Honestly guys, I am not the one to bitch and whine, and if I do I usually keep it to myself. But now I feel like I am losing it.

I am 23 and I had shitty skin since I was 14 or so. I was shy and awkward and moving to a foreign country for college did not make it any easier. I just accepted that it was what teenagers go through and I probably had it a bit worse, but thought: "OK, I'll study really hard now, do my thing and party later." Well, it is 5 years later now. I poured hours and hours and hours of of time in reading, researching, choosing topicals, applying them and I thought I had it under control. Some red post-acne spots, some blocked pores, but generally under control. I am no longer shy and awkward anymore, despite my skin. So I decided to catch up, go out there and find out what I missed in the last 5 years. And exactly last week I had two beautiful girls falling for me and flirting with me heavily.

Today I have a date with one of them, a very cute and a bit shy redhead. And also since yesterday I spot 4 new deep cysts in my lower lip which I did not have since I was 18. The swollen spots look red an bumpy and are so painful it sometimes hurts to talk. It will probably take them at least a day or two to dissolve if I use a lot of ice and BP with antibiotic on them. But then there will also be a spot which will take longer.

I would have probably accepted it tacitly as I always did one week ago. But I was really looking forward to spend some time with this girl.

I waited 5 bloody years, wasted months of my life, thousands of dollars on this bloody acne. I have not had deep cysts for years already. And it comes NOW??!!! NOW???!!! 2 days before I have a date??!!! So badly that I cringe from pain when I talk???!!! What the hell is happening? I feel so cheated, so damn cheated out of all fucking work I have done so far. It is a slap in the face.

I will still call her in a day or two when my face gets better. And today I will go work on those weights in a gym. But, god, this is just screwed up.