prescribed me creams that didn't work. He finally put me on antibiotics...they cleared my skin about 50% for the first 4 months or so, but I eventually built up a tolerance to them and my acne came back full force.
I'm extremely self-concious about my skin. I don't leave the house without makeup. When I started staying overnight with my boyfriend, I went to bed in my makeup, and reapplied it as soon as I woke up...which I know was cutting off my nose to spite my face, but I was mortified for him to see how horrible my skin actually looks.
So I recently had an appointment with a new dermatologist and explained to her my struggles. She immediately offered me Accutane. And, being desperate as I am, and SO ready to finally feel what it's like to have clear skin, I signed my life away on the iPLEDGE program.
I'm SO. Nervous. To start taking this drug because I've heard so many horror stories. My boyfriend is a Marine and is stationed in Japan. I told him about it and he's really not thrilled because it sounds so risky...but I know I can stop taking it whenever I want and I figured I would at least try it. And at this point...as long I don't go psycho, try to kill myself, go bald, or lose function of any vital organs, I will DEAL with side effects for 5 months to have clear skin.
So I had the first pregnancy test done yesterday at the dermatologist. I have to come back next month for bloodwork and another pregnancy test (won't be an issue...boyfriend in Japan...) and then I can start. Yayyy....maybe? We'll see. I'm nervous.
I'll take some "before" pictures soon and put them up.