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25&Tiredofacne

Day 37

I actually peeled off a layer of lip skin today. A whole layer of lip skin just came off. Okay, that is not entirely true. It wasn't a WHOLE layer, but a significant piece of lip skin did come off. And of course this happens when I can't seem to ever find a tube of Aquaphor. Literally I think an Aquaphor monster lives in my apartment. So this means that I have resorted to "regular" chapstick and trust me when I tell you, it just does not do the trick. The dry lips thing has gotten bad, and I fear that only at day 37 I may have not experience the worst of it. I hate it. I hate kissing my boyfriend, which used to be one of my favorite activities. The dry lips make me feel ugly.

On the plus side I only have one active pimple as of today, and it is not a cyst, nor does it look as though it will turn into one. That is not to say I do not have any red marks left over from other pimples... :) But I find that I do not stress out over pimples anymore. Instead I just shrug and assume it is part of the clearing process that promises to give me beautiful skin.

But...there does seem to be something happening that I am not fond of (besides the icky lips). I find myself becoming more and more irritable. I am usually a very easy going, laissez faire kind of person. And lately, well lately I have been the opposite of this. Specifically with my boyfriend. I tend to snap at the smallest of things and instead of just going with the flow, I seem to over-analyze everything that he says and usually end up making a mountain out of a molehill so to speak. I am 90% sure this is caused from the 'Tane. Maybe Mr. Tane is jealous that I have another man in my life and is trying to end it... just kidding. :D I just wish this side effect would go away. Has anyone else felt like this? to some degree at least? If so, what did you do to deal with it?

Well that's it for now!

25&Tiredofacne

Day 32

wow it has been a long time since I posted. and I have much to say. first I almost stopped using Accutane for good the day after my last post. I woke up with a horrible pain in my foot that eventually went numb and it didnt go away for 3 days. I thought this could be one of the side effects, and even though my derm told me it was highly unlikely I was convinced it was so I stopped taking the accutane. So about a night after the numbness went away, I felt intense pain in my wrist and I was convinced I had made the right decision about stopping Accutane...until I saw the scorpian on my comforter and realized I had been stung. After calling poision control and hearing about the symptoms (initial pain, little or no swelling, numbness that can last for days sometimes weeks and can affect other body parts, usually the hands and feet even if those parts have not been stung) I realized that I am almost 100% certain I had been stung twice in one week. So...I got back on the 'Tane. It has been more than 3 weeks since the initial sting and I have not felt any numbness since. In fact I just got back from a 2 week backpacking trip and my joints never hurt me at all! My skin did break out, which I will contribute to the damn IB and airplane air (does anyone else's skin go nuts on planes?), but I have to say I am really happy with my decision to get back on with the Accutane. :)

25&Tiredofacne

Day 18--Not Happy

So I am breaking my tradition and blogging on the weekend...but I feel it necessary as I just had my first bloody nose. I should mention that this is particulary significant as this is my first bloody nose EVER--like in my life. And I woke up this morning and felt as though my eyeballs were on fire only to run to the bathroom to see that they were extremely red and dry. And to make matters worse my "small" whitehead on my jaw has gotten much larger and two more smallish whiteheads have emerged around the cyst on the other side of my jaw. Unhappy about this, but sadly thinking this is what I get for thinking I had made it through the IB period. Sigh.

25&Tiredofacne

Day 17

One new (small) whitehead has appeared on my left jawline. Nothing that can't be covered up with a little makeup! :naughty: I really don't want to jinx myself, but my skin hasn't broken out tremendously since I started Tane, my skin isn't abnormally dry and the active pimples I had going into this are healing. I am worried (again :naughty: ) that Tane isn't working properly on me...not that I really want all of the nasty side effects that go along with the usage. Blargh. I can't seem to make up my mind can I?

Side Effects:

SLIGHTLY dry eyes

SLIGHTLY chapped lips

Skin SLIGHTLY on the dry side

Tired

Loss of Appetite (though not as prevalent as before :naughty: )

Currently:

Taking 40 mg of Sotret daily

Washing face with Cetaphil

Using Cetaphil moisturizer with SPF 15

Attempting to drink TONS of H2O (and finding it semi hard)

Appling Aquaphor LIBERALLY

AVOIDING the sun.

