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    asiyaaa
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    eleven more days till one month !!!
    my skin in terms of acne has been regular/bad, I've gotten a few more new pimples. before i started accutane i had a lot of blackheads on my nose but the texture of my nose was still smooth but now its become very rough and dry…maybe i'll try exfoliating. i have rosacea (thats what another derm said but i feel like its more my skin being really pale and my acne red and inflamed but anyway), and I've found that my face gets red in weird place nowadays but i have read that accutane does cause redness. also my chin and area of cheek near to my nose have started to become dry. lips are alright   

  1. TheHeartItRaces
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    Well, almost done 4 months. I'm definitely not where I thought I would be with this accutane, and that is super discouraging. I don't think I've ever been this upset over my skin. I'm obsessed with how it looks, like never before. Now I'm worried about other things this accutane might do and very self-conscious. I'm always wearing sweaters or shirts that cover most of my neck, back, and arms. I try to avoid mirrors so that I actually don't even have to look at my body acne. My face has a new pimple every day. And usually very noticeable ones. I have a pretty good routine when it comes to my skin. Shower once, or twice, a day. Moisturize. Toner. Acne cream or Tea Tree Oil. Doctor said I have acne scarring and to even get started on that I would need 3 months after my accutane to start even thinking about it. I'm sad. I've never felt so defeated over something. I feel trapped inside my body. I actually don't want to scare anyone because I feel like everyone has thoughts like this but I just figured how much more comfortable i'd feel out of my body and how I just wouldn't feel this need to constantly hide or cover up my body or skin. I just don't want this anymore, I feel so betrayed by own body when I try to love everyone so big no matter what. Why can't I just feel like that, why does this make me feel so small and powerless. I just want something to work. Anything. I even prayed to anyone or anything to please rid me of my acne. This is the lowest I've felt about my skin ever, I really hope something happens. 

  2. today is officially my first day of claravis (isotretinoin).

    I'm on 60mg/day. I'm so relieved that I know two people close to me who have both taken accutane. I talked to both of them about it so Im really hoping thats at least two people who will understand what I'm going through.

    :/ the lab draws every month are something Im definitely not looking forward to but my first lab draw (which was a day or two before I picked up the med) wasnt too bad. Im thinking I want to rotate arms every month so my arms dont get beat up.

    I tried to do some research (on reputable sites) of foods to avoid while taking accutane but couldnt find anything. I guess I'll try skimming that little packet that comes with it. I'll skip the scary parts..although Im aware of the risks.

    I'll try writing here on this blog once a week at least since I feel like it might help someone else going through the same thing. This isotretinoin is definitely an absolute last resort for me (26 years old with acne :smileys_n_people_57: ). I have a personal journal also which I think has made a difference so I can just vent and get it all out.

    :smileys_n_people_38:Waiting for that eruption of acne that can happen with accutane before it gets better. Feels like tiptoeing and trying to avoid land mines a little bit...but Im in it for the long haul. I often get these pit of my stomach feelings where I worry: well once the acne is gone I'll then have to face all the scars left behind (which I dream wont be as bad I worry). Catch 22

    Anyway............back to reality...

    ♡A.D.
     

  3. Accutane, Day 27

    I would like to share with you the products I use in my routine to combat the negatives that accutane brings. I will be seeing my derm in a few days for my one month review and blood work. Compared to some of the nightmares I have read, I would say I am doing quite well at the moment as far as side effects. My routine consists of one wash per day, before bed.

    Face Wash
    Dan's cleanser. Full pump. Cold water only. Before and after.

    Moisturizer
    Dan's moisturizer and Dan's AHA+. Half pump each. Mix and add 7-8 drops of Jojoba Oil. I believe it's the AHA that really makes Dan's kit effective. If you're familiar with Dan's regimen, you know what I'm talking about.

    I no longer use cetaphil lotions on my face, because it is highly comedogenic, despite their claims. It breaks me out with cystic acne. When I used Dan's full kit, cetaphil worked very well for me. The occasional cyst was worth the needed hydration. But because the lotion sits directly on my skin and not over a layer of toner and benzoyl peroxide gel, the irritation is amplified. Also, I believe accutane changes the chemistry of our skin. What was once beneficial, may have an opposite effect.

