This is primarily just a collection of my thoughts and what I am trying so I can look back and keep progress reports.
I had acne on and off, yes. Then I got on sulfamethoxazole (bactrim) when I was around 17. Cleared me right up. Was getting ready for the military, so they had me get off of it, because I wouldn't be allowed that prescription in boot camp. Then my face went pscyhotic. APPARENTLY, when your skin develops a sort of dependency on this stuff and you have to be slowly weened off of it to avoid a massive breakout. Hmm, I sure wish my stupid derm would have told me that. He didn't. Believe me, I paid very close attention .
So I started off around August of 2008 with acne literally everywhere. Birthday on August 27th. Worst birthday ever. I prayed to God as hard as I could to just free me of this. I felt like I was being punished for something, but didn't know what.
Bit by bit, piece by piece, I've cleared up dramatically. I know the reason I broke out so bad is because of suddenly dropping that medication. Now I can say I have about 10+ bumps or more (I'm not gonna count lol) and a ton of my redness has diminished. I've tried it all. Now, it's time to just say screw everything, I'm getting rid of this crap.
I'm declaring war on acne.
I'm done. This stuff is packing it's suitcase and the door is gonna hit it on the way out. Yeah, personifying acne . I was thinking about what makes me (diet wise) so much different from everyone else. Oh, that's right: I barely eat vegetables. Now I am going to change my lifestyle. I'm going to load up on veggies every day and be careful on what I put into my body. If it doesn't rid me of acne? Fuck. But, at least I'll be leading an even healthier life. I better be careful and make sure I get enough fat, though or I'll wither away .
I talk to God more and I'm trying to find some sort of peace with him. I know I can never be a straight up, sweater wrapped around my neck type, but I can improve as all can.
"The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. A righteous man may have many troubles, but the Lord delivers him from them all; he protects all his bones, and not one of them will be broken."
I pray that I can be viewed by Him as righteous.