25&Tiredofacne

Hola peeps!

Nothing much to report really. It is day 16 of the Tane game and my side effects thus far seem to be minimal (knock on wood). My loss of appetite is still present and I have noticed that my face is drier and there was a little flaking yesterday. However I have been using BP at night on some troublesome spots ( I know I really should't do that). I took the flakiness as a sign that I should not do that anymore and just let Tane do it's thang.

My exsisting acne seems to be (slowly) healing itself. The texture of my face has seemed a little more bumpy lately....not pimples, just a little more rough and not as smoothe. Hope this will clear itself soon. No new pimples to deal with. :naughty:

And my "moodiness" has subsided, so I am fairly certain that it was not due to Tane, but rather just my emotions having a hay day. :naughty::naughty:

Side Effects:

Dry Lips, though not severe

Dry eyes, though not severe

Dry skin, though not severe

Tired

Loss of appetite

Currently:

Taking 40mg of Sotret daily

Using Cetaphil facewash

Using Cetaphil moisturizer with SPF 15

Applying Aquaphor to lips

Trying to drink tons of water and failing miserably

Avoiding the sun!

25&Tiredofacne

Good afternoon fellow taners!

I seem to be writing on this blog every single day (well excluding weekends, natch :naughty: ) and I can tell myself that it is to provide fellow taners with insight or to help those thinking about going on the tane themselves, but really I think that this blog is proving to be more cathartic for me while I am on this journey that promises to be hellish (but hopefully worth it at the end)!

So anyhoo, day 14 has arrived aka week two. So let me break down what I have experienced thus far in my short courtship with Mr. Tane. My face got a touch more oily than usual, and now I think it has dried out some. Now I was never very oily to begin with (except for occasional months when I would be like a friggin' oil slick), so maybe that has something to do with it. My face hasn't begun to get that dry, but like I said my skin was usually dry to begin with. My lips started to get chapped around day 8 or so...but those have calmed down drastically as well. Doesn't stop me from piling on the Aquaphor! :naughty: And there have been the dry eyes, though they are not nearly as bad as I thought they would be! I hope they do not ever get so bad that they prevent me from wearing my contacts...I've defintely been sleeping more than I usually do and getting a tired more easily but this is all managable. And there was the moodiness which reared its ugly little head yesterday. I am trying to squash that side effect as I like being in a good mood :redface:

Which brings us up to the present...so for the past couple of days I have noticed another side effect. I have really not been getting that hungry lately. Or if I do, the feeling usually passes quickly. For the past 2 days I have had to make myself eat a fatty meal at breakfast with my pill and then I usually forget about lunch all together and I'm somewhat hungry for dinner, but not as much as I usually would be. I'm not complaining! I'd love to lose an extra 5 lbs, and if I can do so while clearing my skin, all the better! :naughty:

And as far as my actual acne goes, no new actives and the older actives seem to be drying out and flattening out! Knock on wood...

Side Effects:

SLIGHTLY drier skin

Dry(ish) eyes

SLIGHTLY chapped lips

Loss of Appetite

A little tired

Currently:

Taking 40 mg of Sotret daily

Washing face with Cetaphil

Using Cetaphil Moisturizer SPF 15

Applying Aquaphor LIBERALLY

Drinking PLENTY of water

Avoiding the sun.

25&Tiredofacne

Hello all.

