Ok so it's official, my skin sucks - royally! I woke up yesterday and could feel 4 new cysts developing on my good side!! Today they look even worse!! My face looks deformed from the swelling and lumps I'm seriously about to the point where I'm going to just stop caring and let my guard down. It's literally exhausting worrying about my skin 24/7. I have no idea why I even care so much what others think of me. My friends and family know how cute I am and they've never judged me. So why do I care what strangers think of me? Especially if I'm never going to see them again?! I must have some underlying issues that need to be dealt with and well this is probably the best time to do it! If I can feel confident and look like this â€“ I should be golden!
Sooo my derm. appt. went well and my blood work was fine, prego test negative â€“ I was really worried because I was eating terrible due to all the stress Iâ€™ve been having. Now the first thing my derm. says is â€œoh your breaking out againâ€ AGAIN?! Really?! Iâ€™ve been breaking out the entire time!! She said my progress isnâ€™t exactly what she had hoped for so she gave me two options â€“ start me on a low dose of prednisone and/or up my dosage to 80 mg/day. I declined both but kept the prednisone in mind. I wake up this morning and yea, hell on my face, so I call in and ask for the prednisone and she calls me back saying sheâ€™d rather not now. WTF?! Iâ€™m not so much upset at the fact that she wonâ€™t give it to me but more confused as to why she wouldâ€™ve given me the option yesterday and now today when I want it she doesnâ€™t think I need itâ€¦schwhatever â€“ I didnâ€™t want it anyways!
Has anyone else noticed that the simplest things that go wrong can seem almost disastrous? Like today for example, I had a dentist appt. to get my teeth cleaned and they doubled booked and told me to come back tomorrow and I left almost in tears â€“ almost. I think I was so upset because I dreeead going to the dentist and I was psyching myself up all day and then yea come back tomorrow. Good news is they did called me back 10 min. later because the other person didnâ€™t show up â€“ kind of annoying but I went back and got it over with! It ended up really sucking cause I have two newer painful zits, one on each side of my mouth and she ended up popping one Well she pushed too hard on it or scrapped the top off soooo yea it looks worse now haha. Iâ€™m also realizing that a lot of people donâ€™t know what Accutane isâ€¦itâ€™s kinda fun to describe to them what I've been going through â€“ they usually are like wow that sounds terrible! Haha yea itâ€™s pretty terrible but I enjoy looking like a freak
::Back to the point of this blog::
Side effects: Same old dry lips, nose, hair, scalp. Last week I noticed the backs of my hands were looking a bit dry so I put some lotion on and was actually at a funeral and noticed all these tiny red dots all over. So when I got home I put some more lotion on I had in my purse that happened to be fragranced and LADIES LISTEN UP - DO NOT USE FRAGRANCED LOTIONS!! THEY WILL LITERALLY BURN YOUR SKIN OFF!! It burned like hell and a min. later I literally had like little burns where every little red dot was!! They scabbed and now a week later have kinda scarred Suuuucks. Well I think that's about all I have for now haha. If you got to here (Seven ) kudos - you fucking rock!
Peace out internet homies