im so depressed right now bt thts wht i get for being such a idiot
i was talking to this person tht i kinda like n would like as a friend n we had a convo abt some things n everything was great until things started to touch some substances n abt effects on ur body n stuff like tht n as soon as tht happened i automatically switched into research mood n kinda become manic abt drawing some info out of them
the thing is i said some things tht i only later realised they couldve been uncomfortable abt or relate to (cos i fkn said so obv af) n i guess got offended. i just fucking killed everything. i didnt meant tht abt them at all!!! bt i was in this science mood n just wanted to find out everything asap again tht wasnt thinking abt wht i say ><
now im so depressed cos it probably depressed them too, deff made everything soo awkward
oh god how i hate myself right now, y i couldnt hv been normal nd healthy tht doesnt wory abt this kinda shit. its just made everything lame n just tastes so bad now, fuking topic u just dnt discuss with someone u like omg wht was i thinking >< bt im so fkng desperate to figure out everything i cant control myself
they wont talk to me now, i know, nd idk how to fix this now
it is all shit acnes n diseases fault
omg just how could i poop up such a good progress with this person..well it wasnt even tht good ><; bt today everything went well n then i fuking went into med mode n just pooped everything with my blaah i said. they r easily depressed person it seems n idk wht they think now. im just feeling so hella bad right now >< they wont ever talk to me bcs its just so lame now..wth do i do now? cant stop thinking now, stressing as hell...its such a gross topic abt declean n whtnot, u probs gotta b informed on it tho etc bt i didnt want to talk abt it with this person at all >< oh god! its awkward forever now. i just killed everything. wht do i ever do now ><
