This is my first post here and I decided that I wanted to tell my story to those it may concern. Starting with the fact that I have never really felt happiness ever im serious. All my life ive been a bit depressed and just made through it, when i was a young kid i was bullied a lot and people would steal my like 1 dollar i had for candy and all my life my parents have been fighting and my father well i hate him and he is a maniac. Ive never had a father to son talk and never had my father take me anywhere nice in my life. Ive lived in a small dirty apparment my whole life and i thought it could not get worse right??

Well as i got older the social pressure is killing me, since puberty ive been developing acne and the one that like hurts and feels like my face is burning and i dont have like extreme severe much acne but i have a lot still and some cystc even and blackheads. When i was young atleast there was no social pressure but now i feel like growing older also makes everything tougher. Everybody just thinks i dont take care of my skin and that im a disgusting human being and now im just so tired and sick of it. I mean my life sucked from the beginning why did i have to get acne to make it even worse ); I have not accomplished anything in my life and i feel like the biggest looser in the world. Everyday every single damn day i feel ashamed of myself and its such a burden to live with. Its not just the acne its that combined with so many other factors and having oil drip from your face just feels so uncomfortable its such a burden.

The funny thing is ive never been a bad person ive always been kind to people and ive never ever been arrogant, i dont go around walking tough, i go around walking like the looser i am. I then decided to call out for help beyond this world and begged God and prayed everyday to just make my life worth living and that i could atleast live without the burning acne. The next day well i woke up with a new cyst. At the end of the day i just feel like why did this happen to me? why me? im a good person why do i have to go through this? Am crying while writing this so yes go ahead call me a looser and a weakling. The fact people are so mean at school and say so many bad things about me and make fun of me just to be cool );

One last thing, i know there are people without food and water suffering and people killed but i swear to god whats the point in having food and water when you have a life not worth living? I wish u all the best guys from the bottom of my heart i hope all of you be happy, just wanted to write down what i feel you know );