    Lips      
    Three step process. Apply 2 drops of Jojoba oil to lips using finger tip. Coat lips with balm of choice. My go to is Badger balm tangerine, followed by Dr. Dan's Cortibalm. Lastly, come back later and cover with Aquaphor to lock in the moisture. Touch up throughout the day if needed. DO NOT LICK YOUR LIPS!

    On a side note, I would recommend asking your derm about antibiotics while on accutane, specifically Bactrim. It is one of the few that is allowed while on accutane. I was granted use for seven days. It saved me. I will explain in a future entry. Just keep in mind, it's always an option for when disaster strikes.

  4. YellowCopy
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    SO, I've been using acne.org since june 2017. It worked wonders for me. After about 2 months on the regime i had COMPLETELY clear skin for a couple of months. Now i think I've slacked on the regime, i still use BP and for the most part i was fine. but RECENTLY MY SKIN IS STARTING TO BREAK OUT HOW IT USED TO AGAIN. Im getting acne on my forehead which I HAS BEEN COMPLETELY CLEAR SINCE WEEK 2 ON THE REGIME. :(

  5. ZAla3
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    I forgot to update last week but anyway Im probably going to be going off spironolactone very soon. I havent gotten my period since i started it and its almost been 2 months. In the beginning i just thought it was late because mine arent very regular but its been way too long. My parents are worried so I have to go to the doctor and then back to the derm to see whats wrong and most likely go on a different medication. Does this happen to other women on spironolactone?

  6. Karen

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    Hello everyone!

    I've used acne.org for years now, and it's been a wonderfully helpful community for me as I struggled with acne and finding the products and regimen that work for me. If any of you are on Instagram, I wanted to share a new account that focuses on the emotional/psychological impact of acne, and hopes to publish stories of overcoming self image issues associated with acne or other skin issues.

    Their tag is "clearskinofficial" https://www.instagram.com/clearskinofficial/

    Hope to see your inspirational stories
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  7. SkittlesMM
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    Week 13 - Just this week I started doing 20mg at night and 10 in the morning every other day and 10mg at night and 10mg in the morning the rest of the days. I hope to be at 30mg everyday within the next 2weeks. 

    So this was the first month that I was cyst free! It felt amazing to go through Christmas and New Years holidays with a cyst free face! I am not sure if my antibiotics from my kidney infection and then for after my surgery helped bring cyst free cause after being off of them for a week I got a inflammatory bump that didn't quite turn into a cyst or zit but was definitely trying to. I dunno, this could have been from missing 2 days of accutane because I forgot to pack it when I went out of town and or the fact that the 2 nights before I got the somewhat bump I woke up in a pool of my own drool stuck to my chin. Who knows, but I thought it was time to up it. Hopefully when I see my doctor at the end of the month she will agree. When I saw her 2 weeks ago, she mentioned if i'm clear at 6 months she is thinking of taking me off accutane. I definitely expressed my dislikeo of that idea and not wanting to do that so she said we can negotiate that when the time comes. I'm thinking the fact I still got a bump will help convince her to up me slightly so that I can be at least at the recommended dosage for my weight and cut my length to 8ish months.  I still have redness and a white scar area from past cysts and I wish it would look a little better without make-up but oh well, I'm happy. I still get almost sweat teeny tiny bumps but they go away quickly as long as I don't pick them. 

    I can not tell you the freedom and emotional strength that has occurred with being cyst free. While I still need to work on self-confidence, it is SOOO much easier to do being cyst free! I feel so free. I know it's not without it's side effects, the dry skin and tired dry eyes are pretty bad but nothing horrible. OVerall, I'm just so thankful. 

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    FriendlyCongo
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    So its been a few days and all I have is one pimple under my nose on its way out and another small lip pimple which dried up! The true test is when I'm on my period, and I have about 5 days left before I start the sugar pills, fingers crossed. My scars are even healing up which is really nice and I finally feel like I can leave the house without concealing my scars. Cant wait to see whats in store for month three....hopefully good things. 

