Hi there I'm 17 by the way,
I've finally decided to go ahead with the dreaded accutane because basically nothing else seems to work. I've been on all the antibiotics and they really havent helped much.
I've suffered from acne for about 2 years now. I'll admit its not the worst in the world and when I see some of the people suffering on this and other sites I almost feel lucky. But still it has persistently killed my confidence and made me feel really crappy. I often find myself thinking "what have i done to deserve this? Why can't I be like everyone else?". I'm sure many of you have felt the same.
My acne is different to almost everyone else i've seen. I don't suffer too badly from whiteheads but I get bigger red lumps on my face that don't have heads. These occur around my chin and nose as well as the forehead occassionly. My cheeks are completely clear and the sides of my face arent too bad. I also suffer from light acne on my back which is very uncomfortable at times. At times my face can swell up randomly overnight and this generally occurs around the eyes and lips. My lips are also a problem as frequently I get little lumps come up around my lips and they can make smiling and eating unbearable. My face gets a little dry from time to time but nothing major. I hate the way my face looks so red in all one place.
I hate thinking that people are looking at me and the whole thing really gets me down. Most of all though I just want to feel comfortable.
But anyway I went to the hospital today and I've got my 60mg prescription. 3 tablets a day. I've taken my tablets today earlier. I am not expecting anything to happen today but tomorrow we'll see. My mums got me all the stuff to prepare me for the side affects and i'm really hoping their minimal. The thought of dry skin doesnt scare me too much as currently my skin gets quite greasy and I hate the way it looks. But anyways we shall see. I'm quite worried i'll admit. I'm nervous about how bad my skin will get before it gets better. I'm going to Florida in August and I'm soo scared that my holiday will be ruined. Last year i went to spain and it was horrible. Acne ruined it!!
I'm sorry this is so long but anyway I will try and do daily entries if i can. Wish me luck. I cant wait till this is over it will really change my life!
Lastly I have the most amazing girlfriend whos gonna be with me the whole way and forever That is soo important to me:)