It is day 13 into my relationship with Tane, and surprisingly not much has changed. My skin, though drier than it was a few days ago is still not that dry. The only place where it seems to be dry is around my nose. My acne hasn't changed much (at least I haven't been getting my IB--knock on wood). I got one new pimple since I started (the Chimple for those of you that have been reading my blog) and it went away in record time. My active acne seems to be retreating as well except for the GINORMOUS cyst on my jaw that apparently wants to play "third wheel" during my whole 5 month relationship with Tane. Oh how I wish that cyst would dry up and die. :naughty:

I'm not in the best of moods today and am wondering if that is due to the accutane or if I am possibly just having one of those down in the dumps woa is me kind of days. Though I know this is an accutane log I feel the need to vent some personal frustrations. My boyfriend has not been making a lot of time for me lately and it is starting to get to me. He has all these new hobbies, and while I am happy for him, it makes me feel as though he is becoming disinterested in me. And then (and here is how I will relate it all back to accutane/acne) I feel like if I had perfect skin this wouldn't happen. So here I am sad, and becoming all emotional and needy (which I am usually not) and I guess I wonder if this is due to the meds. I really hope I don't have 4 1/2 more months of this. :naughty:

Blargh. I hope tomorrow my mood is better. I also hope this stress doesn't bring on an outbreak. :naughty:

Side Effects:

SLIGHTLY drier face, especially nose

SLIGHTLY dry eyes

Chapped lips ( a little better though)

Moodiness?

Currently:

Taking 40mg of Sotret daily

Washing face with Cetaphil

Using Cetaphil SPF 15 moisurizer

Applying Aquaphor LIBERALLY

Attempting to drink lots of water (I've been bad)

25&Tiredofacne

Hello fellow Taners!

Well--it's day 10 and that means that one of those white packets filled with pills has hit the road. I am officially done with one pack of pills--YAY! So nothing much to report other than I am sleeping more than usual, which is actually good for me since I am getting a solid 8 or 9 hours in. Wish the Tane would prevent me from waking up in the middle of the night--I would love to nip that in the bud. The other thing I am realizing is that I seem to be dreaming a lot more. Now mind you, I usually remember my dreams, but I seem to be having some really random dreams that seem very realisitc much more so than usual.

So the dry lips are becomming more noticable, as are the dry eyes but still not uncomfortably so. I THINK my skin is starting to dry out, but I will wait a few days to make sure I am not imagining things. :naughty: Though I suppose that means my skin will get really dry and flaky which I am also not looking forward to. Sigh, the things we do for beautiful skin.

Side Effects:

Chapped Lips (though not bad)

Dry Eyes (though not bad)

Dryish Skin

A little tired

Crazy, realistic dreams (though not convinced caused from accutane)

Currently:

Taking 40mg of Sotret daily

Washing face with Cetaphil

Using Cetaphil SPF 15 moisturizer

Drinking PLENTY of water

Appling Aquaphor LIBERALLY

AVOIDING the sun

25&Tiredofacne

Hello fellow acne battlers!

Well I have some good news to post today! My chimple (the hideous chin pimple that had formed on my chin and was promising to be a doozy and turn into a cyst) has decided to dry up and not come out to play! I cannot begin to tell you what a relief this is. Just to give you a little insight into my euphoria--for the past 2 years of so 90% of my acne has been of the cystic variety (maybe not starting as such but inevitably turning into a massive painful lump). And these loverly little "friends" would hang around with me for MONTHS. Seriously people MONTHS before they would deflate and turn into flat red marks that I actually welcome because I can cover them easily with makeup (sorry boys, I know you have it rough). So perhaps that will help you understand why a developing cyst going away in 24 hours has me bouncing off the walls. :naughty:

And it is making the threat of an IB seem less terrifying as well. I mean, if the average IB lasts a couple of weeks or so, and each pimple lasts no longer than that, well hell I'm still far better off than I was before I signed my life away and started taking the Tane. I just hope they all go that smoothly, though I am realistic and am sure that it will not.

The other news I have for you is that I woke up today with chapped lips-the first time since I started the meds. Not severely chapped mind you, but enough that the first thing I did after waking up was reach over for my aquaphor. I hate chapped lips, but this kind of made me proud. Like I had gone through a rite of passage of sorts. Or as though I had officially been initiated into the Tane Club.

Okay, thats all for today. I am going to try and post some pics this weekend but I am a little terrified of doing so. It's kind of like being naked--I feel so exposed. :naughty:

Oh one last question for you veterans out there--can anyone recommend a good mositurizer with a high SPF in it that isn't too greasy or thick? I am currently using Cetaphil SPF 15, but I am a pale gal and feel that may not quite do the trick.