  8. peskypimples
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    Coming to an end... I can't believe I have been on this medication for around 7 MONTHS! I cant even describe how good it feels to say that I have not had a single breakout in a month and my skin is completely flat and smooth. Now I do have some post redness which my dermatologist says will fade within 3 months of coming off accutane. I do have very minimal atrophic scarring on my cheeks which I will be doing some sort of treatment but not for at least 6 months. I think it is time to give my skin a break and let it regenerate once I come off the medication! 

    My Skin Routine... Nothing has changed from my skin routine and I still continue to use all the same products. I plan to stick with my regimen as I am very hesitant as to what I now put on my skin. I continue to drink around 10-12 cups of water a day which I highly recommend, makes a difference on your skin! 

    This blog was created so I can now help people and answer any questions about the accutane experience and how it does take time!! My next post will not be for another 3 months of being off accutane. Look forward to the redness going down! Stay Tuned :) 

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  9. So I had my follow up appointment for accutane. I went in and asked a couple of questions that I couldn't find online or in the book and at the end I did a urine test. I have been prescribed 80mg start to finish, every day, for 4 months. I think I will ask my dermatologist for a longer but lower dosage. This is a super short entry but there really isn't much to update on. 
    My skin had been breaking out like mad. It is mostly targeted around the bottom half of my cheeks and it is mainly cystic acne or little whiteheads. I noticed that the ones that have healed have left behind really terrible discoloration. I can't wait to get on take :smileys_n_people_41:

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    Depressedwithmyface
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    Skin is clear except for 2 or 3 older pimples which are about to flatten. Adaplene has ruined my cheeks making them rashy and red so havent used it throughout the week. Acne are still under control so i am thinking of eliminating any topical on my face and giving it time to heal and get back to normal. Currently i just moisturize my face. After 4 weeks i have to visit my derm and he will start the process of improving the texture of skin and eliminating PIH. Hoping to not get any new acne and improving my skin texture in the remaining 3 weeks.
    Will be posting before and after pics in 4 weeks.
  10. school is starting again, which means a more hectic routine. unfortunately i have not properly followed the regimen in the mornings, only making time a couple days in the week to moisturize before heading out into the bitter cold and nothing else. i've continued to follow the procedure at night and plan to figure out a way to make time in my rushed mornings for skincare.
    also unfortunately, my skin is beginning to appear flaky, especially around my mouth, which is peculiar, because i rarely, if ever, go out of my way to apply BP to that area. i've just finished applying a generous amount of moisturizer - i look a little like a ghost before it's done sinking in. hopefully the flakiness improves.
    i have a few new pimples, but i can attribute them either to just having gotten my period, slipping up in the mornings, or both. i'm still happy with my progress - my girlfriend commented how soft my skin is, and i silently thanked my new twice-a-day moisturizer habit.

  11. Happy New Year!

    I started my isotretinoin journey on September 6th 2017. I was nervous after reading all the horror stories. But I thought, if it gets too bad, I will stop. And after enduring bad skin, spots, cysts and boils for the last 25 years, I didn't think there was side effect that I wouldn't manage.

    I was right. My side effects have been minimal, some dry skin on my face (which is fine with a daily moisturiser and nightly smothering of aqueous cream; a little tiredness (but that could be my age); a little stiffness during and after exercise; a little bloody mucus when blowing my nose, but that is intermittent; my eyes are dry and wet at the same time(weird I know), and that is pretty much it! My mood has been fine, no headaches, or any other side effects to note. 

    My skin is much softer and smoother, the blotches and tiny pimples I had on my face are gone. I still have some some redness to my cheeks, but I can live with that. I still have breakouts on my back (and other places) These tend to be on average about 1cm across and very painful. They last for weeks and weeks and weeks. I have redness/purpleness from older ones, but they have flattened out. On my last visit to the Derm, she said I will probably have an extra month at 60mgs, rather than increasing the dose at the moment. My next visit is 16th Jan, so we'll see what she says then. 

    I am looking forward to my skin clearing and getting a bit of sun to help with the scarring. Wrinkles are next to target!!

    Love and peace everyone! 

