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well im one of the people that let acne affect us to the point that we avoid socialising whenever possible. so now my sisters engagement party is this saturday and I <sarcasm> CANT WAIT! </sarcasm>. anyway, ive got these pimples just below the corner of my mouth, they stay dormant for months (I cant just notice them but prolly noone else can) then come out to say hello for a few weeks, no matter what I do they never go away for good. well for the last two days ive felt the fuckers coming up, now the whole area is red, most of my face is clear so it's definatly an attention grabber, and there are 3 distinct bright red, irritatred pimples arising, they'll hit maximum fuckness on saturday.. JUST PERFECT! evil.gif

I was dreading the night badly enough as it was, there will be alot of photo's taken and I will be forced to be in many of them, but now I just feel sick in my stomach.

had to vent, theres nothing anyone can do or say to lessen my dread.

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number one, don't stress, that will either make things worse, or at least make them appear worse. i would suggest getting a facial if at all possible before the big day. if not, you can do one at home. here's a step by step at home facial. seriously, it'll all be okay. get some cover up for saturday, stay calm. i think people will be paying more attention to your sister than to your face. if pictures are taken, flash a smile, because that's much more noticable than a few spots. good luck! smile.gif

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dude ive found that Clean and clear blachead clearing SA wash has reduced the lifespan of zits like what your talking about....worth a shot??? makes your skin feel awesome too....

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thanks

I might not have been clear enough on this. I avoid contact with anyone whenever possible, including pharmacists. I dont talk to my parents about my skin or how I feel. Basically Im too much of a wuse, pussy, loser, im paranoid, scared, embarrased and overly shy, so the only way I can get anything to help fight the acne is online. Unfortunatley I dont have a credit card (no contact with people = no job = no credit card), but I did find one local online store that accepts direct debit, sadly they dont have any of the stuff i'd like to try (nature's cure, herbal logix, dan's bp, eucerin renewal) and they dont have product ingredients listed so its hard to find any stuff with the goodies im after.

I'd wear make-up.. if i was a female... I already feel like enough of a dickhead. I'd smile, if my smile wasnt terrible and me teeth weren't shithouse, and if my skin wouldnt go all red and flaky afterwards. Photos are a real prick, always knew i had a big red nose, but when i look at a photo it becomes obvious just how asymmetrical the fucker is.

I'm hoping to get the nerve to ask my mum if I can use her credit card. twenty one and still a little loser.

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if your acne is something that really stops you from living your life, you really need to do something about it, babe. have you seen a dermatologist to discuss different options, like oral medications, topicals or even accutane?? you're 21, that's too young to be pent up in your room like a hermit. talk to your parents about how you feel, i'm sure they'll do whatever they can to help you achieve happiness. most parents want to see their children happy. i really think you should look into the many different options that are out there. wear some cover up, don't feel like an asshole, at lot of guys with acne wear a little and it's not even noticable. sure, you may feel embaressed going into the store to get it, but, who cares what other people think? if acne is this big of a hinderence on your life, do what you can to fight it.... just my thoughts. good luck. smile.gif

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Hey nevermind,

This is Ellen. I appreciate you reading my posts. You sound a lot like me. I used to be sooo bothered with going in public. I avoided all possible human contact, which, unfortunately, is not possible. That is when I decided something has to change. I chose roaccutane after months of scarring deliberation. I literally changed my mind about 50 times every day. "yes, I'll take it." "No, what if I go blind?" Over and over and over.

Well, I really hope you find a way to be confident enough to get out of the house and live. I know it's easier said than done. I still have a lot of issues with it. My face has a lot of scars on it.

I will start reading your posts regularly. I like to hear about people and not just their acne. that's why I throw in some life stuff sometimes.

Well, take care. What is your name? I feel a little weird calling you nevermind. wink.gif

Bye,

Ellen

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Im almost 22 and i am obsessed with my skin, every little bump/blemish/spot and even mole. I feel my face is progressively getting wrose by the day, i actually cry over every tiny imperfection i see, i just know im going to crack up, i have never let my skin consume me like this before in my life. Staring in the mirror at myself each day wondering how bad my face will look in certain lights. Im loosing my sanity, my dad just laughs at me when i complain about my face. He just goes there is nothing wrong with me. I feel so alienish though, so impure and diseased.

I often wish i was 10 years old again, i had perfect skin, good hair. Now my skin is shitty, well in my mind it is. And my hair grows as slow as snails on dope.

I also detest shaving and i can`t stand facial hair on my face. In an ideal world i would get all the hair removed from my face so it would never grow back. i would just leave the eyebrows and sideburns to a certain length.

I guess it is possible, but would cost a bomb and i dread to think how my face would look. I don`t mind hair on my arms, chest or legs. Just my damn face and that isn`t even the half of it.

