I've had acne since high school. I've seen dermatologists on and off since then and have been on every treatment under the sun. Finally about a few months ago my derm said it was time to start accutane. I was elated at the thought of having clear skin. I'm week 5 of accutane and I still have horrible skin. I have big painful cysts on my cheeks that needed to be injected w cortisone and my forehead is still breaking out

i am truly devastated. I really thought accutane was gonna be my miracle. I don't have severe acne but I have a very small face and I get HUGE cysts so even when I have 4-5 cysts my whole face essentially looks covered. It's really disfiguring and makes me so upset. I have a really crazy job where I work 90 hours a week and on my days off all I want to do is enjoy myself w my friends and family but I always shy away from plans because of my skin. I am constantly googling and reading about acne because I want so badly for it to go away. It feels like someone other than me has control over my face. I Want to work on my body and my clothes and makeup but feel absolutely paralyzed by my acne. I keep reading about people who are still breaking out 4-5 months into accutane and very much foresee that being me given ow bad things are right now

I am devastated. I don't know how to accept that acne is going to be a part of my life forever.