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Acne Dysmorphia

I think I have it.

Like, hardcore.

I guess I feel relieved that I can finally put a name to it, but I also feel so hopeless, like the name "disorder" is dragging on me like a weight.

I'm feeling a little sick to my stomach for no explainable reason. I feel like I'm dying, but slowly, in the way you feel like you're dying when you know it should end but you're not completely sure it will.

I'm scared. I'm scared of myself.

lady cappie

Almost clear!

I'm actually feeling alot better about my skin today!

I'm really close to being clear, I just have a few red spots and that's it. Plus, my skin is sort of dry and has been flaking, but I got this nifty Aloe Vera stuff from Vaseline, and it hydrates and moisturizes too. So that should be taken care of in no time.

I don't know why, but sometimes when I look in the mirror, I don't see how clear my skin is, but I see all the little flaws and things I can't change.

For instance, I have a few chicken pox scars on my forehead, and when I see them, I just have this overwhelming urge to break down and feel sorry for myself.

I'm not going to do that anymore. Cheers to being clear :)

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