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    so I haven't been picking at my skin much which is COOL. I try to pay more attention to my actions & it's working. my skin's looking genuinely nice but I have a few wounds that still need to heal. that's particularly difficult cause dead dry skin seems very appealing for my picking-loving fingers

    I've ordered some natural oils and I'm excited for them to arrive. will write reviews

    there is this one huge wound under my eyebrow that's a bit gross as eyebrow hairs are growing through it and I'm not sure how to make it heal faster. Clindamycin generally helps and I know it takes time but ughhh I wish I hadn't messed it up in the first place
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    I started accutane early this month (Dec 4th 2017) and i'm going to give brief updates for everyone. My keyboard is playing up so forgive the typos
    im 21 Male and weigh 77kg

    So, I've had acne since 11yrs old, and it got considerably worse since the ages of 15 to now. I tried benzyol peroxide at 16, and this had done nothing, except control the whiteheads on chin and forehead. After this I was prescribed doxcycline 100mg which i kept taking for four years until December 2016 (as well as try several topicals both natural and medical during these years), and a few times with the GP asked for another set of antibiotics and was refused, as they said they can see my acne was considerably better (even though this was a GP i had never seen before, so not sure how she could make that judgement). Anyways, I took myself off doxcycline, and experienced no difference in skin even coming off it, and it was an absolute waste of time and probably health, and i hadn't bothered going back to the GP since 2015 (my doxcycline was a repeat prescription ,so i didn't need t o have appointments each time the pills ran out).

    The past few months my acne has shown no signs of slowing down, and i have tried oils, more benzyol peroxide, vitamin c serums, exfoliants etc, and was convinced only accutane would work. I had experienced some disgusting cysts on my front cheeks recently, and the amount of puss and blood that drained i had never experienced in almost 11 years of acne, which is saying something.

    I live in the UK and decided to go private, and simply gave my nearest dermatologist a call, and was booked in for the following week. All the while i was reading forums on this website, with the majority claiming how acne is some horror drug, and ruins your life forever, but either way, acne was ruining my life anyway so what the hell right? Contrary to the perception that accutane is hard to obtain, my experience was the most simple thing I could have done.

    I went to my derm appointment, and when i got in the doctor was taking notes and asking me about my acne history, and asked to see my back and face up close, which is not as bad as i thought it would be. He said i had completed the stage 1 of treatment for acne, and i can choose whether to move on to stage 2 or skip to stage 3. Before I could even ask for accutane, he basically recommended me to take it, and seemed as though he was pushing for me to accept this medication, instead of the other alternatives thankfully.

    Anyway the costs of this were:
    £105 consultation
    £65 blood test
    £95.50 for 110x 20mg capsules (this will last me two month, 40mg the first and 60mg the second daily)
    £105 for next consultation in 2 months and £65 again for second blood test

    Midway through week 3 now, and the only side effects are nosebleeds occasionaly, and dry skin, but i use aquaphor and oil my face with safflower oil ,and moisturise with shea butter, and its completley fine.
    In the first few days of accutane, my nose became really rough and grainy, which were the blackheads drying up, and in the past few days, they have been flaking off and is so smooth now. The whiteheads that usually pop up on my foreheads, and makes it look really rough went away during the second week, and it is now smooth as anything. I up my dosage to 60mg on the 3rd Jan
     

  12. I am now a month into using Retin-A Micro 0.08% gel, along with Clindamycin gel or Clindamycin Topical Solution. I am still breaking out, but not as much as I was before and my skin tone looks a little better than it did before I started. I had a lot of little bumps on my forehead, between my eyebrows, on my cheeks, and a few under the skin pimples that were a little big. My skin tone looked really horrible as well.  I don't get huge pimple or pimples all that much any more. I think the Retin-A is pulling out whiteheads and blackheads at this point. That's what it looks like to me. I really wish it would just stop breaking out all together so I can have my clear skin back, like I achieved a few years ago when I first went to my derm. I am sticking it out until I go back to my derm at the end of February. I was using Neutrogena Clear Pore wash with these two topicals, but I had to quit because Retin-A is a very strong retinoid and it was making my skin more red and sensitive to the Neutrogena wash. So now I use Purpose gentle cleanser and I will stick with that while I continue to use Retin-A.