Side Effects:

SLIGHTLY dry/chapped lips

SLIGHTLY dry eyes

Skin SLIGHTLY more oily than normal

Hmmmm....do we detect a pattern?

Currently:

Taking 40mg of Sotret once daily

Washing face with Cetaphil

Using Cetaphil SPF 15 moisturizer

Using Aquaphor LIBERALLY

Drinking PLENTLY of water

Avoiding the sun!

25&Tiredofacne

Well kiddos--

After complaining that I was afraid that Mr. Tane didn't love me as much as he loves the others, he decided to prove his undying devotion towards me and leave me with a little gift just to show he cares. Namely, a big red (what is sure to become a cyst) pimple on my chin...right smack in the middle of it so that it cannot under any circumstances be hidden from view. :naughty:

Oh well, I suppose this means the meds really are working and pushing all the lurking pimples to the surface so I can banish them once and for all. Gross. I can't wait for the day when yucky pimples don't consume my thoughts. Or when I don't have to position myself so that my "best side" (ie: the clear side of my face, which BTW is my left side if anyone cares) is the one that people see more of. Does anyone else do that, or is it just me? :naughty:

Anyways other than the hill that will soon form into Mount Everest that is currently occupying my chin, nothing much to tell. My lips still aren't that chapped (which may be because I slather on the Aquaphor b/c dry lips scare me). My face still seems more oily than normal (how long is that supposed to last anyways??). My eyes do seem to be a little more dry, though not enough to really bother me enough to switch to my glasses. I think the one new side effect that I am noticing is that the corners of my nose seem to be getting red and irritated.

That's it for now--will write again soon with more details about the Chimple (chin pimple) situation.

Side Effects:

Skin still SLIGHTLY more oily than usual

Eyes SLIGHTLY dry

Corners of nose dry, red and irritated

Currently:

Taking 40mg of Sotret daily

Washing face with Cetaphil

Using Cetapil 15 spf moisturizer

Drinking PLENTLY of water

AVOIDING THE SUN AT ALL COSTS!! (I'm pale and burn badly to begin with...no need to make it worse with the tane!)

25&Tiredofacne

Hmmm....I am starting to get concerned that the accutane is not working properly. I mean my face is slightly more oily, but other than that I don't really see any changes. I know, I know, it has only been six days. But I guess I read other people's blogs and some experience such drastic changes in six days. I feel like my lips still aren't that dry, my skin still relatively the same acne-wise, and other than I am sleeping more than I have (8 or 9 hours a night vs. the usual 6 or 7) I don't really notice any difference. Although...maybe this isn't necessarily a bad thing. Maybe I will skip the dreaded IB altogether and go straight to having clear skin...blargh how I wish this were true! :naughty:

Okay, so I know that I am jumping the gun a little bit but it still felt good to get it out there! Or maybe Mr. Tane doesn't like me as much as he likes others...

And I totally haven't been drinking as much water as I should be--my bad.

Side effects:

Skin SLIGHTLY more oily, other than that none

Currently:

Taking 40mg of Sotret once daily

Washing face with Cetaphil

Using Cetaphil with SPF 15 moisturizer in AM

Using Aquaphor on lips despite no apparent dryness

Trying to drink plenty of water (and failing miserably past 2 days)

Avoiding the sun.

25&Tiredofacne

Day 3

Bon Jour! Day 3 is here and despite my looking into the mirror every five seconds there really isn't much news to report. I think I may be slightly more oily than normal (I'm not usually very oily--I go through periods of TOTAL oilyness followed by longer periods of drier skin). Also I had a slight headache and backache yesterday, but given the fact that my monthly "gift" has made an appearence I highly doubt it is to blame on my new relationship with Tane. No side effects as of yet though I have been doing a pre-emptive strike on dry lips by slathering my lips with aquaphor. **Side note on this: Spent the night at my boyfriends house last night and when I got over there I had just put on another (it's addicting okay :naughty: ) application of aquahor when he greets me with a kiss. After he pulls away he looks at my lips and says "what do you have on those, it feels like an oil slick!". Hmmm....I don't have the heart to tell him that the flaky lips will be worse.... Oh, and I think my eyes may be a little more dry than usual but I wont confirm that for sure since I spent countless hours reading these blogs before deciding to start Tane and might be convincing myself I feel dry eyes since that is a side effect I am really scared of. :naughty:

Alright--that's it for now!

