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How can i live like this? cancer is better then this

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To start, i started to get a few acne spots about 3 years ago. After the first spot, it all went downhill from there. Ive been having breakouts, one after the other, CONSISTENTLY for 3 years. Ive visited around 30 different GPs and quite a handful of specialists. anyways, for the first few months, everyone kept telling me that they are just temporary, and that they`ll go away. but as we all know they dont. Anyways now, my acne is almost on my entire face. I have a little bit of scarring also. I have cysts all over my face. i dont even get out of my house now.

i just go to the university, i dont talk to anyone. I just go and come back and sleep. But i just went to a new GP and asked him to put me on accutane. im gonna start with a heavy dose within a week. they say it has side effect like bad skin and suicide attempts, well, my skin cant get any worse and suicide ... well if i didnt do it till now i dont think ill do it anytime later.

There are usually four five days a month when i dont have ugly cysts on my face and it looks comparitively good. i gather up enough courage to talk to a few people but then i get another breakout and thats it. Back to the normal life.

anyways, ending it, i am going to try accutane. if that doesent work, ill definetly end up takin my life. although i know its wrong. but 99% of the people who post messeges here have only mild acne. i have SEVERE CYSTIC acne. and you dont know how bad i feel about myself.

I just wish that accutane works. otherwise im gonna end.

i would really appreciate it if some sincere people would reply to my post and tell me if accutane works for severe acne. and please be sincere, ive heard "oh you`ll get better, its just a matter of time" all my life.

i wish i had cancer or aids or something. atleast i wouldnt have to live with shame. :D

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Hey man...if Accutane worked on anything....it's severe acne. It actually works better on worse acne than just mild little shit. I have fairly bad acne when I started Accutane...then of course I had the initial breakout and all hell broke loose. I'm now 2 and a half months into the treatment (halfway through) and my face is looking better almost every day.....literally. I have a total of about 10 zits left and a lot of red spots that have faded a lot already...just more time for those to fade. I have some scarring, not really bad, and I continue to get about 1 new zit a day...but that's a LOT better than how I use to be.

I thought about suicide every day and night too man.....I told myself that if accutane didn't work then I was gonna do it. If I have any advice for you, it's that you should do accutane and see how you feel about your face after your treatment is over. It's what I had to do. Just take each day at a time....and trust me...IT"S SO GOD DAMN SLOW!!! But it'll be worth it in the end, I know it will. Acne has destroyed my life for the last 4 years or more, and i'm getting nearer and nearer to the day that i'm 100 % clear. So....take it a day at a time, and we're here for ya man.

P.S. How many mg's are you gonna be taking of accutane? I'm on 80 mg a day. How long will your treatment be? And how much do you weigh?

-Shawn-

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Guest agentx

Hi,

Thanks for posting a reply. Today is just one of those days when i fell REALLY down. it sure helps to discuss with someone. I am 55 KGz and i dont really know how much dosage i would get because its still another 2 weeks before i go to the derm, he told me to do the liver blood test or somethin. and gave me an appointment for 2 weeks later. They are always busy. anyways hopefully ill start accutane after 2 weeks. ill tell them to give me high dosage. i dont care about the side affects. cant be any worse then looking at myself in the mirror.

i was so outgoing, never stayed at home. I almost knew the whole city before this happened :D now i hardly know my neighbour. I just hope that accutane works.

PS. is accutane the same as ro-accutane?

Thanks.

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Cool man, i'd say at least take like 60 mg or 80 mg each day. If your doc says to take like 10 or 20mg, then go somewhere else....cuz you'll be on accutane FOREVER with that low of a dose.

And yeah, the side effects i've had are: REALLY dry lips, dry rashes on my arms, dry neck, dry eyes, a few nosebleeds....and that's about it. But i'd rather live with these the rest of my life and have clear skin cuz I know exactly how you feel. My mood was up and down every few hours, even every few minutes. One minute i'm like LIFE IS GOOD!! Then 2 minutes later i'm crying cuz I looked in the mirror or something.

I believe ro-accutane is for people outside the U.S. if i'm not mistaken. But it's ultimately the same thing. Accutane/Roaccutane...same thing.

Well man, keep us updated...and stick it out man....like I said...take each day at a time. Your acne will get worse before it gets better....but it's soooo worth it. Peace man

-Shawn-

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You are going to love accutane. I am on my 10th day and had my nice little initial breakout. I had moderate acne and now my face is a pile of pus, but guess what, I don't even care. When I woke up today and saw what had become of my face, I laughed because I knew it was an easy battle from this point on. Once you get past the initial breakout, it is clear sailing from there. Good luck with accutane and don't listen to all the horror stories some people say. They are a small group of hundreds of thousands of users.

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Hi ..

I had SEVERE ACNE too, it began when i was like 12, every laughed....now im 15 and im on heavy accutane, for like 7 months in a roe

and now im clear!!! I SWEAR it will work...it works on 98% of all people.

Now to the scars: we are pretty young people, the scars will heal in a matter of time....

ACCUTANE is like the best thing ever happened to me, in my acne period

I hope this will work for you too

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Just don't kill yourself when you get the horrible initial breakout :twisted:

That and don't kill yourself when you see the scarring you'll get afterwards. :wink:

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i wish i had cancer or aids or something. atleast i wouldnt have to live with shame.

im not sure what this post is about, i just skimmed though it but i think i can tell by the title....believe me no matter now bad acne is/gets you'd never want aids, cancer trusts me. I really get pissed off and angry when people write things like that, i duno maybe its because i know alot of people who have SUFFERED and died from it...but believe me if you had cancer/aids you'll pray that acne was only the problem...

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