    Routine: 
    Am:

    Wash with Purpose Cleanser, exfoliate flakey/dead skin off with fingers while in the shower, pat dry.
    Apply Clindamycin gel, wait 10 minutes to apply moisturizer, apply Covergirl outlast foundation & thin layer of Physicians Formula Mineral Veil powder. On the days I am not going to work, I use the Physicians Formula Correcting Kit that I got from Walmart. It's very light on my skin and doesn't break me out and gives me a break from foundation.

    Pm:
    Take off makeup with Equate Wipes, wash with Purpose cleanser 2x, pat dry, then apply Retin-A.

     

  13. About a month ago, When I started having a really severe breakout, way worse than before...I brought it to my mom's attention and told her I'd like to see a doctor. I was itching and picking at the pimples with every second I had. So finally my mom decided to take me. The doctor prescribed 'Dermovate', I was excited, but was still doubtful. I used the cream once but rubbed it off a few minutes after.and complained that it was only making my acne worse, but I was just so miserable because I wanted to see immediate progress. Acne makes you SUPER MISERABLE, so from that day on, I promised myself that I'd never use it AGAIN.

    However, my sister came over to spend Christmas with us yesterday and her face was extremely flawless... I mean it was so clean and smooth I had to ask her about it... She had acne too.

    "Remember that cream?" She said smiling.
    "You mean dermovate??"
    "Yea, I used it every night after washing my face, for four days."

    My mom gave me a 'told you so' look, she was always telling me I should've continued using it. So I decided to try it that same night. I prayed and asked God to work his miracles through this cream so it could work ... Now just this morning, I got up and went to the bathroom. I was taken aback when I saw my face in the mirror and immediately I ran to tell my mom the great news...I saw great progress in just one night. It kinda lightened my skin colour but hey, God helped me... That's most important...THANKYOU LORD!!!
    Even if after a while I get rid of them, I'm still going to stick to what I went through... I wont stop being the positive person I am... As i had said, "Your flaws cant break you, they can only make you stronger."

    HAVE A BLESSED DAY EVERYONE <3
    STILL REMEMBER POSITIVITY IS THE KEY <333

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    Hi there guys I was just wondering if someone could tell me what severity of acne I have. I have had acne since I was about 12-13 much worse than it is now. Currently I use epiduo every night with aveeno moisturiser afterwards and I use a black pore mask once a week. However despite this I continue to suffer with large red pimples under the skin that are painful and take a long time to go away. Does anyone have any tips to help get rid of these because they make me extremely unhappy and make me not want to show my face at times. Thanks a lot any help would be appreciated.
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    Hello! My name is Zoë and I’m 15. Before I start talking about the effects of this medication,I will start off with talking about the medication and later about my skin before I started taking it. When I first picked up the bottle of spirolactone from the pharmacy, I thought it was just another antibiotic. I had no idea about a peak breakout or that it takes three months to even begin to kick in. I wish I knew these things before I agreed to take it, so this blog is not only for me to track my progress, but also for people who are thinking about taking it or taking it already who could use some information. I have been on spirolactone for about two months now. (I am also taking acidophilus supplments. I can do an entry on that if you want) the first few weeks of being on spiro, I didn’t notice much. Nothing was better, and nothing was worse. After a month, my skin broke out badly. All over. Before spiro, I pretty much only broke out on my chin. Now at the two month mark,it’s in areas that haven’t broken out in years. All over my cheeks and forehead, and my chin as usual. My skin hasn’t been like this since the 5th grade. And now In the 9th grade, I feel like all I’ve done to keep my acne under control has been for nothing. All of it has come back just over the course of a couple days. My skin also gets these dark red marks after a blemish goes away. So it’s like the blemish never left. These are al over my jawline and cheeks. I contiplated giving up on the meds because I’m not sure how much patience I have left in me, but I only have about two weeks of pills left in the bottle so I’m going to reach the three month mark, and go from there. If my skin has not changed or is worse by that point, then RIP my self esteem and I’m going to ask my dermatologist for about the fourth time about birth control. If it improves, then I’ll get a refill and continue this blog. Keep in mind, everyone’s skin is different. Mine just happens to suck. Your experience might be a lot better than mine. This is just for some input from someone who has had experience. I hope this blog helps, and I’ll update next week. :) 