Currently:

Taking 40mg of Sotret once daily

Taking Yaz BC

Washing face with Cetaphil

Using Cetaphil SPF 15 moisterizer

Applying Aquaphor liberally

DRINKING TONS OF WATER!!!

25&Tiredofacne

Well ladies and gentlemen. I finally did it. I swallowed the ugly yellow pill that is supposed to do wonders for my skin with a spoonful of peanut butter (So I haven't gone grocery shopping in what seems like forever and that was the product with the most fat content that still looked okay to eat :naughty: ). My relationship with tane has officially begun. I hope he is nice to me and treats me with respect (and doesn't give me to bad of an IB which I am DREADING) :naughty:

So nothing to report as far as side effects or improvement (wishful thinking) as of yet! I'll keep you posted as often as I can!

Also can you use any OTC products while on accutane, at least until the horribly drying occurs? ie: bp, etc? My dermatologist is nice enough, but didn't really go in depth as far as what I should/shouldn't be doing other than not getting pregnant. Oh, and is it safe to have a couple of drinks every other week or so? I have read mixed comments on this site.

Until next time...

Currently:

40 mg of Sotret daily

Cetaphil facewash

Cetaphil moisturizer with spf 15

DRINKING PLENTY OF WATER AND AVOIDING THE SUN!

25&Tiredofacne

Well hello fellow strugglers with acne! If the title of my entry wasn't obvious, it is the night before I start begin my journey while taking accutane and let me tell you--I am TERRIFIED! But as terrified as I am, I am also excited and dare I say hopeful?? I'm a 25 yr old female who has battled acne since I was about 12. Actually I remember getting my first pimples at 10. I have tried every product under the sun including (but not limited to) Differen, Tazorac, Finacea, Retin-A, Proactiv, as well as a slew of antibiotics such as minocyclin, tetracyclin, doxycyclin, etc. While the antibiotics worked for awhile, my skin was never perfectly smooth and inevitably the pills stopped working. Then about 2 years ago I developed a case of the thing I am sure we all fear most--cystic acne. :naughty:

I truly believe that cystic acne is one of the worst things a person can endure. Though I had dealt with pimples for years, suddenly these pimples were bigger, more painful, harder to disguise with makeup and sometimes lingered for months. For anyone on this site that has never dealt with cystic acne, it is the worst. It took a major toll on my self esteem and still has. It affects my lifestyle. I don't like spending the night at people's houses b/c I don't want them to see me w/o my makeup for fear of what they might think. I love the water, yet hate swimming with people b/c my makeup might come off and they might see what I really look like. Sometimes on the really bad days I refuse to go out with friends or my boyfriend b/c I feel so unattractive. It's amazing how much my skin consumes my thoughts. I find myself staring at people's skin constantly comparing mine to theirs and wishing mine were better. I want to be able to pass by the mirror and look at my reflection and not avoid mirrors for fear of what new "friend" might have formed on my face. Most of all I AM TIRED OF HAVING TO WEAR MAKEUP!!! I want to be able to wake up next to my boyfriend, and stare at him without my makeup and not think "oh my god he must think I am hideous".

Okay enough of my sob story. :naughty: I am finally being proactive (not to be confused with the skin care regime that did not work for me) and doing something (albeit a little drastic) about my acne!

I just wanted to thank everyone for their blogs regarding their own experiences with accutane--reading them for the past month or so has given me the courage to start up with accutane myself.

Here's to us all finding the gorgeous skin we know is lurking beneath the surface! :naughty:

And thus my romance with 'tane officially begins...

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