I want perfection, even though i think my face may look boring with absolutely flawless skin. Arghh what do i do, im still on my oxytetracycline, im using clean and clear blackhead clearing scrub. But i have a combination of red patches from diminished spots/ red pataches from putting shitty bp on my face, a few flesh colored bumps. I really hate it, oh yeah and i also get stupid little hairs growing on the outside of my nose on the tip. Fuck me i mayaswell be a werewolf. Im going to crack up i just know it!

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that avatar is pretty cool. I like that sig stinko.

Ellen I wouldn't waste your time reading my posts. When you do nothing, you dont have anythign interesting to talk about. Can you tell me a little about the Bahamas, all I know is that your olympic athletes wear blue rolleyes.gif (if memory serves). My names adam, but nevermind suits, its what i always say to end a conversation which would otherwise lead to me coming up with some bullshit excuse for my behaviour, instead of spitting out the truth.

I have to go into town tomorow to by a card for my sis and will hopefully get into a chemists, would like to try bochla's (+moisturiser) as bp hasnt worked for me and I think the bochla's stuff is available here.

oh, now besides the crap near my mouth, a cluster of zits on my cheek, which were fading, have had a second coming eusa_wall.gifninja.gif

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Im almost 22 and i am obsessed with my skin, every little bump/blemish/spot and even mole. I feel my face is progressively getting wrose by the day, i actually cry over every tiny imperfection i see, i just know im going to crack up, i have never let my skin consume me like this before in my life. Staring in the mirror at myself each day wondering how bad my face will look in certain lights.

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Hi Adam!

It's Ellen again. I don't think reading your posts are a waste of time. So...you want to know about the paradise I live in, huh? Well, there are about 700 islands that make up the Bahamas, of which only about 50 are inhabited. The national language is English. Like Australia, we used to be ruled by Britain. We speak a slang english sorta like Jamaica, but it doesn't sound like that. It is sunny almost all year long. I went to the beach on Christmas eve last year. I truly love it here, which is why I have so many problems. Everyone tells me that I should move to the U.S., but I don't really like it there. I love it here!!!! Waking up and seeing the water on the way to work is refreshing and beautiful. We have about 300,000 people in the whole Bahamas. Almost everyone here on Nassau knows each other. There is definitely no hiding anything from anyone. We have GOOD food!!!!! I eat conch a lot. So....that's probably enough for today. I don't want to make you sick of hearing about the Bahamas. HOw is Australia? I have family there, but we don't talk much.

My sister just had her bridal shower about 2 weeks ago and I dreaded going because of my face. I had to be on film the whole time. I don't even like watching it. I wish you luck!!! You will be fine.

What exactly are you using on your face?

By the way, the athletes do wear blue. Our flag is blue, blackm and yellow.

Well, have a GREAT DAY biggrin.gif

Bye

Ellen

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ahh.. now I know why all those people in blue looked so happy, the Bahamas sound great.

disclaimer: joy may or may not have been due to being at the olympics

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@nevermind:

try not to worry, just put some concealer on if they are still visible tomorrow, no one will notice them, just try to forget about them and enjoy your evening..

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well ive had a very mixed weekend (now 4pm sunday)

started sat morning, went to four different chemists and none had either of the C&C washes for bochlas, or this other stuff i was after evil.gif but did get a new daytime moisturiser with spf, which will hopefully replace the peice-o-shit greasy looking crap I have had lately. Also went to a supermarket and got some ACV and green tea (leaf), when you live like I do you gotta make the most of every outing. rolleyes.gif

so then im gettin ready to leave for the party, was picking off some flakey skin around my mouth and accidently pulled the centre out of one of my zits eusa_doh.gif (appologise if you just threw up) and of course it bled and inflamed the whole area... excellent eusa_snooty.gif

the party started and guests were arriving, many of my relatives I hadnt seen for a while, alot of my cousins are about my age. ALL of them had clear skin, makes me feel shithouse and like im the young one. anyway the throbbing on my skin had stopped and I was determined to try to pretend my skin looked good eusa_liar.gif didnt fool myself for a second. eusa_naughty.gif

then my sister (the engaged one) askes us (her family) upstairs to help her out with something and she tells us that the engagements off, instead they're getting married right now! WOW WHAT A SURPRISE!! I was really really happy for her (and him) but then realised that this ment marriage photos would be taken (permanent and often looked at), and I looked fuckn shit. eusa_wall.gif then she wants me to read out a short passage while the ceremony is taking place and im like you've got to be joking. (I said "i'd luve to sis")

went in for lunch today to say bye to the newlyweds b4 their honeymoon. another bad experience. trying to put on a happy face doesn't make me feel any better.

basically im fucking glad its over, wish the wedding had of been next year sometime, when im hoping i'll be clear and would have really enjoyed it..was not to be. next up is my other sisters uni graduation, this thursday, then mine a couple of weeks later. I just fucked my face up some more, so im expecting to be at my usual worst. cry.gif

ahh to run away and live a life of solitude out in the sticks, if I had any bush skills i'd be bloody tempted eusa_think.gif

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