  14. sh1234
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    Okie dokie well here i am, the day after my December 22nd challenge.. and i must say im pretty happy with where my skins at right now. It was *decent enough* for my hair appt yesterday, and i found something while shopping yesterday that i think will hit it home. Its a retinol cream i found at winners, i used it last night and already could see an improvement this morning. Will keep using! My picking has been pretty under control since theres not much to pick at right now. However, I did have an under the skin golfball on my forhead for a few days. Like, i dont know what it was. It was like, not cystic, not a pimple, just my forehead swelled up LOL. I would put asprin mask on it and ice it and take an aspirin and eventually it went down. Merp.

  15. TeenGirl14
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    so um yeah i said i'd update on Fridays *awkward silence* hehe um...it's Saturday.
    but anyhoo um i've been thinking about adding in a new addition to my skincare routine because i found out that a benzoyl peroxide cleanser has been made and i seriously think i need to add this in cause everything i use isn't exactly made to fight the acne bacteria like benzoyl peroxide does so i'm putting this in and yeah alot of people say that benzoyl peroxide and salicylic acid  shouldn't go together but hey my friends mum is a dermatologist and she said that they are quite a good mixture because one helps the scars and another fights the acne and blackheads, well she didn't use those exact words cause like she was saying quite alot of smart words but then i asked her to translate it back to me but in a more understandable sentence so yeah.

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    so this is what it looks like and i'm feelin pretty siked about it and i hope this goes well cause i seriously need a break from acne,blackheads and scars for like FOREVER!!
    SALUTE SOLDIERS!!!

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    I am in my first month of accutane and I hate it so far. I was able to slow down how dry I am already as I kept over moisturizing right when I started. But right now I am going through the first initial break out and I have never been in so much pain. This is unlike any there break out. This is extremely cystic and I have multiple at once. I have been doing warm compresses, ice, applying apple cider vinegar, hydrocortisone cream, etc. And onceI get rid of one, many others appear. How can I prevent the number of cysts DURING accutane and how can I decrease their life span? Thanks in advance.
  16. Helloooooo world. This is my pre-Accutane story. This post will be the first for a while, until I start my Accutane journey. I do realise that people probably aren't reading this, but I believe this is good for my thought process and mental health, as well as being someone to talk to.
    My acne really started when I was 14, which slowly flared up for a few months before I saw my GP who prescribed me Duac - a drying topical treatment. This supper dried out my skin, made it very red and made my face horrible to look at (Not only did I hate my skin, I felt sorry my classmates had to see it). A few months after this had failed to produce a result (other than worsening my skin) I was prescribed Lymecycline hard capsules by my GP. They were my saviour!!..... for all of 14 months. They cleared up my skin really well and made it well normal really. Fastforward to now. I'm 16 and I started college in September, the exact time that my skin started to deteriorate. I came off Lymecycline because I felt it wasn't working anymore (in hindsight a bad move) and was prescribed Oxytetracycline, which I'm still on now, along with a new topical - Acnecide. This having also failed me, has led to my GP referring me to dermatology. I will start Accutane once the cogs are in place.
    Currently, I'm frustrated at my skin, I am scared of the effects of Accutane, I'm optimistic of Accutane....but more than anything I feel isolated. My friends are not clued up on what ive been going through (apart from the appalling state of my face) and I don't know how or if I will tell them about Accutane. I dont know how I will deal with the effects, when already I hide my face in public with my hair, do anything to not meet peoples gaze in conversation, I dont turn on the bathroom light when I go in there so I dont have to see ho bad my skin is in the mirror, I cancel plans so people dont see my skin. I'm scared of becoming depressed and not being strong enough to find a way out of it. (blimey this has become deeper than even I intended)

    This will be my bare-faced blog, both literally and metaphorically, I want you all (if anyone is reading this)  to know what's going on inside my head as well as what's going on with my skin.

    Until next time,
    Rupy.